Jimin searched and searched, but he couldn't find a remedy for his nausea. He realized that this was something he had to bear with for another morning until he was able to talk to Taehyung about this. In Jimin's mind, he strayed away from believing this had something to do with the elixir failing him, so he tried to avoid seeing the son of the well-known doctor. Fearing the truth of what Taehyung would tell him.
Jimin applied a fragrance that blocked out the scent of his alpha, but no matter what, the scent was stronger than before. Jimin finished the bottle completely and still carried the strong scent of his alpha. No matter how hard he tried to hide it, Jungkook's bold scent was still there. As the omega stood in his room, he inhaled the scent of his king still spreading all around him, feeling sorrow weigh his shoulders down. How could he forget the arguments they shot at each other? It was an labored thought that never took a break.
"I-I tried everything... Why is it still here? Normally it wouldn't stick out too much... is it because I miss him?" Jimin spoke to himself and rubbed his puffy eyes. The swan didn't want to think too much about his situation and only longed to find someone he could speak to. "I need to see Taehyung... but he can't know about my symptoms. Who knows if I could die the next week because of this?!" The beautiful boy asked curiously, tugging the sleeve to his sleepwear and looking at the ribbon he had of his alpha.
With the scent of Jungkook filling Jimin's nose again, he began to notice that the ribbon was beginning to lose it's fragrance. Jimin's sore eyes locked onto the folds of the ribbon hugging his wrist as a tear escaped his eyes. Just the thought of leaving his alpha the day before still struck him down heavily. No matter how happy or calm the swan was, the simple thought of the moment was still fresh to his mind. But he couldn't stop crying for more than a second before breaking down again. Realizing that his issues were able to cut so deep into his skin, it left a scar embedded into his soul.
"Jungkook... I want to run to you... but I don't know what to say as of right now... you deserve so much better yet you chose me. I-I... I will see you when I know I need to. As of right now, I don't want to harm you," Jimin whispered and pressed his wrist against his mating mark where he felt the kiss of the soft fabric ease the smallest pains he had over his mark.
Seeing Jungkook at the moment wasn't going to help any of them. They needed to learn their own issues and understand them apart. If they tried to learn it together, they would interfere with each other, distract each other and cause so much destruction. Jimin knew better to keep his distance until he was ready, but the back of his mind kept thinking of his alpha. His body yearned for his king and he couldn't help but to wonder how his partner felt through this depressing moment.
Servants eventually stepped into Jimin's room with his request in the early morning to clean up his mess. Jimin was embarrassed to let his servants know of his condition, but the swan only hoped no one else could know. He was offered tea and a medical infusion after to soothe his nausea, but even the tea was too much for his sensitive senses. When the sun rose that morning, Jimin requested that his morning meal was to be served to him in his chambers. He refused to eat in front of anyone else just to avoid growing nauseous from anyone else's scent. By now, he began to realize that any scent of another alpha other than Jungkook's, was bound to make him feel sick. Since he spent a while crying in his father's arms, it was strong enough to make him feel nauseous in the early morning.
Jimin sat in front of his low table that carried the bowl of his morning meal. The omega gazed at the hot bowl of porridge (Juk) and couldn't help but to tilt his head at the sight of it. He knew this wasn't going to be enough for him, his appetite was bigger compared to before and could only tilt his head to face the servant who stood in his room to tend to his needs.
"When I'm done with this one, could you please bring me another?" Jimin requested his servant and watched the omega nod her head and resume staring at the ground. "If anyone is to ask why I choose to eat alone in my chamber, do not tell them what has been happening to me..." Jimin ordered and watched the omega nod once more.
Jimin was desperate to believe anything compared to what the little things formed right before him. He stared at the bowl of porridge and knew this was the only thing he could eat in the mornings without feeling nauseous at the other meals he was offered. The swan's nose was sensitive and the idea of feeling as if he longed to throw up, worried him and his servant. But of course, Jimin pushed it out of his mind since the only thing he could think of was his alpha.
"I'm stubborn, aren't I?" Jimin randomly asked the servant. "I'm selfish and stubborn... how could I have harmed someone and become so blind to it all? I didn't realize his pain until I snapped out of my own little world. My little flawed world..." Jimin spoke and began to eat as the servant only remained silent. "Tell me... do I seem stubborn or selfish to you?"
"I-I..."
"Be honest with me, please... I won't have you punished or anything! All I ask is for your honesty..." Jimin spoke to the servant and turned his head to face hers.
"I'm not so sure, Master Jimin."
