4th_wall_fixer_2000

Signs of depression:
1. You can't snap yourself out of it
2. You can't cheer yourself up
3. You've lost interest in everything
4. You can't function like you used to
5. Your "laziness"
 isn't triggered by anything 
6. Your "laziness" isn't a choice


Parents: 
"why are you always on your phone?"
"why are you always in your room?"
"why can't you go out and socialize?"
"why are you always wearing this?"
"why are you getting mad so easily?"
"why don't you hang out with your real-life friends instead of your online friends?"
'you have to get an A+!!"
"just why!?"

My Mind: 
"i'm trying my best."
"i can't go and socialize that easily... they're going to judge me!"
"i'm scared."
"i'm hopeless useless worthless."
"do you love me?"
"who am i.."
"why can't i enjoy the things i used to enjoy before..."
"i'm never gonna be good-enough. i swear i'm trying! but.... i'm just hopeless..."
 "maybe that's why i'm always failing"
"i'm just a stupid failure."
"please just leave me alone."


"It's because of that stupid phone'
"Stop being so lazy"
"Tough up"
"When I was your age I would be doing school work"
"Get up lazy head"
"Just get back to work!"
"Stop being in bed all day"
 "IDIOT"

They didn't notice I was crying
They don't notice I'm sad
They don't notice I was tired
They don't notice I'm alone.
They didn't notice how attractive you were.
They didn't notice how sweet you actually are.
They don't notice how I actually try to make other people smile and laugh

They do notice my failing grades
They do notice I'm unattractive
They do notice the mean side of me
They do notice all of my mistakes
They do notice all of my flaws
They do notice that I was not good enough for them
They did notice when I finally snapped 

I have felt all or heard of these things if you feel the same go to therapy don't bottle it up so you don't end up like me. Also.remember the smallest most insignificant comment that you'll forget about in 10 seconds can mean the difference between life or death