Take my hand. Will you share this with me?
'Cause darling, without you
All the shine of a thousand spotlights
All the stars we steal from the night sky
Will never be enough
Never be enough.
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Chapter dedicated to: simmi_R evans_13
and PariRana12
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<<nuraan's p.o.v>>
"Fuck it!" Her loud voice made me jump and all the humour and playfulness in me was gone and the only thing I could feel was the loud thuding of my heart. All of a sudden everything felt numb as my eyes widened and focused on the wild tigress I had in my house in the name of my wife.
What was my mother even thinking when she said that we would be perfect. And that 'a docile and calm girl like Raqeeba' is what all I'd ever need. Her words not mine.
Did she really have no idea that she was actually setting me up with an absolutely activated ticking bomb which can in no moment, unpredictably blast me down to atoms?
Or did she not really love me enough?
Thanks Mom.
I gulped hard the moment my eyes met those fiery once and a sudden pain errupted in my chest. Along with that sharp burning sensation right on my cheeks. Clearly indicating that I shouldn't mess with this bubbling fire ball. Because let's just admit it, for that tiny little petit body of her's she sure had some hidden hulk within.
My eyes snapped towards her fisted hands and my insides churned.
Oh boy. It's definitely gonna be my nose this time.
At that moment I knew that the only sensible and sane option on my plate was nothing but that one and only action.
Run.
Clenching my jaw I tried to straighten up as I hastely let out a stuttering
"I-I'm leavin"
By the time I gathered the courage to turn around small delicate looking hands pressed upon my torso before pushing me hard, making me stumble and hit my back to the wooden door. Before I could say anything, tiny arms wrapped around my neck and all the chaos in my head came to a halt when soft lips pressed right against mine making my eyes bulge out and an unknown spark of electricity charge up within me.
Woah.
I knew Raqeeba was beautiful the very first time I saw her. And it was never a secret that her kind nature was something everyone adored. I did too. But that wasn't enough of course. I have always been a practical man. My taste in woman had always been someone confident, someone who knows how to carry themselves with an aura. And as much as I hate to admit this. Anusha did gave that vibe. That was my type. Confident, strategic, stable and a woman with class. Nothing close to the woman I was set to share my life with. At least that's what I thought.
Raqeeba's soft, docile, cheerful and talkative nature was definitely not something I had ever looked for in my woman. I didn't do kids. And she was one to me, until yesterday. What I saw unfolding in front of my eyes was probably the biggest shock of my life. Gone was the bubbly cute girl I was married off to instead the one who stood right in front of me was a woman. A woman of worth.
Her authoritative attitude mixed with that boldness made mountains move and I couldn't help but adore her to a completely different level. She wasn't just kind, simple and sweet, she had a hidden fire to her, she was intelligent, bold, wise, carrying her own magic everywhere, keeping them locked up but never afraid to show her cards.
God.
What is this girl.
I do not recall having such immense attraction towards anyone ever before. Not even Anusha. No one. All of a sudden everything felt alien. Like something I had never really experienced before. Like I had never really know what attraction truly is. Like I had no idea how happy the fact that someone actually cares for you can be. How someone acting a little possessive or protective towards you can provide so much self satisfaction. How being ordered can seem like a blessing.
Woah.
I didn't know what was actually happening. I had no idea but the only thing that stuck in my mind was...
This felt home.
She felt like home...
"We're done. Now get out." Her breath was shaky as she quickly pulled away from me except for the fact that her hands still rested on my shoulders.
I couldn't help but trail my eyes all around her features taking in everything as much as possible while my hands were gently resting on either sides of her waist. Big grey doe like eyes stared back at me, momentarily batting those thick long lashes, as if feeling intimidated. Her creamy white soft cheeks along with her buttoned nose turning a deep shade of red perfectly in contrast with her wild bun, with a few trendrils falling messily in front of her eyes and all over her face did not fail to do wonders either. I sucked in a sharp breath the moment my eyes landed on those beautifully plump lips which were right on mine just a few seconds earlier, staying so close and the sudden urge to devour them magnified to a painful extend.
That's it. That's all the control a pure red blooded man can ever have. Not more.
"We haven't even started, Wife." The words left my mouth like a mere whisper but judging by the way her eyes widened. I'm sure she heard me.
That was a real bad decision you made, love.
Wrapping my left arm tighter around her waist, I pulled her closer while I slowly raised my right hand up delicately tracing the back of my fingers to her left cheek, making her ever so softly lean towards my touch as she closed her eyes and a small gasp escaped her lips making me bite back a groan. For fuck's sake. My eyes flutter between the closed grey orbs and the plump lips before I slowly traced my thumb over her bottom one making her eyes snap open as she looked back at me with as much desperation as mine but instead grabbed my hand on her lips in a firm grip as if stopping me from doing anything further. Or should I say stopping me from doing something I would regret.
