Chapter 33
I woke up with the worst head ache, my brain was literally hurting. I closed my eyes again sighing, remembering why I was in pain. He's probably there now enjoying his new life. In a beautiful country that I helped getting him to, how could I be so stupid? I must really have 'Mug' written on my forehead.
I am so tired of ranting on about how much I've given to him and how much I've given up for him. I just sick and tired of thinking about it, sick of the fact I did it and sick of the fact that I now have to live with this for the rest of my life. I will now go on in life knowing that I had my life destroyed within the space of 2 years. And I was in love with the beholder that destroyed it, not caring, most likely with a smirk across his face.
I'm over it now. It's been a long night of crying and that's all im allowing myself, no more letting these silly emotions control me, he's pathetic and I'd be as pathetic if I sat here and let him win.
I sat up checking my phone for any texts or anything, a sign.
I keep doing it subconsciously, I really need to forget about him, that last thing I want is to go into some silly depression over something so little and irrelevant, something so minor and stupid. He's nothing to me.
I unlocked my phone looking at a bunch of bb messages I had received over the period of last night. All broadcasts. I locked it throwing it to the bottom of my bed and just sitting there looking around. I need someone to talk to I need to be around some positivity, I need more frie...
My phone rang and without a thought I had leaned forward crawling to the end of my bed answering the phone.
-hello?
-Darlinggg!" I pulled the phone away from my ear looking to see who it was but I hadn't recognised the number
-urmm, hi
-what do you mean urm hi. It's me you dumbo
-Who's me and who' you calling a dumbo
-I am bread stick what you gonna do about it and I mean me as in Maya
-Ohhhh! Right, hi love" I replied smiling
-yeah now you wanna call me love
-is this your new number?
-yup, omg I have a lot to tell you" I smiled shaking my head, crossing my legs
-go on then tell me
-omg my nigga I struck gold" I laughed
-nah don't even laugh, my dad came into the picture out of nowhere with a bunch of stacks
-:O seriously?
-yup, he gave me his old apartment, now I am living in it all alone, it's propa nice though, 17th floor nice bedrooms. But yeah like I said all alone
-well it must be fun
-kmt
-Maya if you want me to come all the way to some ghetto ends in east just to see your new pla...
-actually im out of the ghetto, in a lovely area, just about 15 minutes from the ends
-nice, nice
-so you coming
-urmm
-please man, you know you're my girl, I wouldn't invite you if I didn't feel as if I needed you to enjoy my new yard with me
-Aww, alright
-can you come today?
-probs, let me have a shower and that yeah, text me directions and oh yeah I have a few things to tell you.
-ooo like what??
-it's nothing juicy, I'll tell you when I get there" I quickly hung up before she start begging to know and got up to get ready.
I had my shower and got dressed, just put on black tights then put on my designer ripped jeans. Flung on a random black top and brushed through my hair. After brushing out my curls I tied my hair into a straight pony tail. Didn't bother with too much make-up, just mascara and a little bit of foundation.
When completely ready I walked out of my room to find the house empty. I was the only one here, I stood there absolutely confused. Getting over it I ran down the stairs grabbing my side bag with all me things in then leaving the house. Strong breeze blew hair into my eyes, I kissed my teeth walking towards the train station.
I walked out of the train station to recognise a group of boys, one face stood out to me. He was the same boy to kick down Maya's door, I screwed him whilst he looked back. I walked the opposite direction slightly zipping up my jacket.
Voice-Eyy" I knew it was him, I wasn't going to turn around. Why would I, it'd only be about Regan and since he's left I have no business with this guy
Voice-Oi blud, mans calling you" I stuck up my middle finger still not looking back
His boys laughed.
I heard a bunch of footsteps and rusty bicycle chains, my shoulder was then grabbed and pulled back. I turned around staring at him
Me-what?
Him-why you acting like you aint shook of me
Me-I'm not.
Him-what you grew balls since the last time I saw you yeah
Me-no... You done?
"oooo" I smiled walking off, they are so immature. I can't believe I was scared of these fools.
