Octavia :
I had come back to camp , leaving Lincoln to get more supplies .
I also saw a good friend go. and I knew Clarke felt hell for it .
For a moment I just sit down and look around me .
I saw Clarke chatting with Bellamy and she looked over and smiled warmly , trying not to show her pain .
Their were cuts all over her face along with Bellamy. Those two have gone through ten times more then any person here including myself .
Each cut represented pain they went through just to survive or save someone else . I had my cuts that meant the same but they had more .
I remember the first day. how bright we were . now we were faded and hurt .
We survive . but if all we do is survive then do we really live ?
I think of all we have lost . our loved ones . friends . our home .
The drop ship was our home . and as much as I was grateful I wished the ark never came down and mt weather never was a problem . our people were stuck in there . Clarke unbelievably escaped . that women did so much it still surprises me.
It amazes me how she is still alive .how Bellamy was still alive . Hell I don't even know I was still alive.
One of the things that made me happiest was my brother . He was alive . and he changed so much of who he was sense we landed on earth .
That because of Clarke . he slightly became less all over me and what I did because he looked after Clarke . and I knew he cared for her more then else in this camp other then me . I was happy how far they came together .
Because he had Clarke . I knew that if anything happened to me he would be ok . And it made feel better now that I'm the only thing on his mind .
Bellamy had changed into the best brother I could've asked for .
And now he had somebody . he wasn't alone .
My thoughts turn to what has to come .
We had come down a long path . but this path wasn't over yet .
( so I had a appreciation chapter . feedback ? )