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In 2015, I lost my brother to suicide, he was in his early thirties. Too young to die. For a long period of time I was almost completly dead inside. My stress soon developed into anxiety, then to a deep depression that lasted for well over a year. I honestly wanted nothing but for the pain to stop. The feeling of loss for my brother made me less stable until it overwhelmed me. Thankfully, I wasn't far enough to attempt suicide, but I did self harm. After months of this pain I commited myself to a mental hospital. I wasn't forced to by anyone, I told my mother that I needed to and, off I went.
I was fifteen. I am almost twenty now. Suicide is NEVER the solution.. Talk to a mental health professional. You may think it won't help, but don't worry, it will help. To those who feel like they can "fix" somebody who is depressed: You might not want to hear this but, you can't. You can help them by just listening to what they have to say, but at the end of the day, only the one who is depressed can fix it. However, that doesn't mean you shouldn't help them.Sometimes a "you're are going to be okay" and an "I care" here and there can save a life. Be supportive. If you need someone to talk to, message me. Just keep in mind that, I'm not a mental health specialist. I might be wrong, I am only human afterall. I am only sharing what worked for me. I ask that anybody who reads this to share their own story, but only if it is safe and you're sure that it won't trigger a relapse of ANY kind on your part. Share if you felt that you learnt any kind of life lesson it might help someone. You never know. I leave you with a promise of a better future. If you feel depressed, I just want you to know that, No matter how dark today may seem, that someday, I can't tell you when, but someday the light will return. Darkness never lasts. Know that somebody loves you, and that somebody is me. I love you. I care about how you feel.
