I have spent my life
running in circles around myself
I have spent my life
reaching for the highest shelf
what do they see
in old pictures of me?
clearly, obviously
imperfection
I have spent my life
running in circles around him
I have spent my life
coiled in pain, and toiled in whims
what do they see
him beside me?
clearly, obviously
imperfection
and now he's off with that man
and I'm left alone again
yes, I'm alright, again,
I'm just clearing my head
of thoughts that must long be dead
I have spent my life
running in circles around myself
I have spent my life
watching from the highest shelf
I have spent a decade and several years
waiting for my tears to come
where do they come from?
he had spent his life
running in circles around himself
he had spent his life
failing to reach me on the highest shelf
and now he is married
to a man that he truly loves
with a daughter and a son
can't I rely on anyone?!
I have spent my life
chosing right time and again
I have spent my life
with him as my only friend
I have spent my life waiting
and praying
for the day of reward to come
well, is it ever to come?
I have spent my life
teetering on the highest shelf
I have spent my life
catering to everyone but myself
I have spent my life
in agony over myself
I devoted my life
and yet, he saved himself
clearly, obviously
there is something wrong
clearly, obviously
there's something wrong with me
clearly, obviously
I should go seek help
clearly, obviously
I can't trust anyone else.