Someday I can love you
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Aviona
Catching dreams.
Ang sarap pala sa pakiramdam na matutunan mong magpatawad at mamuhay ng tahimik.
I did not become so rich nor very popular. Simple lang ang naging buhay ko sa loob ng tatlong taon.
But three years is already enough for me to let go of all the pains I have in my heart. Kailangan ko ding magpakatatag. I need to be strong because I have to. For myself.
Pinilit kong tinanggap na kahit mismong pamilya ko ay hindi ako kayang tanggapin. Mahirap pero kailangan. Sawa na din akong ipagsiksikan pa ang sarili ko. This time, I know my worth.
" One way ticket to Manila, Philippines please" Wika ko sa attendant.
" Okay ma'am" I paid my ticket afterwards.
Sometimes, the best way to move on is not always choosing to let go of the past but choosing to grab the opportunity of a new beginning. Nevertheless, I have chosen both. Memories. Hindi naman lahat ay kinalimutan ko na. Lahat ng bawat sandaling kapiling ko si Luke ay nasa puso't isipan ko parin. I've never forgotten him. Because he is the first and last man in my life. Hindi ko alam kung ako pa ba ang babaeng nasa puso niya o hindi na. Kung hindi na, I'm still happy for him. I won't complain. Siguro nga ay hindi kami para sa isa't isa kung ganon.
Two days from now, it's going to be the election day in the Philippines. I wonder if Luke will still run for governor once more.
Parang kailan lang nung umalis ako. I don't know what happened to him after. Sinadya kong putulin ang anumang koneksyon ko sa kaniya. Right now, I can say that I am ready to face him. Whatever will be my fate when I see him again, I will gladly accept it.
Kung nag-asawa na ba siya, tatanggapin ko. I will be happy for him. Or kung may girlfriend na ba siya, wala na akong balak pang manira ng relasyon.
Para akong shonga na nakatingin lang sa harapan ng flight schedules habang kinukumpirma ko ang oras ng pag-alis ko.
Canada. It's the place that made me realize so much things to life. The place where I've met friends, best of friends. Mga taong naging karamay ko nung nangailangan ako ng lubusan.
I boarded the plane after. Hindi ko alam kung may babalikan pa ba ako sa Pilipinas. But still, hope is in my heart.
Na sana single pa si Gov hanggang ngayon.
It took me hours of plane travel. Natulog na lamang ako buong biyahe ko. I woke up and slept again. Hindi ko na namamalayang nasa bansa na pala ako. Hindi ko alam ngunit kinakabahan akong bumaba ng eroplano. I still smiled despite the fact that I don't have a family to go home to. Na iyung iba kong kasabay sa eroplano ay may magsusundo pa sa kanila. Si ma'am Claire lang ang sinabihan ko na uuwi ako ng bansa.
Huminga ako ng malalim ng makababa na ako ng tuluyan mula sa eroplano. Ang sarap langhapin iyung hangin mula sa sarili kong bansa.
Luke
" Gov handa na po ang team para sa kampanya niyo mamaya" It was Esther who took my attention, my PA.
" Yes, thank you" The whole gymnasium is crowded. It's already my second time running for the same position. I smiled when I realized the reason for my public service. It wasn't just because of my will to serve but because it was what I've promised her.
Ilang taon na ang lumipas. 3 years? Way too long for waiting but I don't care. Maghihintay parin ako. Naghihintay parin ako. Kahit ilang years pa ang aabutin niya, I will still patiently wait. Ganon ko siya kamahal.
I did my usual public speech to persuade the people in voting for me. But after my speech, I opened the floor for questions.
" Gov bakit po hindi pa kayo nag-aasawa?" First question
Because I'm waiting for Avi.
" My commitment as of the moment is to the people. My will is to serve the people." Sagot ko.
" Gov wala na po ba talagang pag-asa na magkatuluyan kayo ni Ma'am Cassandra Buenavista?" Second question
I nodded
" Yes."
It will always be Aviona in my heart
" How about your issue before with a certain girl, Aviona Lewis Fuego?" Third question
It wasn't an issue. That was a ramification.
" Nothing changed. I still love her" There's no point in lying. Kailangang matanggap iyon ng publiko.
" That's all for today. Magandang araw muli. Salamat sa patuloy na pagsuporta." Ngumiti ako bago umalis ng stage.
I miss her. God knows how much I damn miss her. Many times, I planed to follow her. Pero alam kong hindi niya magugustuhan kung gagawin ko iyon. So here I am, waiting for her like a love sick fool.
Hours are counted, my fate will be declared. The public already knows that I won't marry any woman aside from the woman who still holds my heart until now.
It was a hell three years for me. Siniraan nila ang pangalan ko. I've got no support from my colleagues. But still I stood my ground and proved that I am loving a decent woman.
" Prepare my car, Manong Albert. May importante lang po akong pupuntahan" I told my driver. I took the keys and opened the car's door. I'm excited but nervous at the same time.
" Meeting ba iyan Gov?" He asked. Napangiti na lamang ako sa sinabi ni Manong Albert.
" My reason for existence" Napakunot noo pa siya sa sinabi ko.
" Pacancel ako kay Ma'am Esther nung susunod kong campaign site. Salamat Manong" I said
Tumango ito
" Sige, ingat ka iho." Tumango ako pabalik.
The moment I entered my car, I looked at my face on my rear mirror. I should look good. Dapat guwapo ako.
" What's first, Luke. Buy her flowers. Roses. Right, gusto niya ng bulaklak" Damn! Ngayon lang ako natataranta ng ganito.
Aviona
Dagsahan ang mga kapamilya ng ibang kasabay ko sa eroplano. May mga nagdala pa ng mga card boards at cartolinas na may nakasulat na pangalan. May mga may banners. Natutuwa ako dahil kahit papaano ay napapagaan na din nila ang loob ko. Feeling ko kasama ako sa nasa banners. I'm okay with it anyways.
Magtataxi nalang siguro akong umuwi. Didiretso muna ako sa hotel para makapagpahinga.
Dala dala ko ang aking traveling bag nang makalabas ako ng NAIA terminal 1. Mainit pero sanay na ako. It's Manila. Magtataka na siguro ako kung sobrang lamig ng temperatura.
I was walking away from the crowd when I saw a certain man standing among the bunch of crowds with a bouquet of flowers in his hand.
My eyes widened when I familiarized the person.
How the hell is the governor here!
Ma'am Claire. She might have told Luke about my arrival. Kaya siya nandito.
My eyes were fixed at Luke. Still, he have that look in his face. Ang seryoso parin niyang tignan. And still, he is the most handsome man I've ever met.
Ni hindi ko alam kung lalapit ba ako sa kaniya. Pero magpapabebe pa ba ako. Alam kong ako naman ang dahilan kung bakit siya nandito ngayon.
My ghad ang haba pala ng hair ko. Ang guwapo ng susundo sa akin.
We both smiled.
Someday
Someday, Luke. I've always prayed for this day to come. Sana sa pagkakataong ito ay maging masaya na tayo ng tuluyan.
Sa harapan ko mismo, nakita ko kung paano tumulo ang mga luha ni Luke.
I missed this man.
" Hi" "Hi" Magkasabay pa naming wika.
We will have a very long road to walk through and it won't be easy but I believe and hold on to our promise of love.
Love will be our armor and shield to fight every battles we will face now and in the coming days.
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A/N : So this is it. Maraming salamat sa pagsuporta hanggang sa dulo, Sweethearts.
Hanggang sa muli!