Hey, I'm not in any position to understand your pain, or comment on it. But, I can 100% guarantee that there's someone who genuinely needs you in their life. So please, for theirs, yours, and especially your mom's sake, please do not give up. If you need someone for comfort, I'll be there, along with many others who are surely ready to help you cope. Please take care of yourself and your family, I'm sure your mother would have wished for the same.
@ChanniesGiggles Hey, thanks for checking by. Well, I'm still in the throes of it. Suicidality, mostly. The Wattys' shortlist is coming up soon, so that doesn't help with anxiety.
But it's nice to see that someone cares for a complete stranger. It's kinda the only thing that gives me hope right now.