It'd been about a week since what had happened at kozues.
You hadn't seen much of the russian man.
To say you were a little concerned was an understatement.
Currently it was about 11:14 at night and you were sprawled across the couch unable to sleep.
Your arms were tossed over your eyes, inhaling deep, slow breathes.
Feeling your mind fade away you had almost managed to drift off when you heard the door open.
Footsteps.
You weren't really sure why but you hesitated to sit up, instead keeping your eyes shut and pretending to sleep.
You heard the floorboards creak.
Sikorsky walked towards you, and just stood there.
Watching.
You forced yourself to keep your breathing normal.
Eventually you heard Sikorsky shift slightly as though he was going to walk away but you couldn't help yourself.
"Sikorsky...."
The russian man froze, turning back to face you.
"Y/n?"
He questioned.
"Are you awake?"
Hesitating a bit you eventually moved your arms away from your face, jumping a bit at the sight of the russian man.
"Sikorsky...Are you okay? You have bruises all over your face!"
You sat up quickly, grabbing gently at the blond man's face.
"I'm fine. Its just bruises. Im not a baby."
You scoffed a bit.
"A bitter ass. Like usual...."
Muttering under your breath you stood from the couch.
"Wheres are you going?"
You responded by grabbing an icepack from the freezer and returning with it, holding it out for him to take.
"Just take it please."
You spoke, knowing what he was thinking.
This made Sikorsky gingerly take the ice pack from you.
"Still angry with me?"
"No."
You muttered, your mouth making a firm line.
"Really? It sure seems like you are."
He mumbled, pressing the icepack to his cheek.
"Who'd you go and pick a fight with now?"
Sikorsky didn't say anything at first.
"Does it matter?"
Now this made you scoff.
"Y'know, for someone he frequently claims not to be a child you certainly answer questions like one."
You muttered in a hushed tone.
"And for someone who cares you sure didn't seem to mind messing with my feelings..."
Sikorsky muttered under his breath.
"And what exactly are you trying to insinuate?"
You shot back, voice dangerously low.
"I'm sure you know pretty damn well what I'm insinuating."
"Well maybe I wouldn't have had to if you'd just stop getting yourself hurt!"
"YOU MADE ME FEEL WEAK!"
The man shouted, slamming his fist down on your coffee table and making you flinch.
Your eyes stared at him in shock.
Sikorsky breathed for a few moments, licking his chapped lips.
"You made me feel weak..."
He repeated this time more softly, his voice sounding bitter and tired.
"How..."
You began.
"How could I possibly make you feel weak? Me?"
You countered in disbelief.
"Not physically, malen'kiy."
He replied, his gaze softening a bit as he forced himself to look away from you.
"So the death row inmate has a heart now...?"
"You could have pushed me away the moment I kissed your neck. Why didn't you? You could've saved yourself some time pretending to like me. And your sayings I didn't have a heart? That is rich comings from you."
"Jesus Sikorsky, I wasn't pretending. I didn't know how I felt then-"
"Oh and how do you feel now??"
Silence.
You had no idea how to answer.
It was like that for a couple of moments before Sikorsky stood.
"Sikorsky wait-"
You began, walking up to him.
He'd been walking away but was stopped by your arms wrapping around his mid-section.
You pressed your face into his back.
"I-I care....about you. I'm sorry I care because I saw a familiar pattern. And I know where that pattern leads and I was so fucking scared to see it happen all over again. He died and he left me....I'm just so scared that-"
Your voice had begun to quake.
"-the same things going to happen again- and that you'll leave me alone too."
Tears threatened to fall and you squeezed Sikorsky tightly.
You gently released the man, allowing your arms to drop from his large frame.
"I care because I like you..."
"Just like?"
This made you go still for a minute.
"Your my friend."
This made Sikorsky turn to face you.
"But that's not what I want."
He shot back.
"You know that's not what I want. You can't keep trying to change me-"
"I know that. I'm not a goddamned fool."
You interjected.
"But does that mean you know what you want, Sikorsky?"
You eyes now avoided the man.
"I know what I want-"
This made you chuckle, catching the man off guard.
Finally you looked up at him.
"Then why don't you show me what that is then? You've never explicitly said it. You keep saying I know but...I really, really don't."
You cleared your throat.
"All I know is...I liked the way kissing you felt....to much for you to just go ahead and label me as some sort of heartless bitch. So please..."
Your teeth caught your lower lip between them.
"All I know is that I never stopped wanting you to do it again-"
The only thing you registered was the sound of your lamp shattering against the floor.
In one swift movement you were pinned against the wall, and the next his lips were searing against yours.
You were trapped pressed against his body and the wall, your hands had wrapped themselves around his neck, your fingers weaving through blond strands.
He'd lifted you so that your legs wrapped around his hips, his fingers traced the skin just under your shirt, making you gasp and giving him the opportunity to devour your lips.
He ripped away, placing a series of molten kisses along your neck.
"S-Sikorsky..."
You managed to moan.
"W-We shouldn't be doing this-"
The russian man responded by biting down on your neck, leaving you keening.
"I don't give a fuck what I should or shouldn't do...."
He hissed against your skin.
"Say it again."
"W-what..."
He licked your neck.
"Sikorsky-!"
You squeaked, feeling him knead the inside of your thigh with his hand.
*Knock knock knock!*
You felt the russian man stiffen and freeze against you.
"Who the fuck-"
"Hello? Is anybody in there?! Tokyo police department!"
Your eyes widened.
"Shit! Sikorsky, go to my room! Go hide!"
Sikorsky stared at you for a long moment before growling under his breath and forcing himself to set you down.
You took deep breath, walking over to the door.
"Hello..? Can I help you? Sorry it took so long I wasn't expecting anyone so late..."
You greeted the officer's with a smile.
"Ah were terribly sorry about that ma'am. But a wanted fugitive. Has been seen in the area. Have you noted anything suspicious lately?"
"Oh wow really? No I haven't sir...I'm sorry."
You lied, making yourself look concerned.
The officer nodded.
"It's well alright ma'am just please go ahead and call the police station if you hear or see anything alright?"
"Of course."
You nodded.
"Goodnight."
"Goodnight ma'am."
Gently closing the door you huffed a sigh of relief, plopping down onto the floor.
You waited patiently until the sound of sirens faded away.
"Sikorsky..."
You called out softly.
"They're gone."