CHAPTER 19
KIMBERLY’S P.O.V
Where was I?
Still at Dolce & Gabbana’s dressing room…
Armando on his knees, hugging my legs and sobbing… 🙄
“ti amo, Kimberly… ti amo…”
Looking down at the man that I loved nearly my whole life, I have no love left for him..
The tear that fell on my cheek… KENDRIK…
I will never forgive you, Armando… tidak akan pernah walau sedikitpun kemaafan dalam sudut hati saya untuk kau…
You can say you were forced, you were threatened, you were blackmailed into marrying Luna… you can say whatever…
Tapi api dendam dan kebencian masih membara dalam hati saya…
I loved you… but my love for you will never surpass my love for my brother…
I loved you… itu dulu…
“just stand up, Armand…” my voice soften only a little… “no matter how long you’re on your knees, nothing will be the same ever again…”
“forgive me…” he is still on his knees sobbing..
“no…” I said coldly… “I am a Bestian…”
we never forgive our enemies…
Tubuh Armando bergegar-gegar… tangisan dia seakan hatinya sangat sakit dengan penyesalan yang tidak terhingga…
Kimmy, ingat… lelaki ni suka bermain politik… tengok boleh, percaya jangan… tsk tsk…
“Armand… I’m not that fucked up little person still in love you…” macam a rendition of Gloria Gaynor’s 🎵I will Survive🎵 kan…
“Kimmy…” Armando merayu…
I held out my hand to him… my left hand… to help him stand…
He reached for my hand… hampir… almost touching my hand but then he backed away… seperti saja dia akan terbakar kalau tersentuh tangan saya…
“teso…” his voice trembling with confusion…
“I’m engaged, Armando…” saya menunjukkan jari saya yang dihiasi dengan cincin pertunangan yang London menyarungkan di jari manis saya…
Saya jumpa juga bah cincin saya… dalam my revolver metal case… 🤭 that’s the safest place, okay… stop judging me…
Armando menggelengkan kepala dia… not accepting what I just told him…
“I know everything about you, Tesoro! Everything!” dia meninggikan suara… “you can’t lie to me…!”
😳
Selama ni dia memerhati saya ka? Spying on me? Damn, I have to be more careful… Cuma saya rasa pemerhatian dia hanya terbatas sekitar Italy saja… tu lah dia tidak tau saya sudah bertunang…
“then you missed that very important detail, Armando… I am ENGAGED and I’m getting MARRIED…” saya menekankan the ‘engaged’ and ‘married’ part… sengaja saya tambah ‘married’… as if it’s going to happen, Kimberly..
“you don’t love anyone except me!” is he mad? “mi amavi da quando eravamo bambine…”
Yes, I loved you since we were kids… now get over it… I don’t love you anymore since the day my brother died and you were the cause of it! You and that filthy slut!
“tu mi appartieni!” hah… kepala ninik kau I belong to you…
Then my dressing room door swung open… 4 bodyguards saya bergegas masuk bila dorang dengar macam riuh di dalam dressing room saya… terkejut dorang nampak Armando…
“take him out of here..” saya mengarahkan bodyguard saya…
“si, signorina…” dorang jawab…
“tu mi appartieni, Kimberly!” Armando menjerit as he was dragged out by my bodyguards… saya tau his bodyguards are somewhere near juga, biar dorang atur sesame sendiri… “and I belong to you…!”
I slammed my dressing room door shut…
“Ken…” saya bisik sambil meraup wajah saya… talking to myself, yet hoping my brother can hear me in heaven, or wherever his soul is… “what should I do, brother?”
I felt the cold metal of my ring against my cheek… saya menatap cincin pertunangan saya…
Mr. Psycho… what are you doing right now?
I looked at my handphone screen… it’s nearly 1am…
“Merry Christmas, Mr. Psycho…” I whispered…
Sememangnya banyak whatsapp dari Mr. Psycho yang saya ignore saja..
But there’s one whatsapp, weeks ago? ia menarik perhatian saya… a voice note…
I clicked on the voice note…
“Miss fiancée.. I’ll give you time to think of all the insanity that you put me through… kill me or I’ll drag you kicking and screaming back to KK.. even if I die trying…”
Hahahaha! Always that cold, blunt, annoying Mr. Psycho… he sounds sexy on voice note, though…
Well, Mr. Psycho… you don’t have to drag me back… saya sudah buat keputusan untuk balik saat saya memberitahu Armando that I’m engaged…
I grabbed the nearest dress hanging on the fashion rack…
A gold low neck silk dress with a long back train but a short parted front yang menampakkan paha saya yang putih gebu… dressed up, pantas saya melangkah keluar dari my dressing room…
My bodyguards escort me to my jet, parked at the open space helipad of the area…
The private pilot mengangguk hormat kepada saya..
