You: I know my days have been worsening but optimism is key to happiness...I think.
You walk into the kitchen, hoping to be able to talk to Steve.
You: Hey Steve!
Steve: I'm busy, Y/N. I've got to go.
You: *sigh* Maybe it isn't.
Steve: What isn- uh..goodbye.
You: Have a nice day...ugh. Maybe Tony will be in a good mood?
Host: He must be really desperate if he's trying to talk to Tony.
You enter the lab to see Bruce and Tony working on something, which isn't uncommon.
You: Hey guys.
Bruce: Oh hey, Y/N.
Tony: Yeah whatever. What do you want?
You: I'm just being polite.
Tony: Right *eye roll* But why are you here? In my lab, you're not a scientist.
You: Oh my. Have a nice day.
You walk around the rooms, looking for someone, but no one's in sight.
You: Nice try, Clint. Better luck next time! Have a great day.
Clint: This is a bust.
You: Nat? Hello?
Nat swiftly sneaks up on you and-
You: *turns around* Why are you trying to practice on me? I've been catching Clint for...it's nice that you're practing your skills, Nat.
Nat: You seem optimistic.
You: I'm trying. I just have no one to talk to and it bums me out *sits down*.
Nat: You can talk to me *sits down*.
You: Nat, I'm what people call "annoying". Also, it'd be a waste of your time. I know you've been actively trying to get more and more busy to do good so I wouldn't wanna add my problems to your to-do list.
Nat: Can't you talk to Peter? Isn't he your best friend? And what about Steve?
You: Peter is busy with Sco-ool, school. And Steve...*sigh* Steve won't even talk to me.
Nat: You have to try and talk to him. Ask him what's wrong.
You: I would if he wasn't "busy" all the time.
Nat: He could be genuinely busy.
You: Maybe. What about you, what are your problems? You can vent to me if you want (No not that type of vent).
Nat: Ok sure. I sometimes feel like I'm a meaningless speck in the universe and that my red ledger can't be wiped because it was drawn in permanent marker.
You: Wow...that was a lot. Also, that is exactly my type of wording. Since when do you talk like that?
Nat: I didn't mean to, it just..happened.
You: Well, Nat, you've done a lot of good for the world and your red ledger has been bleached out by your good actions. You're an amazing person, Nat. Don't underestimate yourself.
Nat: Thanks. What about Deadpool? That mercenary. Can't you talk to him?
You: I have no idea where he is.
Nat: You can always talk to me, Y/N. I'll be there.
You: Thanks.
Thor: Thy hath returned!
You: Oh hey, Thor. Welcome back.
Thor: Hello, Y/N! How do you do?
You: I'm actually good. What about you?
Thor: Better than ever!
You: That's great.
Cameraman (Jeff): What have you been doing ever since you left Earth?
Thor: I've been brutally murdering villains!
Jeff: Oh, ok then *steps back* I'll be on my way.
You: Hey Jeff!
Jeff: Uh hey?
You: So, any questions?
Jeff: Oh I didn't expect you to let me speak. *fumbling and mumbling* Where are my notes? Ah! There they are. How have you been feeling about Steve not talking to you?
You: Did you really have to start with that?
Jeff: *shrugs*
You: It's been bugging me. But I'm not gonna let it keep me down. I need to look on the bright side. Like Thor's lightning bolts.
Jeff: Where has Peter been?
You: He is out there living his life, seeing all the positives and ignoring the negatives, like the negligible weight of electrons! Which is something Peter probably learned at school! So stay in school if you want to- what am I even saying? I'm not family friendly.
Jeff: Just one more question before you go.
You: Ok then, hit me?
Jeff: Are you gay?
You: That's a waste of a final ques- it's great that you want to clear the air. Yes, I identity as a homosexual. However, I am usually attracted to people I have a bond with. It's sort of like demisexuality but not exactly. I opt for optimism! That's catchy.
Meanwhile:
Steve: On your left.
Sam: You're out here all day everyday! Why?
Steve: I've been avoiding Y/N ever since you told me he would break my heart.
Sam: You shouldn't avoid him. You need to tell him that you and him are just friends.
Steve: I don't have the strength to do that.
Sam: And why not? It's not like you're gonna hurt his feelings.
Steve: No. I'm gonna hurt mine.
