Simmons POV
I wake up and I open my eyes. What a beautiful day!
I feel so happy... Oh shit!
Did Fitz and I kiss last night or was that just my dream?
Eh must've been a dream. I get up and get dressed, I plan on being very productive today. I get down to the lab when I see Fitz.
"Hey!" I say
"Hey."
"I need you to experiment on what will happen if you combine these two chemicals together and then add acid" I order
Fitz looks at me confused, very puzzled.
"Simmons, are you just gonna act like that, after we.... you know..." Fitz trails off
I give him a look of confusion and turn away.
He spins me around and presses me close to him.
"Fitz, what are you doin-"
"Shhh" Fitz says, "don't act like you don't know."
With that he kisses me and I immediately pull away
"What the hell Fitz?!" I yell
Now Fitz looks really hurt and confused
"Why is this weird?! Isn't this what you wanted? You even told me, last night." He yells. He walks away frustrated and confused.
Oh my god! That wasn't a dream.
I just messed everything up! Oh no what am I gonna do?!
For the rest of the day whenever Fitz sees me he turns around or acts like he is talking to someone else.
Things couldn't be more awkward.
Why can't I do anything right?!
Finally Fitz comes to see me in my bunk as I am fumbling around with my papers.
"Jemma. We need to talk."
I stare at him blankly not wanting to start the conversation
" jemma, look we kissed. It was great but I don't think we should do this. You obviously don't want to do this and I will accept that. I think we should just stay as friends and nothing more."
I want to tell him so bad that I didn't mean any of what happened this morning but I know I shouldn't.
It's for the best.
Some secret are meant to stay secrets.
"I understand Fitz." I try to say as happy as I can make it, "friends?"
"Friends." He agrees.
I spit into my hand and hold it out and he does the same, we shake on it.
That's something we've done since we were 15.
Even as we do this, tears sting my eyes and I need him to leave or I will be crying with him there and that's the last thing I want to do.
"I need to, um, finish this" I say as I point down to my papers.
Fitz nods of and walks out of my bunk and closes the door. When I'm sure he's fully gone I let myself go. I throw all my papers to the ground and cry.
This is not how any of this was supposed to go.
Then I hear knocking on my door and I'm able to pull it together.
"Who's there?"
"It's may."
I open the door to let her in and she is quick to examen all of the papers thrown to the ground. Next thing she looks at is me, shit, I forgot to check my makeup.
"I know this isn't my place, but are you okay?" May asks
I nod my head, "I don't want to talk about it."
May understands and moves on but for some reason I wish that she had pushed and asked again what was wrong.
"I just wanted to say, briefing in five, you might want to get cleaned up, or people will ask" may says with a sincere smile.
When she leaves I manage to pick up everything and make myself look as if nothing has ever happened.
Briefing happens and I honestly can't tell you what happens because the whole time I was desperately trying to not cry.
It hurt me to even look at Fitz, yet that was all that I was doing.
"Let's go Jemma!" Coulson yells, "you and Fitz, lab now! Let's go!"
Embarrassed I quickly run down and I don't notice Fitz and I knock him down the stairs with me.
He looks hurt, yet the first thing he does is to check if I'm okay.
He helps me up and I don't even say thanks, this is going to be the most awkward thing ever.
"Hey."
"Hey."
"What's up?
"Nothing, you?"
"Nothing"
This is the worst conversation ever. It seems like what a bad actor would do when following a script.
I am occasionally looking at him and I can feel him looking at me and I look away, but this one time, our eyes lock, and neither of us can look away.
It seems really nice, like the old days, before Leo fitz kissed me and for once in the day I feel quite happy until he looks away fast.
Skyes POV
everyone can tell there is something off.
Fitz and simmons are not being themselves.
They seem unfocused and upset.
I decide to take it upon myself to confront Jemma.
"Jem. Can we talk for a sec?" She walks over and I pushes her into a nearby closet and shut the door before she can escape.
"Oh my god skye! What the hell do you want, I'm not in the mood" simmons annoyingly and angrily says
"Hey I'm just worried about you."
"Well don't be im fine." With that simmons tries to push me out of the way
"Hey! Stop pmssing!" I yell back
"What did you just say", simmons yells, I can tell I hit a nerve, "why would you even say that, just okay, I don't want to talk! You are just making things worse! God skye! I never liked you and I sure as hell never will, I hate you!"
This time I don't push back and I let her leave.