“To Milan, signorina…”
“No.. BKI…” I replied him…
“BKI…?” terkejut dia…
“Si…” itu saja saya jawab…
Since it’s already nearly 2am… I’m expecting to land in KK between 5pm to 6pm…
Hmmm, Kimberly… seems like you’ll be spending Christmas away from your family this year.. but this will be exciting…
I can feel that exciting vibes in my body…
Beberapa bulan yang lalu, returning to KK was my biggest nightmare…
Sekarang, macam terlebih excited pula saya mau balik KK…
Pelik tapi benar kau ni, Kimmy…
Billie Eillish’s ‘Bad Guy’ playing in my head and the image of Mr. Psycho London Robinson popped up in my head…
Saya memejam mata… pertemuan kami yang terakhir… how he licked and bite on my n*pple softly… how he meramas my paha… and how I made him suck on my nenen…
“mmm…” I let out a soft moan… huh?
“Signorina Kimberly… are you ok? Do you need aspirin, Signorina?” Carol menatap wajah saya dengan penuh kerisauan..
Hahaha…!
“I’m ok, Carol… I’m just too tired… can you get me my sleeping pills?” Carol mengangguk…
Kebenarannya, I’m on sleeping prescription since Kendrik’s death… I suffered from insomnia and nightmares… flashes of Kendrik’s body, his voice telling me he loves me before he shot himself…
The only time I can really sleep without my pills bila saya di KK… and the only time I felt so comfortable and peacefully asleep was in psycho’s bed, in his arms, hugging him macam bantal peluk… I must be crazy…
Carol membawa my pills and I swallowed the pills with a glass of water…
Dalam setengah jam saya tertidur sudah… Just a dreamless sleep… saya tidur saja di the plane’s seat walaupun my plane has a private VVIP bedroom suite…
Saya tidak mau terhumban-humban kalau tiba-tiba ada turbulence… 😒
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Saya terbangun apabila Carol menyapa saya dengan lembut…
“Signorina, we have landed…”
I looked at my watch, 6pm… seperti yang dijangkakan.. Saya turun dari my jet plane and head towards Holly’s house…
I made a grand entrance and announced happily..
“Merry Christmas everybody!”
Terkejut daddy Harren and Aunty Vivienne… then dorang mengukir senyuman yang sangat gembira…
“OMG! Kimberly Bestian…” terlopong mulut Holly tengok saya… Joshua ran up to me and hugged me…
“OMG yourself, Holly Bestian…” saya membalas balik.. “bila lagi kau gete sampai terbuncit ni…?”
Holly’s pregnant! Tapi tidak juga besar perut dia tersenyum-senyum konon dia sama laki pilot dia tu… gete betul ni dua orang… I rolled my eyes at them…
“cut me some turkey, captain…” saya mengarahkan laki Holly… hahaha! “saya lapar ni…”
I haven’t eaten since Sicily, dalam my jet pun saya tertidur sepanjang flight to KK… Jason si laki Holly memotong juga three slices of turkey for me…
“I see you’re wearing your engagement ring…” daddy Harren menegur…
“I wouldn’t want to waste the fiancée’s effort in buying it, daddy…” I giggled…
Ahhh, geli hati saya… saya tidak sabar mau irritate Mr. Psycho…
“wah, mau juga sambut birthday tunang dia oh kan…” Holly menyindir… “patut pula kelam-kabut mau balik…”
Birthday…? Terbulat mata saya, then terkecil sambil saya tersenyum nakal…
“kau tidak tau lah tu your fiancée’s birthday?” Holly sindir lagi saya..
“2x5 saja you all, baby..” Captain in my defence? “you tidak tau bila your husband’s birthday pun tu dulu…”
Termerah muka Holly kena kasi ingat balik bah kan…
“Can I have a slice of that cake?” mmm… mango cream cake…
Hudson cut a perfect slice for me.. saya mengarahkan my maid to wrap it and find a birthday candle… terlampau rushing kalau mau pergi cari cake lagi…
Christmas cake pun bolehlah…
Setelah selesai catching up on a light Christmas dinner with the Bestians of KK, all of them headed to Uncle Pierre’s for a Christmas visit…
“You coming with us, Kimmy?” Holly tanya saya…
“Nopes… I have other stuff to do…” I refused, tapi tersenyum…
“Like what?” Holly tanya lagi…
“Like letting my psycho fiancée know I won’t have to kill him…” terbulat mata Jason and Holly… “ and he don’t have to drag me back to KK kicking and screaming like mad…”
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7.30pm at the Robinsons… I parked Jemie’s car di luar pagar rumah London…
Pagar dan rumah dorang berbuka… hmmm… is there a Christmas party going on inside?
