CHAPTER 56
KIMBERLY’S P.O.V
I felt the bullet ripped through my back… there was a moment that I felt the pain…
Sakit yang sangat menyeksakan.. saya menatap wajah London, the blur then turned to panic on his face… sempat saya membelai wajah dia…
saya sayang kau, Tuan Hakim…
I love you in life… I will love you in death…
Saya tidak tau berapa lama saya tidak sedarkan diri…
Arghh!! Lebih baik saya tidak sedar saja kalau beginilah teruk rasa kesakitan yang saya rasa… saya meringis kesakitan..
Walau mata saya tertutup, saya masih dapat merasa kesilauan dari cahaya putih yang sangat terang… and people talking in panic…
Saya terasa seakan sesuatu sedang mencabut dari jasad saya… tapi saya tetap bertahan…
Saya terasa seakan tidak terdaya menanggung kesakitan ni lagi… tapi saya tetap bertahan…
Although I can hardly make out the words of the people surrounding me, but I know they are all Italians… and I’m in a hospital..
pusing-pusing sudah kepala saya.. why am i in the hospital?
I tried to rewind what happened…
LONDON. The church. The prayer.
My wedding…!! London..!! don’t leave me here..! It’s cold here, sayang… where are you..?
Saya mula menangis…
ARMANDO. The shot. NO…!!! He’s gonna shoot London..! No! No!
My body shook violently…
Tiiittt…!
“Get the ICD..!” suara seorang lelaki kedengaran menulikan telinga saya…
“uno, due, tre!!” BAAPP!! Ouch! My chest, idiot!!
“uno, due, tre!!” BAAPP!! Pukitai dorang ni!!
“uno, due, tre!!!” BAAPP!! Uii sial, kamurang mau bunuh saya kah ni?!
“KIMMY!!!” macam saya kenal tu suara… “Fight, Kimmy, fight!”
Saya tidak pun terasa yang saya buka mata saya, tapi saya boleh nampak pula… ai…? Jordan? Bella’s husband… saya di KK kah ni..? bila saya lagi saya sampai KK?
And why is he ontop of me?! EWWW!! Sial! Walaupun kau handsome, doc, tapi saya tidak titiakan sama kau..! yikes..! laki orang…
“1,2,3!!” BAAPP!! Macam saya kena electric shock..!
“il polso è tornato!” suara wanita kedengaran screaming something a pulse or heartbeat …
what is this? am I in a sex orgy? Oh my god! Sayang!! Help me!!
“doctor!! Good job!” doctor? Ohhh… geez, saya di hospital…
Armando… the shot… the pain.. dan sentuhan terakhir saya, adalah London…
“but we cannot save the baby…” a woman’s voice sounded sad…
Baby..?
Then I heard Jordan’s voice… he’s talking to me…
“Kimmy… you gotta get up and hold on to life.. everyone loves you.. your mom, dad… your brothers.. they are waiting for you..” I heard him sighing heavily… “and London.. he’s breaking down, Kimmy… I’ve never seen him so broken.. I’ve never seen him like how he is right now, he’s so afraid of losing you… you’re his life, Kimmy… if you give up, he will also give up.. and we are sorry we have to sacrifice your baby to save you… London needs you more…”
Menitis air mata saya… I wanted to get up… I wanted to run to London and tell him I’m okay… we will go through this together… we will get married, have more babies and be in love forever…
But I can’t… I can’t feel my body… I can only feel my tears…
Then I felt I slowly drifted away…for how long and for how many hours, I can’t tell…
Tapi saya bukan di hospital sudah…
*
Saya berada di kawasan padang yang luas… sedang berlari, bermain dengan Kendrik… we are at our old house di Likas… I remembered this house, where I grew up in..
And I remembered this was the time yang saya dan Kendrik just came back from Milan, I was 7 and Kendrik was 10… it’s Kurtis and Karter’s turn to visit papa and mama in Milan…
“Ken…” I giggled as Kendrik caught up with me and tickled me…
“you kalah, you kalah..” Kendrik ketawa…
Gelak-tawa kami terhenti apabila daddy memanggil saya dan Kendrik… kami berlari ke arah daddy and his friend, sitting at the patio….
“Datuk…” daddy tegur his friend…
“Panggil Phil bah…” his friend jawab…
“Tidak lama saya mau panggil kau Tan Sri sudah ni..” daddy ketawa… “these are my kids.. Kendrik and Kimberly.. Ken, Kimmy say hi to Uncle Phil..”
"Hi Uncle Phil..." serentak saya dan Kendrik bersuara...
“I should’ve brought Bella with me to befriend Kimberly…” kawan daddy bilang.. I looked at him with wide eyes… “this is London… dia baru habis SPM, he’s going to pursue law in States…”
“following the father’s footsteps ah.. like father like son..” daddy bilang…
And I turned to the tall and handsome dark haired figure next to daddy’s friend… anak lelaki dia…
Tiba-tiba I felt self-conscious.. saya merapikan rambut saya yang berantakan akibat berlari berkejaran sampai berjatuhan sama Kendrik tadi… saya sapu-sapu my princess-like dress…
Dubs dubs dubs… Jantung saya berdetak laju…
And he smiled at me…! That moment, I fell in love… I have met my first love…
I blushed red… but being the naughty Kimmy that I am, I smiled mischievously up at him…
“I’m Princess Kimberly..” dengan senyuman yang tersipu malu..