Of course, Jimin knew better to ask a servant such a question when she could be punished for disrespecting the upper class family. Jimin sighed and looked down at the bowl of porridge he was already close to finishing. Jimin then set the bowl down after and requested more as he sat there. Awaiting his second serving. He noticed the change in his appetite and could only feed into it. As soon as the servant stepped out of the room, Jimin tugged his lavender sleeve down to expose the ribbon once more before he inhaled it and closed his eyes.
"What's going on with me?"
Eventually, a week passed by so suddenly. With a snap of a finger, time rushed by and days turned into endless nights for the two. It was torturous for the couple being apart after their argument, but was time being fair enough to keep their love strong through such a break?
Jimin refused to head out of his room for the most part. He locked himself in to deal with the sudden changes in his behavior. He began to sleep in through the mornings and endure the pain he felt being far from his alpha. Of course, he would always cry himself to sleep when he thought back at the situation he left open with his king, but he now began to realize the blinded parts to his attitude. Jimin took time to ponder his actions as he kept himself far from Jeon Jungkook. He knew his faults and only hoped to gain the confidence to see his alpha once more. Yet, he could never bring himself to step out of his room to see him. Mentally, he had yet to see Jungkook.
Throughout the sudden week. Jungkook fought through many parts of his emotions. He felt his desperation escaping him after realizing that Jimin was gone. Not forever, but for now. This alone pushed Jungkook to be a better man, but at times he was unresponsive due to how the pain silenced his cries. As the selections continued, Jungkook refused to look at any other omegas. His heart still belonged to Park Jimin even after the argument that pushed the two into questioning their love. Even if they questioned what they had, they could never grow out of each other.
Throughout those horrendous days, Jimin refused to see Taehyung. Just the fear of what he could have, scared him into staying locked into his room. It was bad enough that he had yet to gain the confidence to see Jungkook, but to hide away from the one he called his brother? Jimin didn't want to stray away from the world, but fear pushed him to do many things. His mind began to overwhelm him, his questions about what was happening to himself, his fears of confronting Jungkook with nothing to say, and his fears of having another argument with him as well was enough to keep his feet glued to the grounds of his chamber.
On the bright side, Jimin knew his differences from Jungkook after the argument and knew his flaws. He no longer sugar coated his side of the story and only wanted to confront his alpha when he was ready. But now, he wasn't at all. He was weak in the mind so every night as he slept, he dreamt of his alpha's tears as he cried for him, and knew the argument still haunted him. He was still weak no matter how many times he dreamt of the same thing. Through it all, he knew he couldn't see Jungkook instantly.
At the same time that early morning, Jungkook stood at the courtyard and dismissed another group of omegas. The selection was put off too many times but now, the king was speeding through the process and making the royal court lose their minds! They knew the king was very picky, but at this rate, they knew Jungkook was going to be a lonely king if he kept denying so many omegas.
"My King..." spoke one of the members of the royal court. The older alpha looked up at the silent king and noted his lips that were sewn shut, his eyes that never ceased to carry the youthful glow of young love, and the way his voice rarely erupted from his mouth. "My King, you only have a group of omegas left to see! How could you deny so many in a matter of time? Who will you marry? You cannot be this picky!"
"I can if I am the king..." Jungkook replied. The tone of his voice was rare to be heard from everyone. So when he spoke out, everyone listened in to hear him. After his argument with Jimin a week prior, he was working on loving himself and becoming a better alpha to his partner. He was numb to the feeling of love at the moment, only because he longed to share it with himself. The lonely king wanted to love himself, he wanted to know that he needed himself before anyone else and kept at it until he tried to think less of Jimin and more of himself. Putting himself before anyone else.
"My King, you are wasting everyone's time! When will you marry? You made it obvious that you wanted to find your future omega, but when will that happen?!"
"It will happen when I'm ready," The young king spoke and smiled right after. "Send in the last group very soon... if I don't make up my mind, give me more time to think back at the other omegas so I could choose one on my own."
The way Jungkook spoke was as if he planned out what he was going to say. However, he was just as lost as anyone else. He didn't know what to do after the next group of omegas and feared he would be arranged with the nearest one. After the love he began to give himself, he couldn't find himself giving it all completely without thinking of Jimin every time. Jimin was the one he wanted to see, the one he wanted to marry no matter how much love he had for himself. He was no longer desperate. His desperation died off after a week without Jimin and after that, his true feelings for the omega was born out of the old obsession he kept. Jeon Jungkook was beginning to know the true definition of love for his omega.
"Fine, I will send in the next group of omegas soon, My King," assured the member of the court before he unrolled the scroll that kept the remaining omegas from residences that had yet to be present. As his eyes scattered along the names, his eyes then locked onto one particular residence name that had yet to show up to any of the selections. That residence alone was none other than the wealthy Park Residence, where Jimin's name was the only name written alongside that.