so today isn't very good bc i had to go to the doctor to get my ear checked out- bc the part of the ear where you get the earring is swollen as if it's been infected by something idk and i'm going to visit a surgeon in like 3 hours to check if they can pierce it with a needle to get the stuff out of my ear and if they can they will do that today and i'd rather die than have that done to me, but at least i didn't have to go to school and then i bought the spider-man miles morales thing but im also grounded so i can't play video games or do anything to distract myself from my crippling anxiety that i feel every time im bored or have nothing to do so yeah idk what to think of this day
but also here's how i think things might play out: since, in my dad's eyes, i don't play video games that much and we just bought an expensive game he could potentially let me play it a little bit and i also have the iron man vr thing and he wants me to play it, and when he told me that i was like "well i can't play it right now because someone grounded me" and he went "well you can do homework a little bit and then play video games a little bit so that there's a balance" i finished all of my homework yesterday though??? i get that you really wanna torture me but like i don't have any school work to do. yeah ofc i could do the homework that i missed bc i wasn't at school but school's not over for them yet