I walked down different roads and turned many corners, literally I felt I was getting more lost by the second. I stopped staring at the directions on my phone, it looked and seemed very straight forward but the roads were not as simple, actually they were quite complicated. I read over it one last time before walking again
Me-okay I walked up the road, took a right, another right, another right then a left and the walked to the end of the road, down the alley way and then took a left. Then why am I not there" I said to myself hoping this would help. But It didn't
I walked further down the road to see a bunch of blocks literally towering over me, okay I must be here now.
I looked at my phone as it read "Block C, Harmony house, 17th floor, door 67" I rolled my eyes continuing to walk
Me-Block F" I read as the big sign was written against a building.
Me-wtf isn't it supposed to start with Block A. Bloody common sense wouldn't hurt." I walked ahead then reading "Block H" Wtf. The thing is I didn't even have any credit to call Maya so I was basically stuck
Me-okay just a second ago there was block F
Voice-now you at Block H" I quickly turned to see some boy standing there
Me-do you know around here
Him-yeah I live around here... Your obviously not from here?
Me-no, I've been looking for block C for the last 10 minutes
Him-Maybe walking back on yourself may help, then take a left." I nodded knowing this piece of information would only confuse me even more
Me-urm thanks" I smiled politely walking away, he followed behind catching up
Him-ill walk you" I looked at him and smiled
Me-thank you" he nodded answering a call.
After 5 minutes he had walked me to the door of Harmony house
Me-thank you sooo much
Him-it's kl...
Me-Azeria
Him-nice, im Keshaun if you was wondering" I laughed nodding
Me-nice name Keshaun
Him-just as nice as the way you say it
Me-really?" he winked before walking off
Me-byee" I said giggling like an idiot. He waved with a smile.
I watched him walk into the distance before pressing her buzzer
-yo yo yo
-wow, some retard" I replied laughing
-dickheaddd, come up
I opened the door walking towards the elevator, I pressed the button and waited patiently. I would rather take the stairs but the building don't have one in sight. Good luck when there's a fire.
The elevator arrived and I walked on soon arriving at her floor. Pushing the door open my eyes caught an amazing view. I shut the door behind me walking towards the big glass windows, I could see over buildings watching cars drive past on the high roads. This must look beautiful at night.
Her-welcome to my palace" I laughed turning around
Me-one word, boomting" we both giggled before hugging
Her-it's been a long long time
Me-tell me about it
Her- well get comfortable, I have friends coming over
Me-who?
Her-these boys, we've been tight for a while so I invited them over to meet you" I nodded taking off my shoes and jacket putting them on the side
Me-there's a piano in the corner why?
Her-takes up space" i shook my head walking into the kitchen which was sort of connected to the huge front room. Basically soon as you walk in its technically the front room and in the corner there is a big viewable kitchen.
Me-your dad must be loaded
Her-just like yours" I rolled my eyes not bothered to tell her that my real dad is not a mega rich Congolese man who lives in congo with his 3 wives and many other children.
Her-so what was that un juicy piece of information then" she asked sitting on her couch, I sat on the other shrugging as I crossed my legs.
Her-so your not going to tell me?
Me-Me and Regan aren't together anymore" he eyes widened
Her-seriously???"I nodded
Her-I thought you two would never break up" I shrugged again
Her-wow. What happened babes?
Me-well basically like a dick I bought him a ticket to Trinidad to get away from this life style but he didn't say goodbye." She nodded slowly trying to catch on to what I was saying
Me-he used me and then left me Maya
Her-Dickhead. Literally I would hug you and tell you it's okay but it was about time. He was going to fuck you over one day, really don't use this time to sulk. Fuck him, this is your time to finally be you and do what you want to do" I nodded in agreement. She was right, this is my time to be a teenager and have fun
Her-he had so much control over you it was amazing. I'm glad your finally free, you get to be the Azeria I used to love man, now you can flirt with anyone you like" she grinned. The phone for her door buzzed, she got up pushing a button before opened her door and sitting back down
Her-Regan was a balls sucker. He lived for the bullshit really. Without it all, he's nothing. I hope he's suffering now that he no longer is on the run. He's gonna be bored as a mother fucker
Me-true" two boys walked in shutting the door behind them
Her-and to be honest I never liked him
Me-No!? Really?" I replied sarcastically
Her-really Ria, he's the biggest douche ever, I just wish you'd seen that then" I shrugged
Me-what's done is done
Her-true, that means it's not time to move on and live in the moment instead of having to worry about shit that has nothing to do with you. No more nigga's kicking my fucking door down for that idiot." I laughed.