Sam: Oh come on, you're not over him yet.
Steve: He's the sweetest person I've met.
Sam: Him? Sweet?
Steve: You don't know him like I do. He's more sensitive than you think.
Sam: Yeah. Sensitive as in completely butthurt and a drama queen.
Steve: He's funny, caring, passionate...
Sam: Ok nevermind, you're in love. Don't talk to him and you'll lose your feelings for him.
Steve: But I don't want to lose my feelings for him. He makes me feel good. I feel like the best version of myself around him. He makes me confident and...happy.
Sam: You HAVE to move ON!
Steve: I know, I know. I'll figure it out.
Sam: That's right! Man with a plan.
Sam proceeds to run off as Steve stands there, conflicted and sad.
5 years la- just kidding:
The next day:
You walk into the kitchen and see every1 sitting at the table, eating.
You: Good morning.
Bruce: Y/N, it's 2 PM. We're eating lunch.
You: Oh. What are you guys eating? *yawn*
Peter: Pasta. It's delicious.
You: Peter? I haven't seen you for a few days.
Peter: What are you talking about? I saw you yesterday.
You: No you- nevermind I'm too tired for this. Where's Steve?
Tony: He's on his mission.
You: Cool, he's actually busy this time. What is it?
Tony: Retrieving some files on inhumans.
You: No sassy remark or mean-spirited reply?
Tony: No?
You: Today's a nice day. Beautiful even. I'm gonna go take a walk.
Nat: Don't you wanna eat? There's a plate for you.
You: Nah I'm good. I just woke up. I'll eat it later.
Clint: Have fun.
You: I guess you gave up on sneaking up on me.
Clint: I sometimes can't tell if he's joking or not.
You: See you later!
As you take a stroll around New York City, your mood worsens as there are no distractions to make you forget about your problems.
You: Optimistic, optimistic, optimistic.
(It was hard to change the lyrics since this song is so meta)
You: 🎶 🎵 The sun is dim, clouds all over the sky
My hope is redesigning and I swear that I could do anything
On such an adequate day.
I'm like a bull coming out of my cage
My life's an open book I'm gonna release my rage
And i know I'm being cynical but I'll try to be happier today
I don't remember ever being so optimistic
I'm kind of known to be a mega critic
But I'm done being annoying and nihilistic
But I'll no longer look at the logistics.
As long as life doesn't-
Wade: Hey Y/N!
You: Wade! It's been so long.
Wade: When someone is important to you, days can feel like months.
You: I don't remember you ever being so poetic
You're usually known to be 🎶 apathetic 🎵 .
Wade: I'm busy currently but I'll see you later.
You: Everyone's always busy.
You: *clears throat* 🎶🎵 I'm gonna keep my vision 20/20
So my amount of happiness can be plenty
I'm gonna focus on my heart and not my frontal cortex
I won't get sucked into their emotional vortex.
As long as Steve doesn't:
IGNORE ME ALL THE TIME
FOR NO REASON OR RHYME
AS IF THIS WAS A GAME
I'D LOVE TO GIVE TONY, THE GUILLOTINE, ROTTEN CUISINE
THROW HIM INTO A TIME MACHINE
HE DRIVES ME INSANE
HE'S MADE AN IRON SUIT, A NEW ELEMENT, AND HE LOVES TO MOON
THE MOST EXPENSIVE BUILDING , TONS OF ROBOTS, BUT NO PLACE FOR HIS HEART TO BLOOM
NO ATTENTION, OR RETENTION, I PREFERRED SCHOOL DETENTION. A PRANKSTER, AND DRAMA? A TON.
HONESTLY I AM DONE! 🎵 🎶
*Long exhale*
🎶 But today I'm not worried about that bullshit.
Today it won't even bother me a bit
I won't throw a fit
On such an ade-beautiful day.
It's such a beautiful dayyyy...
Wait a minute
Since when do I sing?
A/N:
IT'S BEEN SO LONG!
I really wanted to write more but I just really wanted to update.
I feel like this might take longer than expected to finish but I need part 100 to be available for that special chapter I mentioned MANY months ago.
So I should probably write more on this page before I put but 🎶 today I'm not looking at the logistics 🎵
Until next time (TBD)
GAYbriel 🧚♂️ 🌸