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I just wanna cry sometimes. Just to be relax, in an other world without thoughts. You know, I wanna be empty when I'm not but when I am, I wanna me sad, very sad. In a same way I don't want to think about everything, about my life and my futur. I know that what I say right now is unnecessary and boring but I need you to know how I feel every second of this fucking life.
I'm so sorry for you to read that and maybe feeling that. I'm so sorry beacause I'm not important for you, I mean, I don't want to be important for you and I'm happier if it is the case.
You deserve, all of you, to be happy, to be loved by someone you love ( not just in relationship), you deserve to be calm in your head and in your mind. You deserve to be listened to, to be considered as human beacause you are.
You are Human, and you have to look at you in te mirror and say to yourself that you deserve everything and that you can do everything that you like (in a correct way, of course).
I'm french and all I can say to people, all I want to say to people is in English. Fucking God, I'm so afraid by french words. They are too real.
My English is not perfect but currently I don't give a fuck of that.
I want you to be the person you love to be, you dream to be. And you can, maybe not now but someday. You'll be this person.
Please, be this person.
And, also, I know you may hate this sentence but I need to tell it, I need you to read it. I swear to you, please just read it without laughing. It's hard, I know, I wanna laugh too.
Be yourself.
If you're not yourself so nobody can be you. They try, a lot of people maybe want to be you but they can't so be you for them. Appreciate. Enjoy being you. It's completely normal. You're amazing. Do you know why? Because you're you and you're are the only one on this planet who can be like this.
Anyway, fighting! We all are not perfect and if you think that we are so stop thinking for a while. It's stupid. We all have problems and yes we lie. Everybody lies!