Elenor Aulbry

Life, for some it can be defined as good, fun, exciting and for others it could be defined as bad, lonely and a waste of time, there are so many ways to describe the word we call life...And sure life has its ups and downs but that's expected because overall life is grand.
Well that's what I'd like to say but I would be lying to myself if I said that.
From the moment we are born we are set on a path regardless if it's our doing or not, we are born to grow up to start school and once we graduate that part of our lives we head off to school again...high school and each year gets harder, during that we work and figure out where we want to be in life.
Whilst we are figuring out all these major life choices we have to fend for ourselves getting told to toughen up and to deal with our problems.
That's what we were told, stand up for yourself and that's hard to do if you don't know who you are.
We are expected to define ourselves at such an early age and if we didn't do it, others did it for us and at the same time we were being told what we were
We were being asked "what do you want to be when you grow up?"
I always thought that was an unfair question. It presupposes that we can't be what we already are. We were kids.
I would then watch other children and try to find an identity for myself...ballerina, artist, chef, teacher, doctor, I would adore the aspiration of being something I could only dream of, those notions are what kept my childhood dreams alive.
But there comes a point where you have to grow up, you have to stop thinking of all the possibilities and be realistic, these last 2 years of my life have been the most conflicting when it comes to figuring out what I want to be and there are still so many things I want to achieve and strive for.
I love writing, it's a passion of mine but then again so is lying in bed watching a good horror film.
But after years of trying to find myself I found myself by accident, I revised my madness to realize in my insanity was gold....