SanityWasTaken

wilbur makes me so incredibly angry

I haven't been on here in so long I literally forgot my password
          I HAD TO RESET IT 

Everytime I do anything related to wilbur I get a small anxiety attack 
          
          But i have done progress so that's good, starting to take all wilbur-centric fics out of my reading lists. I'm taking fics with authors that haven't said anything about the situation/haven't changed the story to remove wilbur from a positive light in their fics out aswell
          
          Js an update ig, I feel it's important that I do update my progress on things related to him 

'kay, I think I'm gonna make a new acc for my Hazbin Hotel shit
          I hate deleting things cause I know it'll never be like that again and I hate change and I hate the idea that if I even want to, I'll never be able to return to how it was
          So I'm gonna keep this account how it is, mostly DSMP/MCYT shit, and Imma make a new account for HH/HB shit in a similar theme/vibe
          Like I have all these reading lists and shit
          I'll still be active on this account, dw
          I'm gonna make an acc and I'll comment on this once I'm there so y'all can follow it if you want idrc, I doubt I'll write HH/HB fics but you never know

Added to the descriptions of all my stories, added a note to the top of the first chapter in "I'm Fine" and I've started working on editing the first chapter
          Thought y'all might want an update, idk

Going through my Camara Roll Deleting all the Wilbur Photos/Fanart I have is like actually so upsetting cause it's just something thats like this is real
          I hate it

I've taken some time to think on this
          I've gotten more information
          As a victim of abuse, I cannot write about Wilbur Soot know what he's done and how he responded.
          I haven't been the most active with my stories but I can say I'll be taking a break for a while, and when I feel I can re-read what I've written in order to edit it, I will be changing the main character in my fic "I'm fine", probably to Tommy as that would change the plot the least for what I have planned so far
          I have a oneshot written in Wilbur's perspective that I wrote back in 2021 or early '22 that I was very proud of, I will not be changing it or taking it down. In order to show how far I've come as a writer as well as being able to remember certain personal memories I have with that price that I do not want to lose.
          I have a Wilbur and Tommy fic. I don't know what I want to do with it, I don't know how. I wasn't very active on it, I hardly work on it, but I do have ideas for it. I may replace Wilbur with an OC with similar characteristics to the perspective of him I had at the time for plot purposes.
          I don't know what I will be doing with my reading lists yet.
          I am disgusted with what Wilbur Soot has done and his response to the entire situation makes it almost worse. 
          Wilbur was my favorite MCYT and I truely idolized him and I am incredibly hurt by his actions.
          But what I am feeling is nothing in comparison to Shelby's. I fully support Her and I hope she heals from her experience, what Wilbur did to her was vile.
          I genuinely wonder what the fuck goes on inside his head to think his actions were okay.

This is not okay I am so angry and I'm genuinely grieving the person I thought he was.
          Fuck my life feels like it's falling apart I don't like this at all

Someone explain what Wilbur did rn I'm so confused
          I don't have twitter, I'm hardly in the fandom anymore
          I am concerned and confused and I don't have all the information can someone please tell me wtf is going on

im following you bc ur reading lists r good