She slams the door and I can tell She's totally pissed off.
Can't she ever take a joke?!
But gosh, what if she actually does hate me.
I've never really had friends, just me and my van and then I got simmons and what if our whole relationship was just in my head.
I can't do this. I don't brother to leave the closet, I can feel my legs giving out and I lock the door from the inside.
My eyes sting from me trying not to cry. I can't do this anymore I just can't. I let a single tear come out, bad choice skye, now a million follow and I can't stop. I try to be quiet when a knock comes on the door.
"Yeah?" I sniffle
"It's may."
"What's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"I don't want to talk about it." I say
"No damnit! Everyone shuts me out! I can help you just need to talk" may angrily explains
"I'm sorry, I want to just forget about it. " I mumble
"Can you at least let me in?"
I open the door and she closes it and sits with me.
We don't say anything for a while when she puts her hand on my shoulder and I can't help it.
I cry on her shoulder and surprisingly she is letting me and comforting me.
I end up hugging her and still she lets me even as I'm crying on her.
She hugs me back and then does the most surprising thing, something that I thought Melinda May would never do. She kisses me on my forehead and hugs me back.
I look at her and she looks at me back.
"I love you, I hope you know that. And trust me skye I don't take that lightly. Since the day I met you I've known your potential and I've known what You have meant to me. I want you to be happy because I care for you. "
"I love you too" I hug her more and I cry even more too.
"Want to talk about it" she asks me again
"I don't know what I mean to people"
"Well for one, you mean a lot to me." May says with a smile as she looks at me with complete honesty
"Thanks, but I mean, to simmons, she told me she hated me and that she always has. I mean she didn't want me on the BUS in the first place, maybe she was just acting, I don't know what to think anymore. I thought she was my friend, my best friend." I choke
May hugs me and whispers " I don't know what's up with her, she would be crazy to pass up on a great person like you. Also I wouldn't take it seriously, she seemed so upset today, I caught her in her room crying just earlier today. Do you know what's up with her?"
"I don't know she seemed really upset, so I was going to talk to her." I mumble
"Don't worry about it." May says
"Thanks. I'm really glad you listened." I give her a hug and she helps me stand up and we leave the closet together.
I'm so grateful for her. I'm glad she told me that she loved me because I really needed someone to tell me that. I think it's bad that I picture my mom like may but I don't think I'll ever tell anyone that.
Fitz POV
Jemma comes rushing in the lab angry and upset
"Hand me the screw... Now!" Jemma yells
"Hey! Why are you so upset?!", I yell back, "calm down Jemma, you are being rude and I'm sick of it, and everyone is too!"
I can tell she's shocked that I said that and I can tell I made everything just the More awkward and now she definitely is mad at me.
"I-I-I'm so sorry Jemma, that wasn't my place to say"
"Screw you Fitz, just screw you" she gives me the finger and gives me the death stare,
"Fitz! The screwdriver!" Jemma yells
"Get it your damn self, you're fully capable of finding it your bloody self"
Simmons rolls her eyes at me, "fuck you Leopold Fitz, fuck you, fuck everything! I can't do this anymore!" Simmons runs out of the lab and I know I should go after her but I just can't, I'm too mad and I'm just so angry with her
Ugh you know what, fuck her, she doesn't deserve me anyway.
Just when I'm about to get super angry skye comes in.
She runs in and hugs me and presses against me but in a friendly way. This is what I want, for a girl to need me.
I stroke skye because I know she really needs it and that she's on the edge.
"Skye. Want to tell me what this is about."
"Jemma doesn't like me and I'm not sure what is a lie and truth so I need to know, what are your feelings on me?" Skye asks
" well I don't have feelings for you like I want to date you, but I know that I really care about you and I would hate to loose you."
"Thanks" Skye says and Hugs me again and this time I hug back.
Skye and I have a relationship that makes me think of her as a sister and as any good brother would do I kissed her on her head and told her everything was going to be alright.
"Don't worry about Jemma, she's just mad." I told her
"Why?"
I didn't know how to explain so I tried to be as honest as possible.
"Well Jemma and I never kissed when we were on the BUS, but last night we did and it was amazing, the best kiss I've ever had. But then in the morning, which is today, I tried to flirt with her and she shot me down. So naturally I thought she was kidding so I kissed her again and she got so mad at me. She left and when she came back the yelled at me and gave me the finger and shit like that." Fitz explained, "I don't know what to do."