“Hello, Princess Kimberly..” he said in a deep voice… “I’m London…”
“Can you be my prince..?” I asked shyly but without fear…
He laughed and ruffled my hair..
“Someday, when you’re grown up…”
Suddenly Kendrik muncul in the form of his adult-self..
“I won’t have to worry about you anymore, Kimmy… he came back for you after 18 years, princess…”
*
HAAAA! I breathed in shock…! Mata saya terbuka luas…
I felt my left palm a little warm… I turned to the warmth…
LONDON. His cheek on my palm, sleeping peacefully.. one hand over my hips…
My dream was real… it wasn’t a dream… It was a flashback more than 18 years ago..
But none of us, neither me nor London can remember the first time we met each other… and daddy never said anything… mungkin daddy pun lupa…
Jodoh mempertemukan kami kembali…
I have read somewhere that studies shows people have already met the person that they will marry by the time they’re 16 or 17 without realizing it…
London was 17, I was 7…
Saya menitiskan air mata, dan tanpa sedar tubuh saya bergegar dalam tangisan…
“sayang…” suara London serak.. “SAYANG..! oh god, you’re awake!”
London cium-cium muka saya… he showered me with kisses all over my face…
“fermare! non puoi baciare il paziente, signore!” tiba-tiba a nurse rushed in…
Saya ketawa…
“dia bilang jangan gete mau kiss-kiss bah, sayang…” tapi ouch! Sakit… bahagian kanan tubuh saya sakit..! I grimaced in pain…
“signore..” tu nurse mengerutkan dahi as another nurse and a doctor entered.. “dobbiamo controllare la signorina Bestian… tu nurse menunjukkan the large lounge, signaling London to go there…
“Sayang… the nurse say go duduk there… they need to check me..” saya translate untuk London..
“Oh.. hehehe..” London terkekeh malu…
***
The doctor and the nurses left after an hour… dorang tukar bandage pada luka tembakan saya…
Saya tengok the digital clock on the wall, it’s 11pm… malam pula ni…
London mengusap lembut pipi saya…
“sayang..” mata dia sayu, jelas kesedihan terpancar di mata dia.. “we… we… lost..”
“sshh..” I have to be strong for him.. biarpun rahim saya yang tidak dapat bertahan, saya mesti kuat… dengan tangan saya yang melekat dengan hoses and tubes, saya menyentuh bibir London.. “I know..”
“I’m sorry..” suara dia sebak… “It.. sho.. should be me…”
“No…” I whispered… I felt London’s face on my neck.. I hugged his head, mengusap lembut rambut dia.. “I won’t be strong, if it was you…”
“I love you, Kimmy…” London whispered..
“I have been loving you..” I kissed his eyebrow… “for 18 years, London…”
He chuckled… I’m not joking, sayang… I might not remember, you might not remember either… malah even our daddies can’t remember we’ve met when I was a child and you were a teenager…
but destiny never knocks on the wrong door…
“come up here… sleep with me, sayang..” saya rindu pelukan hangat London… saya tidak tahan berpisah dengan dia walau sesaat pun…
***
Next day, Kurtis orang pertama yang datang melawat saya…
“Sorellina..” Kurtis cium dahi saya… “you need to get up and about fast.. you’re getting fat just lying on your back..”
Eee, Kurtis ni… suka betul mengolo saya..
Then Jelo, mummy and daddy datang.. saya dilimpahi dengan pelukan dan cium yang penuh kasih sayang… tapi saya memandang di sekeliling saya…
“where’s Karter..?” saya tanya… saya rindu bah abang saya yang buduh tu… walaupun gaya dia macam sial dan bikin panas…
All four of them kept silent..
Saya faham… Karter sibuk urus hotel atau sibuk urus si bini orang… it’s okay, I’ll see him when I’m discharged and return home…
“Jelo..” Jelo memeluk saya… “kau makin cantik.. baru saya tau yang pengkid pun cantik…”
Jelo ketawa ni…
“pengkid bukan manusia kah juga?”
“siapa bilang Jelo pengkid..?” Sydney! Bila lagi dia datang…? Then I saw the rest of the Robinsons and Choongs… Choongs lah bah… Bella and Holly are Choongs already, plus their husbands and kids…
Tapi the kids semua tiada… should be ditinggalkan in our house with their nannies…
“saya lebih lama kenal Jelo dari kau, Syd..” saya tidak mau mengalah… “Jelo pengkid saya bilang…”
“kau mau bukti dia bukan pengkid?” Sydney tanya saya…
“mana? Apa bukti?” saya mencabar… sakit-sakit pun banyak perangai oh saya kan.. “setakat baju saja, bukan bukti pun sangat..”
“mau kan kau bilang?” eee.. kenapa Sydney ni?
Tiba-tiba Sydney walked to my bedside dan menekup pipi Jelo.. and HE KISSED HER!
Jelo tercengang… sampai dia tidak pun menolak atau melawan.. so it looked like they are kissing with both consents…!
Kurtis menarik tubuh Jelo and the kiss ended… muka Kurtis merah padam macammau membunuh sudah ni…
“Kurt..” Hudson menyapa Kurtis… “cool down..”
What are we seeing again…?
Sydney kissed Jelo… Jelo tidak menolak… Kurtis pulled Jelo away in anger…
Sydney and Kurtis bertatapan seperti mau berperang…
what the… fuck?
I will be discharged in another week.. apalah adegan-adegan yang saya akan menonton selepas ni?