| Chapter 29 • No Pain, No Gain |
TW: Blood, Miscarriage
~ One Week Later ~
Token•
Damn, just as Onyx gets out Jayden goes in. I was so hurt for my girl, everyone was. Onyx was in a wheelchair but she was in rehab when everything happened. Let me explain
~ Flashback: Michael's Pov ~
Everything was going good, everyone was happy. Jayden was safe and I'm protecting her and our Prince. Thats when I wasn't feeling too good, something was telling check on Jayden. So I started to shake her, no answer, thats when I turned her over on her back and checked her pulse. It was there.
Quickly, I called 911 and our security. They removed Butterfly from the bed and noticed blood and a cloudy substance on the sheets. What the hell? An ambulance came quickly got her to the hospital.
I called Token and told her what was going on, I refused to worry Onyx and Tre but Token had other plans so he got Onyx up here as soon as possible. I was nervous, I was scared. What if we lost our baby? No Michael, don't think that way!
"Family of Jayden Taylor?" The doctor calls, I stood up as quickly as possible and rushed over to him, "She um..she had a miscarriage and was in a coma, we're thinking it was from the shock and pain but the baby is gone. We did manage to break the coma, she is up. You may visit her if you'd like." The doctor explains
I felt my heart drop, I felt my heart stop as well. I could hear Token and Onyx crying in the background. I compose myself and walk to her room, I need to be by Jayden's side.
Once to her room, I open the door and see her just staring in space. She was crying quietly before closing her eyes and crying a little louder, "I'm so sorry Michael." She says
If my heart wasn't already broken, it was broken then. I was hurt. She was hurt, slowly I walk to her bed and climb in, hugging her softly. "Its not your fault."
"It is my fault Michael, I wasn't strong enough. We lost our baby because of me." She cries into my chest, I rub her hair softly and cry with her
"It just wasn't our time, Butterfly." I reply softly, "I'm so sorry." She apologized again, "We can always try again, just right now." I grab her hand
She nods softly before sighing, "I feel so weak, I feel like a failure to our son. Our Prince." Jayden mumbles, "You're not a failure, it wasn't our time to become parents baby. Trust me, we will just not right now." I console
I had to be strong for her, because I didn't lose the baby so I can't tell her how to feel. I can't tell her how she's supposed to feel, I can't say how she's feeling. Yes, I was definitely hurting because it was also my baby, but this took such a stronger toll on Jayden than it would for me.
Flashback Over: 2 days later Jayden•
I....I don't know how I'm feeling actually. I'm shocked, hurt, done actually. I just got home, Michael was downstairs while I was back on bedrest. I've been really quiet today as well.
The news outlets got ahold to me being in the hospital but they didn't know why, I decided to break the news now.
One they used such a mean looking picture of me, anyway, I decided to go on Instagram live and speak.
"Hi everyone." I mumble, putting a weak smile on my face
My views went from 75 to 4,724 to 10k. I rub my eye softly before smiling softly, "How's everyone doing? I'm sorry if I sound drained, I am." I said
After clearing my throat, I took a deep breath, "I'll try to explain this and not get too emotional. Lately everything has been...crazy. First we won a Grammy, signed to a new label, Onyx was shot, and me? I was pregnant but I suffered a miscarriage 2 days ago." I said, feeling myself tear up a bit
"Um..I was actually 3 months and what...10 days pregnant, so I knew the gender of our baby. It was a boy and we were calling him Prince." I stated, looking away to recollect myself
After a second, I smile weakly, "Sorry, its very fresh on me. Um, I knew I was a very high risk pregnancy. I weighed 125 pounds as I was pregnant and my baby we could tell my baby was gonna be pretty big. I was high risk, my body was stressed and pressured, my mind was stressed. I was worried about my son, Onyx, the entire group, Michael, you guys. I was worried and stressed out, but I knew I had to calm myself and be strong to get my baby here. I was stressed about what the media would have to say about me being 19 and pregnant in the earliest stage of my career." I said, fiddling with my fingers
I took a moment to look at the comments, giggling at the funny ones.
You can tell she loved that baby. 🥺
Hope you and Mike are okay☝🏽🤞🏽
Long Live Prince Jackson✨💖
do you have a sonogram picture of the baby? can we see it?
after all the things you've been through, you're still pretty 😚.
"Thank you, and yes we had one picture. I have a picture in my camera roll so I'll post it on my story once I get off live, which wont be long." I smile softly
How do you feel right now? how did you feel when you found out you lost the baby? ps i love you💞
"I feel of course sad, I'm hurt yes. Slowly coping though. So I was in a coma, I remember the night I lost Prince, I woke up because my stomach was hurting bad but I couldn't move. The pain was so bad and intense that I fainted and I guess went into a pain-coma? When I woke up I was in the hospital, the doctor explained that I lost my baby and man, I cried all night long. I cried hard too."
"Its like, I was attached to that baby and I didn't even know him yet. I held him for 3 months without knowing most of my pregnancy. I overall felt weak, like a failure. I was blaming myself because my body wasn't strong enough to hold a baby, I was hurt because I couldn't carry my son, I felt like a failure to Michael. He was most excited for the birth of our baby, I think he was more excited than me. Honestly, I felt weak and like a failure but Michael explained to me that it just wasn't our time." I finish
"Can we see Michael? Of course, hold on yall, I think this is him now." I look towards the door to see Michael with a small smile
"Hi Buggs." I smile, "Hey, Butterfly, watchaadoinn?" He crawls in the bed beside me, "I'm on live, everyone was looking for you." I nod
"Oh, hello everyone." He pauses to read a comment, "I'm doing better, it hurts to lose something close to you like your son." Michael nods, "I'm sorry.." I mumble, hoping he couldn't hear me
"Its not your fault, Butterfly, I promise." Michael pecks my forehead softly, "I'm gonna get off of live, as soon as I'm off bedrest and Onyx is out of rehab, we're back in the studio. By the way, she's doing great everyone. I love you guys so much, peace and love to you all, anything you wanna say baby?" I ask, showing Michael my phone
"Um...I love you guys." He waves before ending the live, "I didn't tell you to end my live boy." I grin, puckering my lips
He leans down and places his lips onto mine before pulling away and smiling down at me, "I love you, girl. We may have lost our son, but our love will never be lost, okay? Remember, this isn't your fault, it wasn't our time." He coaches, I nod softly and smile up at him
He rubs my belly in such a comforting way, humming in my ear quietly. Softly, he pulls me closer to him and basically rocks me to sleep. I feel so safe around him, like I'm supposed to be.
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theshaderoom: TSRPrayersUp: DestinyChild's #Jt reveals that her and #MichaelJackson were pregnant but suffered a miscarriage. Please keep her and Michael in your prayers 🙏🏽💔
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Recently both #Onyx and #Jt have been in the hospital, Jayden going in and Onyx leaving out. On her live, Jayden reveals that she and Michael were expecting a little baby boy who they were calling Prince. Please keep both of them in your prayers❤️
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thecutiejt: Thank you all so much 🤍. (Pinned)
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User: damn Jayden and Mike💔
user: 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
onyx: my baby is so strong, i love you girl 🥺. you too big brother 💖💘!!! @michaeljackson @thecutiejt
user: is this some type of Destiny's Child curse or some shit?
user: I can only imagine what they're going through, I hope they're okay💔
user: if you dont have anything nice to say, just scrolling and shut the fuck up. 🙏🏽
destinyschild: Praying for you Jt💖
tokendreamz: Please Continued To Be Strong, Both Of You! 💕 @michaeljackson @thecutiejt