Alex_andriaar

I FINISHED MY FIRST YEAR OF STUDYING!
          	
          	Now all that's left is the last few finals but I'm almost finished with my first year omg that's exciting

ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar No, you will not. Don't give up, don't stop fighting till the end. For my last semester, i didn't even know the syllabus until a few weeks before the exams. But, I didn't give up. You just have to pass. Don't give up until the end.
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Alex_andriaar

@ThePrimordialOne I didn't attend like... 4 months due to health issues and so I know nothing and will fail but I can get a better grade in the summer studies
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ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar Don't lose hope, yet. I was heavily depressed throughout my whole college life, I even missed an exam. But, I graduated anyways, within the given years.
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Alex_andriaar

I FINISHED MY FIRST YEAR OF STUDYING!
          
          Now all that's left is the last few finals but I'm almost finished with my first year omg that's exciting

ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar No, you will not. Don't give up, don't stop fighting till the end. For my last semester, i didn't even know the syllabus until a few weeks before the exams. But, I didn't give up. You just have to pass. Don't give up until the end.
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Alex_andriaar

@ThePrimordialOne I didn't attend like... 4 months due to health issues and so I know nothing and will fail but I can get a better grade in the summer studies
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ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar Don't lose hope, yet. I was heavily depressed throughout my whole college life, I even missed an exam. But, I graduated anyways, within the given years.
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Alex_andriaar

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Hello hello bitches and bros and non binary hoes! So it seems the annoying biotch that is Wattpad has made it impossible to send personal messages on here, how lovely.
          I'm still reachable on Instagram and I just might open a snap for you guys. 
          Do remember, I also have a patreon you can definitely talk to me on there as well.
          nd I'm reminding exclusive scenes from chapter 7 of IGNITE will be uploaded Friday.
          So yeah
          Okay bye you fucking gays <3
          — Alex

Alex_andriaar

I love how my brain remembers the whole divorced beheaded and died song, and a whole entire scene from harry potter yet not a single thing for my finals. Such fascinating coincidences lmao

sarosarosarosarosaro

@Alex_andriaar, i wish you the best of luck though!
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sarosarosarosarosaro

For real
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Alex_andriaar

@sarosarosarosarosaro vocal stims are love vocal stims are life lmao... We are so not graduating
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Alex_andriaar

Hey guys if you've noticed I unpublished the extra scenes book since I'm going to start publishing it on patreon. I would love it if you guys could go and support me on there. 
          Currently there's only the black tier which will include exclusive chapters both smut and non, but it is flagged as 18+.
          I completely understand if you can't support me but it would mean a lot if you do.

Alex_andriaar

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Update y'all Still alive after last night. No need to stress and shit I'm not kms don't worry. Am I thinking about it? Sure every single minute of every single day. Last night I had a terrible flare up of hoth suicidal thoughts and my illness, I've been very sick for 6 months now and I've thought of ending it every morning I wake up. But actually what helped me the most is you guys. Getting your support. When I say something kinda crazy I always get a bunch of dm's asking if I want to talk and shit and I'm so grateful. But still I don't feel good at all. If you want to hear more about my condition don't hesitate to dm me.
          Thanks for everyone. Do I feel okay now? Absolutely not. I feel like pure shit absolutely fucking horrendous.

ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar I'm not very good with words but I will tell you something. Find the exact reason, why everything feels like s#it. I'm talking about what aspect of your daily life is causing this whole distress. When you find out about that, try to think of solutions to get out of that or at least distract yourself from it for the time being. Life is precious, we only get one chance in billions of years. There are so many things, that are yet to be uncovered about the planet and the galaxy we are living in. Just lie down in bed, close your eyes and think about the first thing that comes to your mind. If it's something productive, try doing that. If something negative comes to your mind, try to find the reason for that. Most of the time, we don't know or are unable to find REASON for something, hence we fail to find a solution. Maybe, start from there. Remember, we only have one life, one chance in billions of years. ❤
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Alex_andriaar

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Why fo I always come on here to complain to a bunch of strangers yet bot talk to my therapist...
          Anyway I'm feeling like absolute shit. Both mentally and physically. Jumping off a bridge sounds fantastic but unfortunately I don't live near any. 
          I do though, live near an active volcano. 
          Will I end this semester or will this semester end me? Stay tuned

talapia03

@Alex_andriaar I know that feeling well and I do have bridges nearby. But is it really worth it to yourself to continue those thoughts?
            
            Please don't hesitate to reach out if you need a vent ( I live with a messed up medical system too so I get both aspects) 
            
            Thinking about you.
            
            ~Rocky
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ThePrimordialOne

@Alex_andriaar Please, relax and calm down. Take deep breaths. Life can be s#it, trust me I know. I have spent my whole college life in depression, sometimes it felt like I don't want anything anymore. No one to vent to, no one that I could open myself with. What kept me going was, the future. The future, where maybe I will get to do what I want. The future, where so many things will change. Where it won't be the same as it was years ago. Maybe it will become more s#it. It doesn't matter. I wanted to see it even if it became more s#it, than it already is. I'm sure you'll find something to keep yourself up and going. ❤
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