Jade's pov
We were walking down the street in Paris Zayn's mam was going abit crazy stopping at all the little stalls with Liam , leigh and niall , the couples were all lovey dovey , me , jes , and harry were walking together
"Ahh paris!!" Jes said as she took a deep breath
"Thinking about a certain someone jes??" Harry said looking at Liam
"Shut up harold" she said as she made her way to leigh
"Come here" harry said as he grabbed my hand and pulled me onto a path away from the rest
"Where are we going haz??" I asked him
"There's this little cafe I want you to see" he said
"Just the two of us??" I asked as I stopped and looked at him
"Yeah , just you and me" he said looking at me the moment was perfect it was just us
"Oi , harry wait for us!!" Damn it
"Are we going to the cafe??" Perrie asked and harry nodded
"Finally I'm hungry" niall said and he and Perrie took of running and all of us laughed
"Fuck!!" He whispered I just laughed and walked ahead of him
Perrie's pov
"No fair!!you cheated pez" niall yelled as I ran passed him and into the cafe
"I still won" I said flipping my hair we walked to a booth and sat down
"I think we interpreted a jarry thing" niall said as we sat down
"Well it's all part of the plan" I said and I winked at him
Everyone walked through the door Trisha was talking to the girls , zayn and Gigi were hand and hand and alex , lou , liam and harry were talking about football , everyone made their way to the booth
"Okay what's everyone having???" Liam asked as he sat down next to jes
"Food!!" Jade replied as she sat next to haz
"We want food!! we want food-"
"Ohh shut it I'm going" liam said as he got up and walked to the counter
"So girls the new album is great " Trisha said
"Aww you heard it??" I asked her
"Of course!! I really like Joan of Arc!!"
"We can't wait to perform it" leigh said
"I'm not looking forward to Bounce back" jade said rolling her eyes
"Me either" I said as I scoffed
"What's wrong with Bounce back?? It's a bop" Harry said
"Let's just say I ain't packing like jes" Jade said
"What the bloody hell are you talking about??you got a lovely bum" jes blurted out me and leigh immediately gasped and started giggling
"You better shut your mouth "jade said now burying her face in her hands which made everyone laugh harry wrapped his arm around his shoulder and pulled her to his chest Aww
After we ate me and the girls went to the restroom I saw Gigi sitting there alone and felt bad
"Gigi come with us" I said as I called her over
"Yeah , but hurry I need to wee" jesy said as she grabbed leigh and ran ahead of us
Gigi got up and made her way to me and Jade and awkward silence filled the air
"I'm going to kill jes" jade said
"Hahaha babe she wasn't lying though " I replied to her
"Ohh shut up" she said making her moon face and walking into the restroom I turned around to see Gigi standing there
"Oh are you going in??" I asked as I took a step so she could go in
"No" she replied
"Perrie about the flight-"
"Hey it's okay I'm a bit of a baby and you didn't know " I said
"You know your not what I expected "
"What you mean??"
"Well I expected you to be a bitch but your different I can see why zayn likes you" she said to me
"You mean liked me" I said
"Perrie he still likes you it's one of those things you can't change"
"Gigi he doesn't like me he likes you babe" I said
"Look I can cut the tension between you guys okay I'm not a fool and I just want to tell you that if he chooses you I'm okay with it" she said
"What???" I was baffled
"Perrie somethings are meant to be even if it takes time "
"Gigi don't think like that babe , I'm happy with Alex and zayn loves you" I said
"Pissin hell" jade yelled
"Oh here she goes" I said
"No you do not talk about me bum in front of the boys" jade said and all of us laughed
After we got back to the table me and Alex went off on our own we were walking down the street
"Perrie???"
"Yeah , babe??"
"I love you , you know that right??"
"Yeah I do I love you too" I said smiling at him but that slowly changed when I saw his expression
"Pez I'm not going to be seeing you for nearly a year I think we should take a break" he said I just started at him
"For how long??" I asked him
"A couple months so we can sort things out " he said
"Don't worry about tonight Virgil is actually here and I'm staying with him" I just nodded he gave me a kiss on my cheek and walked away
Meanwhile
Jade's pov
While pez and Alex went out for their date the rest of us made our way to the hotel , while zyan , his mam and Gigi headed to the venue
We spend the evening watching movies and having a laugh at 9:00pm
"Alright everyone get your butts to bed" jesy yelled
"Goodnight everyone " I yelled as me and harry walked to our room
"I want the left side of the bed" I said and harry nodded
"Hey you okay??" I asked him
"Yeah , I'm just tired" he said running a hand through his curls
"I'm gonna wash up" he said as he walked into the toilet
I took this opportunity and changed into a shirt I pulled out from my bag and I threw on some shorts
"You still have it huh??" He asked me as he walked out the toilet
I looked down to see that I was actually wearing his orange shirt
"Yeah , I do it's really comfy" I said smiling at him
He took his shirt of and had nothing but boxer briefs on I couldn't help but laugh at his childishness when the cold breeze hit his chest I tossed him a tank top and he grabbed a pair of shorts
"Jade??"