Which I won't.
"Nuraan" her voice was a low whisper and I swear to God it didn't help either.
Not knowing what exactly got into me I pulled her even closer as I looked straight into her eyes, letting my words out.
"And I'm not planning to stop anytime soon"
With that said I didn't think twice before breaking all the bars of resistance I build everytime I'm near her.
<<raqeeba's p.o.v>>
His hands travelled at the nape of my neck and even before I could know what he meant with his words, his lips crashed on to mine with utmost wildness as he nibbled on my lips with his making my heart beat harder than any drum in the world and my grip tighten upon his shoulders, while I try to move my lips with that same pace and not be a lampy limbo
My eyes closed and it felt like multiple colors were all thrown right upon me as my toes curled and forget butterflies, I could feel an entire zoo in my tummy. Not wanting to seem like an inexperienced whimp I slowly glided my hand up to the nape of his neck before running them through his hair and slightly tugged on it making him groan and before I know he swiftly turned us around, this time making my back hit the door while his hands travelled all the way to my waist as he gave it a light squeeze making me gasp and taking it as an opportunity to slip his tongue inside my mouth making me moan at the minty flavour that burst through my taste buds.
Goodness Gracious! I can see the stars!
Our lips moved in a sync and I couldn't help but pull him closer not wanting to get rid of his warmth just yet. I felt my heart skip a beat the moment I felt his hands slowly move down towards my lower back before he rested them on my hips and finally descended down towards my thighs and lifted me up making me wrap my legs around his torso and my hands tighten around his neck.
Pushing me harder towards the door he tucked a few tendrils behind my ear as he sucked upon my upper lip before moving down to my bottom one and giving it perfectly undivided and equal attention. Nibbling and sucking hard.
Heat rushed between my legs, down there as my breathing became hard getting me completely out of breath and my back arch with utmost pleasure and desire.
Jeez! Get hold of yourself, Raqeeba!
It's just a kiss!
Yeah.
I was now striving hard for air while Nuraan's pace seemed like he could legit go on for an hour or two more. God. He really wasn't kidding when he said that he wasn't planning to stop anytime soon.
Well I'm sorry but if I countinue any longer I'd probably be dead by the end of this session.
Slowly tugging at his hair I tried pulling him back and as if that was all the indication he needed he quickly retreated, finally pulling away from me looking almost absolutely composed except the messy art I did with his hair and the darker shade of red his lips got from all that sucking.
Oh boy.
He was one delicious snack I tell you.
Deep dark blues stared back at me with so much emotions running in them that I couldn't even picture one. Goddamn it Raqeeba! I frowned the moment I saw his brows knot together making my heart skip a beat. No. No no no. Please no.
Gulping a little I tightened my hold around his torso with my legs and he immediately rested his hands on my hips holding me in a secure position as he looked down. Awkward...
I bit on to my bottom lips before I loosened my grip on his neck and slowly rested my hands on either sides of face as I made him look straight into my eyes.
I knew it. I knew he really wanted to say something but was holding himself back. And to be honest. I did not want him to at all have the feeling that he had to hold himself back from being carefree with me. Not at all. I wanted him to be honest, free and absolutely raw with me. I wanted to build that trust within us. I wanted to build that relationship within us. I wanted to build that communication between us which would leave all the bars behind.
I waited for him to say something but he didn't and just kept looking at me straight in the eyes with an unknown emotion. And at that moment all I wanted to say was...
It's okay.
It's okay if he couldn't feel anything. It's okay if he needs more time and it's perfectly okay to not be okay.
Of course I do not expect a guy who went out for three months and didn't even bother to give me single call to all of a sudden fall for me or something. Relationships are delicate. And for someone who spent most of her life in a toxic surrounding I value them way more than my imaginations. When I got adopted by Mr. and Mrs. Hussain, did I get to know what it's like to have a family. And I guess it would be fair enough if I don't be a stubborn sick kid who always wants to have everything their way.
I wasn't irrational. I knew life ain't something easy. And I knew that just because I am ready to cope up with whatever I'm thrown into doesn't mean everyone else will be.
Judging by the way his ex is at least I'm sure by now that their relationship didn't really have the best ending minus my entry of course. That woman seemed toxic and maybe...just maybe so was their relationship.
And if what I feel is true, then emotionally pressurizing him could be the worst discission I would ever make in my life. I do not want him to feel caged or burdened up by anything that blooms between us.
And like I said earlier.
