After my mom came home I wasn't sure how I can tell her if I can go to the party. My anxiety was on a different level that is very hard to describe, but I tried my best and I still couldn't do it. I said goodnight to her as I walk up the stairs cursing myself for not having any balls and telling her straight forward. Although, it's not like she would say "yes, Kali you may go".
Pshhh, yeah right
I sat on my bed thinking some more and It's when it hit me that the only option was to sneak out. I never have done it before and I was lowkey kinda scared speaking that my mom isn't like most moms and she will ground me for like a year.
It better be fucking worth it.
I had kinda already planned on what I was going to do and I decided that when my mom falls asleep ill open up my window and jump down from there. It wasn't that far of a jump, but I really hoped it would still work out.
I went to bed and it was already 10:45
CRAP, I need to be going to bed
*turns off light
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6:30
I woke at 6:30 which isn't that bad since I kinda stayed up late than I usually do since I'm always tired but I guess not today.
I took a shower and got ready for school like I usually do, although I must have had dementia since I just woke up, but when I looked at my phone everything that happened yesterday evening came rushing back to me
WTF...
I quickly look out my window to see one more time if I was sure I can make it out without getting hurt or making any loud noises that will wake up my mom, but for now, I think it will be ok as long everything goes smoothly.
My heart was pounding even though the day barely started, but I guess it's probably the realization of how much I'll be screwed if my mom catches me.
*Literally, I will have missing signs of me everywhere if my mom finds out
After a couple of mental notes to myself on how stupid this is, I finally headed out and started walking to my bus stop. I mostly focus on my phone when I walk to my bus stop so I don't have to have any physical eye contact with anyone while I'm walking, but before I can even turn on the music I tripped on a freaking rock that was big as hell and I can swear it wasn't there before!
"OOF"
*Am I dead, I thought
I expected that the ground to be really rough, but I landed on something really soft...
*What the hell
My eyes were still closed, so when I had opened them, two big bright brown eyes were staring right into me. I didn't want to belive who it was, but I knew I shouldn't be lying since he is litterly right in front of my eyes
*L.I.T.T.E.R.L.Y
Both of my hands were pressed against his chest as long with my right knee between both of his legs with his left hand on my right hip and his other hand almost touching my left leg.
AND AS IF THAT COULDNT BE MORE EMBARRASSING, OUR FACES WERE 5 INCHES APART
Erm...Uh, was all I could make out.
I didn't know why I was thinking that but out of all the things that I could be worried about was if my breath stinks.
*WHY THE HELL AM I WORRIED ABOUT THAT
My face was bright red and so was his. I couldn't imagine what he was thinking, but before anything else was getting more awkward I quickly got up and said I was sorry and started walking away immediately.
I don't know that was my first instinct but it was. Although before I can stop thinking about it a hand grabbed my hand...
*Please don't let it be him, please don't let it be him, please god, pleaseeeeee
"Hey, uh- are you ok..."
"Uh yes I'm fine", I replied with a smile
"Umm we should probably go to our bus", he replied shyly
"Ok..."
He somehow got in front of me leading away, but I didn't mind it since it was pretty adorable. My mind though must have forgotten about how we were still holding hands. I was a little resistant since I didn't want other people to get the wrong idea, but I figured it would be weird if I did mention it so I let it be.
We ended up making it on time on the bus and sat right next to each other. My face was really bright red now since we were still holding hands while we were sitting down. I kept staring at my hand and his hand locked together, but he must have noticed me staring because he let go
"Oh! er- sorry I didn't realize we were still holding hands"
"Oh it's ok I don't mind"
*CRAP, WHY DID I SAY IT LIKE I WANTED HIM TO HOLD HIS HANDS
*Although I did actually like it, I found it kinda comforting
The rest of the bus ride was kinda awkward, so I decided to fill in the silence
"So are you going to Stacy's party tonight", I asked
He seemed pretty surprised by my question, but I guess you don't see a freshman going to a junior's party every day
"Uh yeah, but how did you know about the party..." he asked
"Oh your girlfriend Emily asked me to go"
"Oh, that's unexpected...", he mumbled
"what was that", I said
"Oh nothing"
The bus came to a halt and we were now in school. I grabbed my backpack and started to head off.
"Well I'll see later Louis", I said while giving him a wave goodbye
"You too Kali"