"Yeah "
"Can you sing me a song??" He asked as he sat on the bed
"Sure" I said as I made my way and leaned my head on his shoulder
"What song do you have in mind??" I asked looking up at him
"Secret Love Song" he replied smiling at me
"Fine" I replied
After that I don't know how but we were spooning and we dozed off
Perrie's pov
I slowly walked back to the hotel I stopped in the lobby and looked at the time it was 10:45 I slowly opened the door and I wanted to clear my mind so I walked onto the balcony , it took me a second then I was hit by smoke I can't smell it but I can feel the difference in the air
I finally looked up to see zayn , smoking a cigarette and he noticed that I was there and turned around
"I'm sorry I didn't know you were out here I'll leave you be" I said tears now blurring my vision
"Pez , no it's alright what's wrong??" He said as he put his cigarette out he knows I don't like it
"No it's nothing " I said wiping away me tears
"Pez c'mon you can't lie to me , what's wrong love??" He asked taking a step closer to me
"He said he wants to take a break " I said in between sobs
"Oh..." was all he said then he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me it seemed so familiar his cologne his arms
I pulled away and looked at him I knew I shouldn't do what I'm going to do now but
"Why'd you do it??" I asked him
"I was scared" he said looking at me
"Why??we were in love" I whispered
"I didn't know what the hate would do to you pez , it was breaking me watching you lose your head over me and my mental health and now because of me your going through the same thing I was going through " he said his voice breaking
"Zayn you were my fiance I didn't care about the hate I only cared about you and your health problems are mine...were mine" I said looking away
"And it's not entirely your fault for my anxiety I mean I do get panic attacks and all I can think about is someone going to break my heart by a text...and i hate that I hate that even after all this time I still think about you....every fuckin time I get a attack I reach for my phone to see who's gonna walk out of my life this time" I said tears falling down
"Pez I'm so sorry for that per-
"Why a text?? Four years zayn four fuckin years we were together two of those we were engaged why no-"
"I couldn't face you , I couldn't see you like this Perrie I hate seeing you like this and I knew if I did it while looking at you I would break" he said wiping away tears
I didn't say anything I just looked away
"I was there...when you came to get your bag I heard you...I..-
"Don't don't say anything else no I can't with you anymore you broke my heart no you ripped it out of my chest and threw it on the floor I didn't eat I didn't talk to anyone hashtag die Perrie was treading on Twitter I tried to kill myself I finally moved on but everytime I think I'm moving on and I'm finally happy... I keep coming back to you I hate you , I hate you more than anything else I hate that I had to tell everyone that I'm good for a year I hate that you moved on in 6 months we were together four fuckin years and you moved on in six months I hate it so fuckin much" I said now wiping away the tears streaming down my cheeks
"Pez I'm sorry for all that I really am if I could..
"What?? You would what??not break up with me , or at least not by a text??" I asked my tears now falling
He didn't say anything he just wiped his tears and looked away and bit his lip
"You know what forget it!" I'm sorry I-"
"No don't be sorry I deserve for you to hate me pez I get it I really do" he said looking me
"I don't hate you I'm just not thinking straight right now I'm sorry for bagging on you" I said as I wiped my tears
"You should get some rest Perrie , your tired" he said as he walked towards me
"Yeah , I should Goodnight " I said as I walked inside tears still streaming down my face
When out of nowhere I was pulled into a room I looked up to see Louis
"Did you hear??" I asked him he just nodded and pulled me into a hug
"You can stay here if you want" he said and I nodded into his chest I lay down on the bed while lou lay down on the other side and hummed told you so
And I dozed off....
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1)I love alerrie I ship them and can't wait for Alex to pop the question
2)it's just a fanfic don't @me
3)sorry about your zerrie heart
4)stay tuned guys share and vote ❤