Hey, I want to offer my condolences. It must be really hard to have someone so close to you not there anymore . It feels like your heart is slowly breaking and you just don’t know what to do anymore, loss is tough. Really tough but just know that he loved you, ok? I can also feel you on a emotional level too, I lost my grandpa I havnt seen since I was 10 years old. I’m almost in my early-mid 20’s now, and it’s been awful. But it’s gonna be ok, it’s not gonna happen over night, and it’s gonna be a tough road ahead but allow yourself to grieve and then pull everyone who you love close to you and enjoy every moment you have with them. If you ever need someone to talk to I’m here for you. Again I give my condolences