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          	Have you ever wanted so bad for someone to hold you? And not just a simple hug from your friend or something, but someone who you love to hold you while you cry,to give you that warm bubbly feeling inside? A significant other. That's what I'm craving. A guy who is everything I want. And yes, that is waaaay too much to ask for, and I realize that. But is it? Like I'm not very demanding. I know when you're the one, I will instantly know when I like you. Once I realize I am craving your attention, you're presences, I know I have some sort of connection with you, even if we are only friends. 
          	But I want someone to love me.
          	I just finished reading an X Reader book and I had such a bubbly warm feeling inside, it felt so perfect. And after it I got real bittersweet because I cannot see myself having that. And I'm not saying like oh I'm a loner, I'll be alone forever, boohoo, I just cannot see anyone in my life right now who can or would want to give that to me.
          	I love hugs. I haven't had a real hug in a while, a hug where I wanna hold on and never let go. I haven't had one of those in forever. I hug a stuffed animal every night, wishing one day I'll have someone to hold me instead of my own imagination. 
          	And I know it would prolly end badly, but I don't want to think about that. No one ever does. I've never had the experience of loving someone. I've need had the chance to love another and for them to love me. I want it to be meaningful.
          	If you love someone, if you want them and only them, and you know they are the one, don't let them go. Hold tightly and don't screw it up. 
          	And if you do have someone you love, please, tell me how it feels. Cause I can't wait until I have someone to thrust all my love upon. I've been saving up a lot over the years. ^_^
          	
          	
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          Have you ever wanted so bad for someone to hold you? And not just a simple hug from your friend or something, but someone who you love to hold you while you cry,to give you that warm bubbly feeling inside? A significant other. That's what I'm craving. A guy who is everything I want. And yes, that is waaaay too much to ask for, and I realize that. But is it? Like I'm not very demanding. I know when you're the one, I will instantly know when I like you. Once I realize I am craving your attention, you're presences, I know I have some sort of connection with you, even if we are only friends. 
          But I want someone to love me.
          I just finished reading an X Reader book and I had such a bubbly warm feeling inside, it felt so perfect. And after it I got real bittersweet because I cannot see myself having that. And I'm not saying like oh I'm a loner, I'll be alone forever, boohoo, I just cannot see anyone in my life right now who can or would want to give that to me.
          I love hugs. I haven't had a real hug in a while, a hug where I wanna hold on and never let go. I haven't had one of those in forever. I hug a stuffed animal every night, wishing one day I'll have someone to hold me instead of my own imagination. 
          And I know it would prolly end badly, but I don't want to think about that. No one ever does. I've never had the experience of loving someone. I've need had the chance to love another and for them to love me. I want it to be meaningful.
          If you love someone, if you want them and only them, and you know they are the one, don't let them go. Hold tightly and don't screw it up. 
          And if you do have someone you love, please, tell me how it feels. Cause I can't wait until I have someone to thrust all my love upon. I've been saving up a lot over the years. ^_^
          
          
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Hey yall. I know I should prolly be updating my book, every ones like 'omg, gimme more, yayayayaya' and I'm sorry, I likely won't update if for a few days. Kinda stressing with my own things, but that's another story. 
          
          I am also unbelievably stuck in where to take my book "And He Gave Me Light", if you haven't checked out its there if you wanna. If you wanna see more, and have any sort of idea, PLEASE give my anything, any sort of thing to spark even the faintest idea would help immensely. 
          
          Thanks yall, below is prolly gonna be just a random rant cause that is apparently a thing I do now. Saturdays may become rant days, but I have lost of empty promises so don't count on it lol...  But ya it has nothing to do with anything And prolly won't make sense, so feel free to skip it. 
          
          And yes I am aware I say prolly instead of probably. I do it in real life sometimes and it's shorter and Idk don't judge me XD

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      Little did you know how I'm breaking while you fall asleep. Little did you know I'm still haunted by the memories. Little did you know I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece. Little did you know, I need a little more time.
                Underneath it all, I'm held captive by the hole inside. I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind. I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight. Little do you know I need a little more time...
          
          Yea I know I'm alone. I'm fine. I'm just hurt. This is for the guy I like, the guy who hates me, the people think I have it all... And all of you who don't hear me. I'm fine. I'm just alone. Happy Easter.

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      There is a girl in the front of my class who I swear I've never seen do anything but laugh. She's tall and she's smart, beautiful and strong and when someone's down she tries to fix what is wrong. 
                How can someone so perfect, feel so insecure? As to scar her skin with cuts and burns and still want to hurt more...  How can someone so loving, learn to hate her own guts? Drawing a picture on her arms with a blade as if her mind isn't dark enough...