Her-Anyways babes this is Zakari and Vincent but call him Vinnie cause I call him Vinnie" I laughed looking at him for his approval, he shrugged sitting down
Her-and you two this is Azeria but she prefers Ria"
Them two-kl" I smiled
They were both brown and had shape ups but Zakari had light brown eyes and a slightly broader nose that Vincent
Her-Vinnie set me up
Him-you got money today?
Maya- actually for the first time in weeks yes, I want £50 worth
Him-ight" I looked at them completely confused
Vincent-Zak I beg you sit over there and let my set it up" he moved sitting on the same couch as me. Set what up? It sounded like drugs but nah that's not like Maya
He sat next to Maya taking a bag of white powder out of his pocket, I stared at the packet in disbelief, she wouldn't?
Zakari-Your friend looks scared b
Maya-oh shit, you don't mind do you?
Me-ur-urm no" I replied with an assuring smile.
Vincent-im guessing you don't deal with this shit" I shook my head, he smiled pouring it on the glass coffee table.
Him-good
Her-do you wanna try some?
Me-no thanks
Her-you sure?" I nodded
Her-not even tempted a little bit
Me-nah im good.
Zakari-why you so sane Maya
Her-had an injection all ready
Him-so why you sniffin?
Her-because I feel like it" he nodded lighting a spliff. Okay wow.
Him-you want some b?" I turned shaking my head
Vincent-she's a lil good girl init
Her-she's fooling you don't worry" I lightly laughed
Her-she's the fucking queen of the streets, can handle any man. She's my hero" I laughed
Me-don't take the piss
Her-alright more like my Don.
Zakari-is that true?" he asked blowing out smoke
Maya-babes, she's been drapped up by nearly every man, and still tried pushing her luck. Swear down she's beaten death" I looked at her, what is she talking about
Vincent-your high man shut up
Her-whatever
The cocaine had been put into a long line and separated into different sections
Vincent-I'll give you half price if you give me half, I have to sell the other 3 bags to some prick
Her-alright, im in a good mood." She quickly sniffed a section before rubbing her nose and sipping some of his KA
Zakai-so what ends you from b
Me-North
Him-oh them soggy ends" I rolled my eyes
Vincent-that's that dickeads ends
Zakari-oh kl kl
Maya-you know she's his girl, well used to be
Vincent-swear? She's Regan's chick?" she nodded
Zakari-rahted, I've heard stories about you" I looked at them confused
Vincent-ratings still. Heard mandem find it hard to even catch you blud
Her-like I said, she runs the streets" Zakari nodded as if he was impressed.
It had been around 5 hours Vincent just returned from selling some cocaine and sat down on the single chair
Maya-my high is going I can feel myself getting agitated
Him-I just robbed a couple bags of some dickhead who tried stabbing me but I might jut sell it" you could tell that he was trying to be a "badman" he looked like his mum still has him on lock.
Maya-allow it, sharing is caring
Him-nah, it's business b
Maya-please
Zakari-just use one bag split it into four we all have a section each
Me-oh no it's okay
Zak-live a little
Me-it's okay
Vinnie-what are you scared
Me-no, it's just...
Maya-what?
Vinnie-there's nothing to be scared of b
Me-it's...
Zak-plus, it's only one section, you can't get addicted from that one little piece
Maya-Zak don't lie to her
Zak-ite, you can but theres like a 95% chance that it won't happen to you
Vinnie-why you making up some dumb fact, look it's just one time
They all stared at me waiting for what I was going to say, im not going to lie I was feeling very pressured but at the same time I was beginning to feel tempted to at least try it. I knew this could change things in my life and make it turn for the worst but like Zak said it might not happen. It's just one time right? It's not wrong to just live a little.