Jiyeon's POV
"I'm always here and will always listen to your rants jiyeon."
"Thank you." I lowly said I went to the railings and press my body in front
"So I'm really sad on my own birthday. Special persons didn't greet me, I came home without someone greeting me. I would be happy if just one of them did but no one." I started I already feel like crying
"Are you referring to your sisters?"
"Of course who else jiae." I laugh at her question
"Don't laugh when your sad cause it doesn't suit what you feel right now." As she said those my laugh died down
"Don't show the opposite feeling your heart feels jiyeon. It's very bad for you and it will affect the people around you."
"They don't even care about me." I sadly said
"They do jiyeon, that's what you felt cause you always want attention from them."
Is getting attention really that bad I just want to feel my sisters love for me this might be selfish but I only want me to be their only baby jiyeon is that bad for me and them.
"Be friends with other people too, your unnies are not always with you, yeon. They also have their individual life. I'm not slapping this words to you, but all of that was facts."
"Can't I be selfish jiae." I said crying already
"You can jiyeon you can. But you did it on the wrong time, a friendly advice yeon. Don't expect please even they are the closest person to you don't expect cause your hopes will kill you in the end."
What she said really hit me hard, I just want to be happy on my birthday. It's been days since my unnies always avoid me except when they longing for my presence like sana unnie earlier.
Everytime I go to her to cuddle she will always stand up so she can avoid me. I always feel like useless and not a worthy person. I'm a clingy person and I can't handle it when my love ones avoid me.
"Jiae I want to be happy today. Can you sing me a happy birthday?" I asked her and wipe my tears but it keeps coming down
"Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday to you~"
"Baby yeon happy birthday, even though we're just months apart you'll always be my dongsaeng. I love you always."
"Thank you jiae unnie.." I cry again and again
"I'll sing a happy birthday for myself too a gift for myself."
"Happy birthday to m-me h-happy b-birthday happy birthday h-happy birthday to m-me..." Crying again I keep sniffing it hurts so much but happy at the same time
I'm just happy someone sing me a happy birthday in this kind of situation. Of course itzy unnies I'm happy too they greeted me and my friends.
"Now stop crying, I hate to hear you cry." What she said triggered me
*Flashback
"Now stop crying baby yeon we hate to see you cry." I look up to nayeon unnie
"Happy 17th birthday our baby." Mina unnie hugged me and they all followed
*Flashback ends
"I'm happy now."
"Did I made you smile." I can hear her teasing voice it made me smile
"You did."
I open my phone and look at the time already 11:59 pm. My birthday is ending I'm happy a little that my birthday end someone greeting me.
"One minute jiae and I want to rant more on you just for the last minute."
"I love my sisters so much so I'll accept the fact that they didn't greet me at all. My parents didn't too, my gang. The whole class I was so happy first time someone greets me in school. My 18th birthday should be happy but I felt really sad right now that I just want to die of sadness. I want to make my 19th birthday next year happier where I can bond with myself more. I want to be away where no one hurts me without them knowing."
"You will and I'll always follow you where ever you go." She sweetly said and I smiled brightly
"Your birthday wish?"
"I wish to make myself happy without the others around me doing it. I want the real joy coming from me and I also wish to stop this aching heart." I said and began counting
"3..."
"2.."
"1."
"Happy birthday to me/you." Both me and jiae said loudly
"Thank you for comforting me jiae. I owe you again." I said
"Yes you owe me something and that is you need to ensure that you'll always be happy."
"I will be happy cause I have me."
No One's POV
After taking a rest a little twice members went to the living room for a midnight snack. Nayeon ordered their food and when it came they place it on the floor.
"Can someone check jiyeon if she wants some." Jeongyeon said and dahyun stand up to go to jiyeon's room
When she open the door no one was there and she cluelessly left the room and went upstairs.
"She's not there." She said and sana look at her
"What? I left her room minutes ago." Sana said worriedly
"Rooftop." Jihyo mumbled but they still hear it especially when the tv if off now
"That's where she calms herself when she's down." Mina said and look at them with sad eyes
"She looked at me earlier with sad eyes I asked her but she just said about school works."
"Sana, she won't go to the rooftop if it's just school works." Momo said to her
"I will follow her." Sana stand up and went outside
She slowly step on the stairs to the rooftop but she stops when she heard crying.
"Can't I be selfish jiae."
"You can jiyeon you can. But you did it on the wrong time, a friendly advice yeon. Don't expect please even they are the closest person to you don't expect cause your hopes will kill you in the end." She heard another voice but it's obvious that it's from a phone
"Jiae I want to be happy today. Can you sing me a happy birthday?" Sana heard jiyeon said that made her froze
She forgot her own sister's birthday, it's a special day but she forgot about it she's scolding herself right now but she knows it's her fault too.
"Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you, happy birthday happy birthday, happy birthday to you~"
"Baby yeon happy birthday, even though we're just months apart you'll always be my dongsaeng. I love you always."
"Thank you jiae unnie.." Sana's tears dropped one by one
"I'll sing a happy birthday for myself too a gift for myself." When sana heard it she peak from the wall
"Happy birthday to m-me h-happy b-birthday happy birthday h-happy birthday to m-me..."
Sana saw her sister singing while crying and clapping her hands slowly. It breaks her heart seeing jiyeon like that. Nothing hurts more than seeing your sister singing a happy birthday song to herself.
She put her hand in her mouth and lean on the wall again she cried silently she's sorry very sorry for avoiding her sister for the past days. She didn't know her sister is already breaking silently.
As for the other members they are confuse why sana is still not back they are getting worried. Nayeon and mina volunteered to go and follow sana in the rooftop.
Arriving there they saw sana crying while leaning on the wall she's crouching down she heard footsteps she look beside her and saw nayeon and mina she cry more.
"Sana what happened?" Nayeon asked and hug sana
She just shook her head and hug nayeon back she don't know what to feel at the moment.
"One minute jiae and I want to rant more on you just for the last minute."
Nayeon and mina hear jiyeon said they peak through the wall while sana is watching them still crying.
"I love my sisters so much so I'll accept the fact that they didn't greet me at all. My parents didn't too. The whole class I was so happy first time someone greets me in school. My 18th birthday should be happy but I felt really sad right now that I just want to die of sadness. I want to make my 19th birthday next year happier where I can bond with myself more. I want to be away where no one hurts me without them knowing."
Hearing those words one by one they started to tear up just how sana feel also what they feel sadness, regret and feeling sorry.
"Your birthday wish?"
"I wish to make myself happy without the others around me doing it. I want the real joy coming from me and I also wish to stop this aching heart."
"3..."
"2.."
"1."
"Happy birthday to me/you."
Sana can't take it anymore she run back downstairs, mina was stunned she don't know what to do. Nayeon slowly back away and followed sana.
The dorm's door open and they all look st the person who came in but they were shock when they saw sana crying.
"Sana-yah!" Momo went to her bestfriend
"I-i I'm a b-bad sister..." She said that made them confuse
Seconds after they heard the door opening again and nayeon came in with the same situation as sana.
"What's happening?" Jihyo said worriedly
"D-did someone r-remember anything?" Nayeon asked them lowly
"I'm s-sorry I forgot a-about it." She added
"I'm sorry too my own sister but—" They all look at the person who just came in
"C-can we still greet her?" Sana asked nayeon and mina who look at her sadly and shook their heads
"It's already done sana, 12 m-midnight already passed..."
"Can someone please explain." Tzuyu said frustratingly
"Please why are you guys crying." Chaeyoung said
"C-calendar." Mina mumbled
"What?" Jeongyeon asked her
"Look at the calendar." She once again said
Still confuse but they all look through their phones except dahyun who went to the calendar near the tv. They all stopped moving no one moved.
"I-it's...." Momo can't utter well
"It's her day." Jihyo said and put down her phone slowly and look at the three who's crying
"She's singing a happy birthday to herself in the rooftop guys. I-it hurts seeing her l-like that." Sana confessed what she saw earlier
"It's 18th birthday the most special birthday of a teenager but we can't even greet her." Nayeon commented
They heard the door opening they quickly wipe their tears and act like nothing happened.
"Oh hello!" Jiyeon smiled at them brightly that made their heart break
"I was just wondering if I can go shopping tomorrow our mascaraed ball is coming up need to buy new dress.." She said and squealed excitedly
"You don't need to pretend jiyeon." Mina said in her mind
"So do you guys agree?" She asked again but no one answered her
"Why no one's answering me. Are you guys oks?" She went near them but they backed away
Afraid they will hurt jiyeon again cause they just did forgetting her birthday especially when you can't always be with your sister and when it's her birthday you didn't even greet her.
Jiyeon look at them hurt, her sisters are avoiding her again she smiled bitterly. But seconds she show them her brightest smile. A day has passed it's a new day and there's nothing to be sad for, she thought to herself.
"Ok I will just go upstairs and get your permission again tommorow. I'm tired already so you guys must sleep to goodnight." She walk pass them and went downstairs to her room
They feel sad jiyeon didn't give them a kiss on their cheeks, sana promised jiyeon to sleep beside her but she can't do it now when she did something unforgivable.