Dubs dubs dubs jantung saya…
My gold silk dress flowing gracefully while I make my way into the house… dari ruang tamu, kedengaran suara gelak-tawa…
What if suddenly London ada perempuan lain yang sedang duduk di sebelah dia spending Christmas and his birthday with him and his family…?
Memang confirm saya humban terus ni cake yang saya sedang pegang di muka tu perempuan 😡… kuat imagination kau ni, Kimmy…
They are all seated at the main dining room decorated very christmasy… I heard cheers, toasts..
“happy birthday, London…” I heard Puan Sri’s soft voice saying… “there was never a day that I missed my prayers and felt so blessed that God gave me you for a son…”
Saya sempat lit up the candle on the slice of cake… and walked in to the main dining room slowly…
Sydney looked up in shock, London pula membelakangi saya… thanking everyone for the birthday wishes that he received… sememangnya dia tidak sedar saya sedang berdiri di belakang dia…
I started singing to a tune of Marilyn Monroe’s 🎵Happy Birthday, Mr. President…🎵
🎶Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday
Mister fiancée
Happy birthday to you🎶
I saw him froze, his lips unmovable on the rim of the wine glass…
London menoleh dan menatap wajah saya, macam dia tidak percaya yang saya berdiri di depan dia…
“kenapa? terkejut?” saya tanya, dia menggeleng kepala…
Kemudian dia berdiri dengan perlahan dan melangkah ke arah saya…
“Merry Christmas, little criminal…” his voice in a whisper, he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear…
“Merry Christmas, Mr. Psycho…” I whispered back…
Mata saya menurun ke dada dia… he has 3 shirt buttons off, showing a sneakpeek of his bulu dada… nyummm!
“blow your candle, psycho…” I took off the candle and the silver plate after he blew the candle, dan meletakkan di meja perhiasan di sebelah saya…
“open your mouth, London…” very dictating, Kimmy…
suara saya memukau ka? He can’t take his eyes off of me…
Dia membuka mulut seperti diarahkan… mmm… menurut kata… mr. bad guy turned to mr. good boy…
saya menyumbatkan the slice of cake ke dalam mulut dia… geramnya saya tengok Mr. Psycho, macam saya mau ramas-ramas dada dia…
In just as fast, he bent down and kissed me with all the cake in his mouth… I licked the cream and ate the cake from his mouth… reminiscing our engagement day, aren’t we…?
Terkejutnya saya bila si psycho grip pinggang saya dan mengangkat saya ke dalam dakapan dia… kaki saya automatic melingkar di pinggang dia untuk menahan dari terjatuh… and he kissed me hard..
“ehemmm…!” *cough* *cough*
I looked over London’s shoulders… astaga, everyone dari budak kecil sampai orang tua terbulat mata menonton aksi kami… you two just forgot there are other people in the world besides your two horny selves…
“psycho, put me down…!” saya bisik di telinga dia…
“no…” ah! Keras kepala…
“everyone is watching us!” saya bisik lagi…
“let them…” aii, kenapa dia makin psycho ni?
“you’re crazy!” mau saja saya memekik di telinga dia…
“I am…” London… uh, I have no words…
“ugh!!” itu saja saya mampu jawab… until…
“I’ll carry you up…” dia bilang, buduh!!
“no, no, no!!” saya tumbuk bahu dia… lembut je… hahaha!
