Mommy Wasn't There - A memoir in progress
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  • Reads 644
  • Votes 9
  • Parts 14
  • Time 59m
Ongoing, First published Apr 23, 2013
As a young child, I spent most of my waking hours wondering where I went wrong. 
Why did my mother lack the capability of expressing compassion toward me? 
I constantly wonder if my place on earth is meant to be. I still do.
Was I assigned the wrong set of parents? 

By the age of 15, I was left to fend for myself. 
Since then, I had to figure out how to fuel my faith so that I can attain the strength to survive. My soul is beyond exhausted but I keep on going.

It's been a difficult journey. 

I now wonder how much different my life would have been if mommy stuck around.
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