I usually use this to post updates and don't post anything too personal but I'm just fed up and I need to vent. For 4 years I've been living in the most disastrous and shitty places and I'm just tired of always having to stand filthy flatmates.
The first time I shared was with some (ex)friends & the first day I arrived, the kitchen was filled with worms, couldn't even see the real color of the floor. My flatmates had left the waste rubbish for 3 months in a city that reaches 35ºC and has high humidity. I had to take care of that on my first day. They had rat pets and they let them eat on the dishes (they grabbed mine, never cleaned them), they left rat poo everywhere and one day the rat got scabies and I had to take care of it, then they got mad because I did not want to. The list goes on.
Now I'm sharing with a family member who has the audacity of always blaming things on me when I'm the one who's always cleaning and fixing stuff. They're constantly being rude, and in an awful mood because "they have a lot of stress" and "work a lot", and if I say anything "they'll start drinking & smoking again and it will be my fault". Apparently, only they are stressed and have things going on... Not to talk about how they've had me acting as if I was their mother when I'm obviously not and I'm actually years younger than them. And ofc, they have all the family's side :) I'm so tired of always dreading the hour when they come home because I don't know in what mood they'll be today. I've even resorted to doing everything I can in my room to not annoy them, hear them, or cross them. But the other day something happened and it's just gotten worse with them and the whole family in general.
Anyway, I'm honestly not in a good place (mentally and physically) to have the motivation to write. I may post a chapter I have pretty much finished from my Dreams book, but I don't know when I'll post again. Sorry for that and this sudden rant, but I needed it. Hope I can keep writing soon