Skye looks shocked,
"Do whatever you think is right, and will make you happy in the future." Skye gives me one more hug and leaves me to contemplate every decision I could possibly make.
I decide on being just friends again because it would just work out, if we did it once we can do it again....
Flashback
Fitz POV
"Hey Jem!"
"Hey Fitz!"
"Want to come over tonight? Movie?"
"Sure thing I'll swing by at 9!" Jemma answers
It's 7:00, ugh I should probably shower!
17 years old and still can't remember when to take a shower!
Jemma will be coming in 2 hours and I should start getting ready.
7:30 okay I actually need to get in now.
8:00 okay done with shower, homework is done, now all I need to do is clean up my dorm!
Ugh so much laundry everywhere and I'm so glad I don't have a roomate or else there would be even more of a mess!!
8:50 I hear a knock at the door, damn she's early, oh well!
I open the door to see Jemma there with a big smile on her face and she's hiding something behind her back.
"Jemma what's behind your back?!" I ask eagerly.
She whips out a 6 pack of Budwiser
"Score!!!" We yell together
I let her come in and she looks around
"Wow Fitz! Cleaner than ever! Aww mommy would be so proud" she smirks as she grabs my cheeks and continues to taunt me
"What movie tonight?"
"Um how about Harry Potter?, I haven seen that in a while." Jemma answers
I put in the Movie and we continue to laugh and joke around.
Before I know it Jemma attacks me and pins me to the ground. She's laughing and making jokes but won't let me up and me being a total gentleman I don't push her off and I just go along with it. She pretend to bite me and I struggle loose just in time to grab her face nearly centimeters away from biting me.
I look into her beautiful eyes and she looks at me.
She looks down at my lips and back up and then back down again, She bites her lip and she knows I can't resist. She grabs me by my collar and kisses the hell out of me. For a minute I can't believe I wasn't the first to make a move but I kiss her back and it feels just so damn good.
"Fitz,"
"Yes Jemma?"
"I really like you"
"Me too!"
She giggles and we continue to make out.
Jemma kisses me and starts unbuckling my buckle
"Woah, Jemma!" I say and gently push her off
"What Fitz? You clearly want this and so do I, what wrong?"
Shocked I can't say anything
"Look we are both 17 and still virgins and you and I clearly like each other, there is nothing wrong." Jemma persuades
Before I can say anything she pushes me and then kisses me more. I don't stop it because yes I am 17 and still a virgin and I do like her, in fact I love her, I've known since the day I met her.
Next thing I remember I'm in my own bed but who is there next to me?
It's Jemma completely naked and so am I, damn, we had sex!
This totally is gonna ruin things between us!
I try to go back to sleep after all it's 6 in the morning but I keep having flashback of to what happened last night.
And damn it was the best night of my life. I can't stop thinking about it and I don't know what to do. Jemma is just sleeping there looking adorable as ever with a tiny bit of hair in her face. I brush it away and stroke her hair admiring how beautiful she is and how lucky I am, and somehow I mange to fall asleep.
9:00 am is when I finally wake up, thank god I have no classes today and neither does Jemma.
Jemma isn't awake but I can hear her mumbling my name
"I'm right here Jemma." I whisper
And finally she awakes.
"Fitz?"
"Hey beautiful."
"Did we just sleep together?"
I'm sacred to answer her.
What if she thinks I took advantage of her and In those 10 seconds I think of everything bad she could say or do but what I don't think of is what she actually says,
"Fitz, I'm so glad you know how I feel."
"Oh Jemma, I always felt this way."
I kiss her and I know this is what we are meant to be.
I'm so In Love with her but I know that we shouldn't date but thankfully she speaks up before me.
"Last night was great, she begins to wrap my sheets around her, "bu-"
"You might not want to stand up after what we did last night" I joke and she sits back down smiling
"But I think it's best if we don't date because we have such a good friendship and I don't want to ruin that. But trust me I really like you, I mean like really like you"
"I completely understand." I say honestly, "but first, one last one"
I kiss her and she kisses back and it's the most magical kiss even though it's our last I know that she wanted me and that she did want to date.
Present day
Fitz POV
Jemma and I didn't act as if nothing happened and yes we flirt a lot but we moved on and it was great, we never let our feelings become active again until now.
I don't know what to do. It was just so much easier the first time.
But now with all that has happened every risk is running high...
A/N: Hope you really liked this! Don't worry it'll get happier soon!!!