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Mommy Wasn't There - A memoir in progress

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As a young child, I spent most of my waking hours wondering where I went wrong. 
Why did my mother lack the capability of expressing compassion toward me? 
I constantly wonder if my place on earth is meant to be. I still do.
Was I assigned the wrong set of parents? 

By the age of 15, I was left to fend for myself. 
Since then, I had to figure out how to fuel my faith so that I can attain the strength to survive. My soul is beyond exhausted but I keep on going.

It's been a difficult journey. 

I now wonder how much different my life would have been if mommy stuck around.All Rights Reserved

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My Truth

This about my life. No lies, no storytelling. The truth. If it's not something you're interested in or have the stomach to read, please don't. I haven't changed names or places. The people I write in here, myself included, will be held accountable. I'm tired of being told to sit down and shut up. Tired of people not caring or willing to help.