Aileedales

Sooo TTPD is added to the set list, huh? I still have to pick up my jaw off the floor. Lotta changes to the set list. Excuse me while I stare at the wall.

Aileedales

Did anyone else become depressed listening to TTPD? And I still haven’t digested the 2nd album properly! Anyways, what are your favorite song off TTPD?

Aileedales

@Jessiwritess what’s your most favorite bridge so far?
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Aileedales

@Jessiwritess oh my god yassss. I love it too! It does something to my brainnn. And the way she says “bikeee i”. Ughhhh. 
            
            Ah! Those songs are certified bangersss!  I’m kind of torn between dancing and being depressed.  
            Oh and So high school and The alchemy make me giddy!
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Jessiwritess

It took a few listens but imgonnagetyouback is my fav from the album! The way she says “I can take the upper hand and touch your body” Is just so satisfying lol! Also the whole bridge is so so good!!!! 
            
            I also love Florida!!! , down bad, Clara bow, fortnight and so high school
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prexielia

It's nice to have you back
          I got a new phone but didn't download Wattpad
          But when I remembered that I still have 'someone like you ' left to read, I had to download it
          And I'm glad to see that you've updated it
          Like, I'm really glad and can't wait for the next update......
          I love you ❤️✨

Aileedales

Aww. Thank you. I’m so happy you remembered me! I’m glad you found the new updates. Updates are a bit sporadic at the moment thank you so much for coming back. Have a great day. :)
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Aileedales

Yesterday was my birthday. I’m supposed to be wiser than I was the day or year before that. But as I blew out my candle, I was much more clueless than I was when I was a kid. All I could feel was the same profound loneliness. It’s so close to turning a year older. I never seem to get it off.  It keeps on coming back like a disease keeping me sick. No matter how I try to keep it at bay, it slips past me every waking hour and quiet night.
          Sometimes, it keeps me up—when I can no longer bear it. Sometimes, it hurts too much I thought I was close to the sweet relief of non-existence. I’d be lying if I told you I was never once tempted to follow that loneliness down the precipice. I wonder if I’ll hurt less once I let that loneliness lead me down a path of non-existence. I wonder about the day the people who love me can no longer anchor me to the ground.
          I feel like a burden on their shoulders, rotting their souls like a plague. Sometimes I wonder what relief they must feel without trying to lift me on their shoulders. I wish I could without causing them heartaches. If only I could stop existing without leaving traces and memories behind. Maybe then they wouldn’t remember that I was gone. Or that I existed in the first place. Maybe then I could save them from the inevitable grief.
          This is all my wishful thinking. Although it’s a struggle to keep it that way, I try. 
          All I can do is try.

Mattaliano7

@Aileedales NAM MYO HO RENGE KYO è un mantra che puoi ripetere come se fosse un canto. Ti aiuterà a r ritrovare la tua vera natura e potrai ascoltare il tuo cuore per sentire che la vita è preziosa in ogni singolo istante. Non dimenticare mai che tu hai la possibilità di vedere la tua vera natura di bodhisattva della terra.
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BusiMusi

@Aileedales It's better to be late than never Lee so happy belated birthday my dear friend. May the year 2024 bring you nothing but love, prosperity, laughter and joy.
            
            God doesn't give us challenges that he knows we can't over come. He knows that you will over come all the challenges you are facing right because you are stronger than you think so hang in there sweetie. You are not a burden my dear.
            
            When ever am down I will start thinking about your  stories. What am trying to say is your work brings me peace. I still remember your first version of Cadthie love story.
            
             My favourite scene was Kathie acting like a monkey that ran away from the Mental institution. 
            
            I will share a little secret with you and your fans/friends. I have been trying for 2-3 for a child but can't have them. My partner doesn't know that sometimes whenever an alone I would feel as if am nothing and I would cry thinking why can't I be pregnant while kid who should worry about finishing school gets pregnant while can't 29 year old who will be turning 30 on 25th next month can't be pregnant. But I still have that believe that one day I may be pregnant. 
            
            So let's just take one day at the time. Keep writing because your sense of humour brings smiles to our face then laughter. You are not a burden I have never met you in person even I don't really know how do you look like but what know is I love you like a sister if you are a she  or like a brother if you are a he.  
            
            Let writing be your remedy my dear Aileedales.
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aditi184

@Aileedales   My past self could completely relate to things you wrote here, but I made progress, so can you. I may not completely out of this but I am at least half way there. That's why I'm saying this, Don't you dare to give up on yourself.
            Don't even entertain those thoughts.
            
            I can suggest you few wonderful  books that really helped me. I really hope you give it a try:- 
            "I can do it" by Louis Hay and many of her audios available on YouTube, 
            " Psycho-cybernetics" and 
            "Game of life and how to play it".
            These  books were really helpful.
            
            Few things that I say to myself during low moments:-
            I am not defined by those dark thoughts that are surrounding me. I am not my fear. I am not my anxiety. I am not even my failure. I am much much more than that. I am God's creation.
             Life is amazing.
            Life is there for me, it is here to support me and I love life. 
            
            I really hope things I wrote here might help you in some way.
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