Gray898

Major Vent (this is personal a bit) 
          
          Mentions of depression and meds.
          
          I didn’t want to explain this but I can’t do nothing but talk to you guys who may relate or not , I just want someone to talk to , just someone to simply talk to at this moment 
          
          My mother said to me as she was trying to argue with me over stupid shit and she said 
          “You act like your a very intelligent person when your not.” In a calm tone when I looked at her after I took off my headphones to listen halfway through since I usally have my headphones on 24/7 so I don’t hear all the negative shit being said to me. I talked to my therapist about everything and even my therapist knows there’s only so much I could do , got told it’s  depression back a few months ago , ignored it to an extent and didn’t want to go on meds. I still don’t wanna go on meds because even if I do it will change how I feel yes but it won’t change what’s going on. I’m lost I really am. There’s only so much I can do but I lost my spark , my spark was drowned. I have no motivation to really do anything I love doing such as writing at  the moment. I workout to escape but that’s only working so much. 
          
          I want to feel again. I truly want to just actually feel again. 

Why tf are people making trends of 9/11 on YouTube to get likes wtf T-T 
          
          

I got screamed at for leaving a box of cereal on the counter this morning , A fucking box of cereal :/ 
          
          Where did I genuinely go wrong in life.

YALL FOR THOSE WHO LIKE PRICE LOOK AT THE ONESHOT I JUST POSTED OML BROOOOOOOOO IM CLAWING AND EATING THE DRYWALL 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1453075537?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=Gray898

Rant. 
          
          No cuz I know I’ve speakin to y’all about this but like you think I’ll get a bf who will actually like me for me ? Like cuz I legit have a buzzcut and just dress in hoods and shorts (the occasional suit and tie for events) and I’m not really feminine even if I’m a girl ( which yall know about) , I been feeling hella lonely insecure about it to a little bit and idk 

Guess who found two cockroaches in both of there bathrooms!

Look what I’ve been working on for four days lol :) 
          
           https://www.tumblr.com/vault-099-gray/752751222147137536/tap-for-better-quality

It’s past midnight rn for me and broo I wanna draw since my motivation popped up but like I’m tired 
          
          AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DUDE I have your name in my Bio right? WELL I SPELLED IT Gray989 NOT Gray898 SO IT'S BEEN TO A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON AND I JUST NOW NOTICED XD LMFAO

BROOOO SO MY SCIENCE TEACHER GOT MAD AT THE KIDS IN MY CLASS AND BRO WAS FED UP HE LEGIT SAID 
          
          “If you don’t wanna be here that’s fine , then leave but for those who do wanna be hear great but some of you are ruining it for the others here so the ones ruining it need to cut the bullshit.”
          
          I was flabbergasted