I'm ready to go with the pace of a turtle. I'm ready to give him all the space he needs. I'm ready to be as open minded as I can afford to be.
I'm ready to understand life from his side.
I'm not going to burden him up but at the same time I'm never gonna leave him behind either. I may not be the wife he desired but I can surely be the friend he'd wish for. I want to be a part of his life. And important one if you ask me. I want to be a part of that precious heart which he keeps hiding from everyone.
I want to know him more. I want him to know me more. I want to build that trust, fait and harmony between us which is as unbreakable as ropes wined together. I want to be free with him. I want him to be free with me.
No secrets. No lies.
That's what I want us to be.
Our relationship didn't start off in the best foot but that doesn't mean it can never get it's tracks settled. Because after everything that has happened with all the four days with this man. I know that's impossible for me to not get addicted to his presence.
And as stupid as I sound I'm determined to make this work.
May not be as a husband and wife. But maybe as friends, confidantes or anything like that.
This man here has been carrying some hidden secrets within himself and I want him to let them out. I want to break those walls and get him out of those burdens. I want him to let me inn.
Willingly.
Giving him a small smile my thumbs traced either sides of his face before I slowly leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss against his cheeks making him freezing before I pulled back a little closed my eyes and pressed a lingering kiss on the tip of his nose.
I knew what I was gonna do and at this very moment my intentions were crystal clear. And I'm not at all planning to back off any moment soon. Someone has to take the first step anyway.
Pulling away a little I didn't bother opening my eyes as this time I leaned forward and pressed a soft feather like kiss on those tempting lips making his grip on me tighten before I slowly retreated.
Gathering every ounce of courage in me I took a deep breath before opening my eyes and immediately making them come in contact with those oceanic blue ones.
Do it.
I could hear the voices in my head encouraging me as I couldn't help the feeling that was all of a sudden growing in my stomach.
Can I?
You can. Remember. You're not gonna back off and this is for the goodness of your relationship only.
I could feel tears sting my eyes as I slowly bit on my bottom lip.
You have to Raqeeba.
He needs to feel secure and comfortable around you, remember?
He needs this.
Letting out a small shaky breath I couldn't help but look at him in the eyes, smiling as I said the words I didn't really mean but was important for us. For him.
"This doesn't mean anything."
I could feel the loud thuding of my heart as I said those words making his grip on my waist slightly loosened.
I don't want to hurt him. All I want is for him to get comfortable and not scared. I want him to be free and not feel pressurized.
That's all.
I could feel the way his eyes widened a little after which a frown settled on his face and what flashed through his eyes made me feel like knocking my head down on a rock.
Hurt
That was the only emotion I could picture in those eyes. Oh no. Oh no no no! I didn't mean it! I-I just didn't want him to not feel bad or awkward for not feeling anything!
What the hell Raqeeba!
His eyes were boring into my grey ones as he keenly kept taking in every feature of mine like he was getting into a deep trance and could analyze past my panicked expression before his features visibly softened making me release a breath I didn't know I was holding.
A small smile escaped his lips as he slowly tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear and I could see the way his pupils dialated. Tightening his grip on my hips he pulled me closer making me lock my legs around his torso as he looked into my eyes and repeated my words in a whisper.
"This doesn't mean anything"
At that moment I knew that he knew what I was doing and I could see the way his eyes shone as he said those words making a small chuckle escape my lips as I shook my head negative. Taking a deep breath he pulled me closer making our foreheads rest together as we both just kept looking into each other's eyes as a wide grin settled on each of our faces. I averted my eyes away from his face as I looked down and slowly touched our nose together before biting on to my bottom lip.
My cheeks turned warm as the realization of what just happened between us hit me and I couldn't help but the sudden joy which rushed through me while Nuraan on the other hand didn't even try to hide the smile creeping up his face and kept staring at my face shamelessly making his dimple pop out.
At that moment I couldn't help but thank the heaves above for the way he too said those words with that smile on his face. No, it wasn't because he meant them or because I meant them. It was because somewhere deep down we both knew.
We didn't.
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Ou ou ou babiesss!
Wasn't that a freaking quick update now?
It wassss!
Lmaooo!
I'm Soo proud!
Ohkay now ima make it official!
It's happening guysss!
Everything you guys wanted and were waiting for is pretty closeee!
(If you know what I mean)
Let's just be honest we all know someone is gonna fall hard.
But who do you think it would be tho?
Nuraan or Raqeeba?
Lemme know what you think about this!
And please please please
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Not setting a Target today!
Let's see how much you guys love me!
Because I love you guys to the Moon and Back! Okiee!
That's it!
Bye loveliesss!
XOXO
It's Sheewholoved!
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