okay please explain who the fuck in less than 3 days it went from 500 reads to over 600...
so thanks for thattt
so i'm moving this weekend and it kinda makes me wanna yeet myself off of the roof.
so this chapter is really messy tbh.
i definitely did not write it on my sisters couch at 2am last night
no wayyyyy
so here's whatever the fuck this is.
i'm like horrible at descriptive writing so just ignore how i don't know how to do jack shit for this chapter.
because as i said i'm emotionally undstableee.
i honestly don't know what a healthy and stable relationship/feelings are so this is my best trying to write about one..
reminder-no characters/art/photos belong to me unless it says so.
sorry for grammar/spelling mistakes.
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the day takeda saw him walking with her-
ukai pov-
"wow..i of course can't judge you..but takeda..like you like like him but he's the most plain...boring human i know." i laughed at that statement. "that's the thing i thought at first..but i do think i have these feelings.." i cut myself off before i said something more. she linked her arm onto my arm. "well good for you." she looked up a smiled at me.
"i never told you the reason i actually left." i stopped walking and looked at her. "my mother set me up to marry someone. he was rich and that's why my mom wanted me to. when i refused she said she'd take the right away to see nya so i had to.." i could see the tears forming in her eyes. i pulled her close.
"i am so sorry."
she looked up and smiled at me. "if you love him..go get him. if it doesn't work out at least you confessed instead of holding those feelings in. they'll have weigh you down. so go get him and stop being a fucking pussy." i was shocked.
not that she said that but that she sounded so sure that i loved him. but did i want to accept i love him.
do i want to except that if he doesn't feel the same feelings i'm...i don't know what i would
do.
"i've never seen you this way for a person. you clearly love him. with just how you described him at lunch..you fucking love him in a way you've never loved anyone." that statement was true.
all of what she said was true.
i had to stop being a pussy and face these feelings.
i had to tell him how i feel. he might turn me down.
he might resent me but i have to do it.
"you look confused." she poked my face as she spoke. "hey don't do that.." "you okay?" "how do i tell him? do i tell it to him, do i write a letter, do i-" "okay..well um tell it to his face. i know that if someone was confessing their undying love for me i'd prefer it to be face to face. but that's just me."
she put her hand on my shoulder.
"explain." "explain what?"
"what do you feel when you see him? what do you want to do when you see him? have you told anyone else you love him? cause personally i think you love him. i think you just haven't accepted it yet."
she was right i haven't.
so step 1-
except i'm in love with him.
"well..."
"start with the first time you met him."
"okay.."
i thought back to the first time i met him.
march-
third person pov-
"yes..yes sir i understand." takeda was walking into the sakanoshita store. "okay thank you sir." takeda hung up the phone and put it into his back pocket.
"hello." takeda said to the man sitting behind the counter at the store. he made his way over to the fridge area where they kept the milk. he grabbed one gallon of milk and made his way towards the front of the store.
takeda's phone was blowing up with messages from the kids from the high school volleyball team.
"god these kids." he said under his breath as he put the milk onto the counter. ukai turned around to be met by the most plain yet most beautiful person he'd had seen in...forever.
his complexion was very pale. no markings, freckles, nothing was visible on his skin. it was clear. his eyes were a brown color with flecks of a darker shade of brown. he wore glasses that made his eyes stand out even more. his hair as dark as a the night sky when no stars are shining. he was very short. shorter than a normal sized teenager. so that made him look like a child but i could tell by the way he carried himself he was older than a teenager. he also wore a dress shirt and a tie so that made him stand out in a plain way. not like if someone had a crazy hair color but he stood out by his plain and beautiful looks.
he was simply beautiful.
"this all?" i asked as i checked scanned the milk. "yes." his phone continued to go off. he pulled it out furiously. him getting that frustrated was actually pretty adorable. he payed and before he walked out he turned around to ask me something. "are you by any chance related to the old coach ukai that worked a karasuno high?" he asked.
yup i am.
"yeah." he nodded as he walked out of the store.
back to real time-
"okay but what do you feel for him? are you unsure it's love because you sound kind of unsure." she asked as we sat down on a park bench.
what did i feel?
"well when i see him i feel as if everything wrong in this world could be made right by just his smile.
his face could make the strongest army fall of in our case the strongest volleyball team fall. when i look at him i feel as you feel when you got the one thing you wanted in life. his presence makes me scared yet calm all at the same time. i get nervous when i'm around him. nervous like i've never been. not while playing volleyball but like...love. like being nervous of loving him. nervous of the possibility of losing him. nervous that these feelings won't be the same once i tell him. nervous that he.. well that he doesn't love me the way
i love him."
i stuttered a lot as i poured out my heart and soul to her. she smiled.
"well there. you admitted your in love to a person other than yourself. so that's a win."
yeah i did.
so step 1 complete.
"so what now?"
she looked at me with a worrisome expression.
"write him a letter. it doesn't have to be long. but just to tell him your feelings. put what you just told me.
you need to find a way to tell him and if you can't say it with your words at least write the poor guy a letter." i sighed.
"okay."
so the letter is step 2.
"goodbye ukai. don't be a pussy and just do it."
she waved goodbye to me as she left me standing alone in front of my apartment. we left to head to training camp in the morning.
"i have to tell him sometime this week.
before we go up against any other teams.
he and i also have to be in sinc so i have to just tell him."
i looked up at the night sky to see it's dark. barely any stars are visible. the sky reminds me of him.
of his hair mostly. but the stars remind me of how much there is still for me to learn about him.
just like how many more stars there are to find in the sky. there's always more than just a clear sky.
there's stars in it you just haven't found them yet.
all night i worked on the letter. i didn't want it to be too long or too short. so i went with one page.
front and back. it'll never be enough to just tell him they a letter but it's a start.
i prepared myself to see him once again.
to spend a whole week with him. i'm being like a little kid when they get to spend the day with their crush. i will give it to him this week. i took one last deep breathe before walking up to him in the karasuno high parking lot.
"hey takeda."
he turned around and smiled.
"good morning."
yup.
i fucking love him.
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i forgot to add this in there but i'm to tired too.
they did hook up.
but they talked over lunch about what he feels for her and for takeda just to make that clear.
i'm too fucking lazy to put that in there.
so honestly this was more about accepting he has feelings for him out loud instead of keeping thoese feelings to himself
which i know me and a lot of people i know have trouble accepting feelings so that was kinda related to that so ye.
okay ima go curl up in a ball and procrastinate to pack.
byeeeeee
like i just need someone to send these too so since i have literally no love life whatsoever y'all are getting. these.
okay now ima go