Mmmh

Got rid of every memory with you in the middle of June. You never existed mkay bye 

After  all the deaths, especially suicides around me I feel numb towards the feeling of "death is always there". Sure let it be around me, let it hang around me. At this point I am the one seeking death the moment I get the opportunity, I will beat the death before getting it to me. I will take myself there with my own hands, I just need time. I am only scared to hurt this one person, my mum and thats it. I pray for her to live long as moment she leaves me I am also waving goodbye.

BABY I'M MISSING THE FUCK OUT OF YOU <33

I need NEED Usui Tamaki in my life 

Suddenly missing a person who isn't in your life anymore and wishing they could walk you through your troubles is different type of pain

I deleted many but I kept few memories with you. They are still there, hidden away in my gallery. So accessible. Yet I'm scared to even look at them. It's been over 5 months. Please. Leave me alone. Please. 

Sometimes I just wanna be hugged to sleep 

I got rid of most of the things and pictures that reminded me of you and our time together. I'm getting stronger, I'm getting over it. I barely remember most of the memories and I gotta thank my goldfish memory for that. I can get rid of everything but why can't it forget these music which you showed me once? 

Why do memories hurt so much ? 

I hate Januaries with my whole soul and being