looking for any shred of past decency to prove I'm good
(oh, I let me down, I let me down)
any kind word or guilty feeling, sought it out
(cradle me softly, it's killing me softly)
bone met bone on sleepless nights, full of terrorless dreams and leapless frights
(put my body by the lake when you're done, make sure it's dawn)
I always check myself like in some evil thing
(forked tongue, babe, I can do what I want)
looking for any shred of selfishness to prove I'm no good
don't let me stay with you.
searching for answers and clues I will not find
(time is not mine, I am not time)
twisting body parts through the night
(trace your fingers down my skin, I'm in your house)
you don't know the way I do
(no one can, for it isn't real)
come now, feast your eyes upon me, rotting as I die
(again and again and again and again and again)
don't ever try to love this monster of me.
peel through the skin, searching for the seed
(where did it go? where am I now?)
pulled through the undertow, where did I go?
(the ocean is vast, and I am the last)
I don't know what I am.