Tiba-tiba… anak si Jordan and Bella, Jason Jr. berlari ke arah kami… he tugged his uncle’s shirt…
“Uncle don.. put Aunty Kimmy down… she’s not a baby…”
Alalah, punya cute… you saved me, darling… cepat terus London menurunkan saya…
“jangan kau ketawa sana, little criminal…” saya kena warning… “saya gigit nenen kau ni…” dia menunduk macam mau menungap nenen saya…
“eee… eee… eee” saya tumbuk dada dia yang sexy berbulu… “go away, mr. psycho… I’m hungry…”
Truth is, ya saya lapar… sikit saja saya makan di rumah Holly tadi…
“darling..” Puan Sri’s soft voice calling me… “let’s have dinner… we are so glad you are here…”
Saya melangkah ke arah Puan Sri dan kami membalas ciuman di kedua-dua belah pipi, wishing each other Merry Christmas… Puan Sri hugged me, just like a mother hugging her daughter…
Seterusnya saya salam dan cium tangan Tan Sri… Tan Sri menekup pipi saya dan mencium puncak kepala saya, just like a father’s gesture towards his daughter…
aik, macam bakal menantu idaman saja gaya-gaya kau ni, Kimmy... 🤭
Tuan DPP Holland yang sedang duduk di sebelah Tuan Hakim London mengosongkan kerusi dia dan beralih tempat duduk di sebelah kanan isteri dia…
I looked in front of me, sitting opposite of me and London is Sydney and Manchester… Bella and Jordan duduk di sebelah Manchester…
Erk, saya duduk right in front of Manchester… he looked up at me and smiled… we exchanged awkward smiles… saya start terasa awkward around him sejak dari the morning breakfast yang London announced kami akan bertunang, dan berlakunya pertengkaran dingin di antara London and Manchester…
London sliced the roast beef for me and put on my plate… eee, macam daddy saya… the udang semua he peeled for me… macam dia tau-tau saja saya tidak pandai kupas tu kulit udang… mmm, sedap… 😋
Then the kids semua berlarian with their nannies selepas sudah kenyang dan boring makan… excited dorang mau main their toys… Christmas presents from their parents, uncles, aunties and grandparents…
“sorry… saya just landed from Sicily… tidak sempat beli Christmas presents for the kids…” comel bah anak-anak ni semua… I love kids…! Besok saya mau pergi shopping for belated Christmas presents…
“Sicily..?” London menaikkan satu kudou…
“ummm, yeah..” saja saya jawab..
“what’s in Sicily?” dia selamba menanya sambil mengunyah a slice of beef..
“aaa…” apa saya mau cakap ah? “there’s a fashion show that I went to watch…”
Tidak juga saya 100% menipu bah… there is a fashion show, and I’ll be watching myself on the runway on Fashion Week Youtube channel soon.. and all the other fashion channels…
Yes, a fashion show… and Armando… 🙄
“Mmmm…” lain tu ‘mmm..’ si Psycho… macam psycho… I sipped on my wine untuk menenangkan hati saya yang penuh debaran…
Saya nampak Sydney tersengih dan memandang ke arah…. Holland..? Memandang ke arah Holland yang sedang memberikan senyuman kepada udang-udang di piring dia… perlukah mau senyum sama udang?
I glared at Sydney from the rim of my glass, memberikan dia pandangan yang tajam sampai dia tunduk dan sambung makan like a good boy that he is…
“You look like you just walked out from a fashion magazine…” London said outloud…
BUHUUK! BUHUUK! Saya tersedak…
“what did you got for the kids for Christmas…?” saya mengubah topic sambil melemparkan senyuman yang paling manis…
London garu dagu dia yang tumbuh jambang-jambang halus sudah… sexay…
“ummm…”
“ummm?” saya tanya dia sambil senyum dan menaikkan satu kudou… “come on, don’t be shy… you can tell me…” I fluttered my lashes..
Boleh-boleh Sydney, Manchester and Jordan terketawa… Bella and Holland tersenyum sinis…
Apa hal dorang ni?
“you bought the kids plenty of toys? Or you bought them…” tidak habis saya bercakap..
“nothing…” dia jawab sambil menunduk concentrating on his food…
“eh?” what did I hear…?”
“nothing…” betul lah saya dengar tu… apa maksud dia nothing?
Makin dorang adik-beradik dia ketawa… Tan Sri and Puan Sri covered their mouths menahan senyuman… saya mengerutkan dahi…
“what do you mean nothing, Mr. Psycho?” terbulat mata saya…
“it’s my birthday… they bought me presents… I bought them nothing…” he shrugged nonchalantly… 😳😨
Saya ternga-nga… Mr. Fiancée…! Is there anything good in you at all?!
“London…” saya menarik nafas dan menghembus perlahan-lahan…
He turned to look at me with innocence! Innocent eyes! Kimmy.. bersangka baik, manatau dia terlampau sibuk sampai tidak sempat beli presents for the kids…
“Yes, sweetheart?” DUSH jantung saya…! why does it sound so sexy…?
“What are you even good at…?” saya pantang oh orang kedekut…! 😠
“Kissing…” dia bisik di telinga saya.. ternaik terus bulu roma saya… “and fucking…”
Huh? i felt my body turned so hot.. i'm sweating...