you couldn't take it anymore. you stormed up to your room and let all the tears you bottled up stream down your face. you sobbed, and sobbed, and sobbed.
you wanted to be her so bad. you wanted to be in her place so bad. just like all of suna's other fan-girls - except you knew him. you were closer to him than any other girl. even ichika. you wanted to be the one he fell asleep on FaceTime with. you wanted to be the one he'd kiss good night. you wanted him to be yours. is that all too much to ask for?
is it all even worth it? will waiting for him be worth it? what if you aren't happy together? you were spiralling with all these thoughts in your head.
you squint at your laptop through your tears and open spotify. you notice the last song you listened to was "Heather" by conan gray. how funny it was. the way you relate to that song.