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🐭's thoughts____
I've hurt Y/N. I knew I shouldn't have in my mind, but I was frustrated by the fact that they wouldn't understand and I couldn't stop my words. ...Why can't she, why can't Y/N, understand how we feel.
......We love her, we love Y/N. Even though all the members have a different meaning of "love" towards her. In the end we all love Y/N.
That's why I don't like that fact that she handles everything alone. I'm frustrated by the fact she doesn't rely on us. Watching her get hurt all alone, is just unbearable for me.
「Jihoon-ah」
The resting space, a bit distant from the hospital room. I was sitting there, and Jun came walking closer to me as he smiled. He sits across from me and just stares into my eyes.
「...Wh, at」
🐯「Thanks」
「...For what」
🐯「For scolding Y/N」
「......Na, that was lame of me...... I was being protected and yet, 」
🐯「That's not true, someone had to scold Y/N... Otherwise she would have broken」
...Our cute member has a habit of taking the wrong way, until someone fixes the way.
🐯「...This might be a little inappropriate but, 」
🐯「Wasn't Chanie super amazing?」
The moment Jun said that, something in my heart fell right in spot. The face of Chanie's as he was protecting a member, a girl that he likes was different from ever. He was handsome to the point I wondered "Was he always this hot?".
「Yeah...He's grown up, 」
🐯「Yeah...」
As things started to calm down, Y/N started to look worse. Frustrating. It was just, frustrating. Sonwoo is involved, I know that but there's nothing I can do. That was what lead to this horrible incident, this afternoon.
Since this morning, the two of them seemed odd. It's our first break in a while and yet Sonwoo is staying in our dorm. We thought we were watching after him with our most attention, but it wasn't enough. As Y/N went to the bathroom he quietly left the living room, and took Y/N straight to the room. And after that,
.........I don't even want to speak of it.
After that guy got to this job he must have been watching and waiting for this moment. When Mingyu stood in the kitchen to cook, we realize that the knife is missing. Everyone in the room froze as if time had stopped, and we rush to find the room that they're in. Hani-hyung called the manager, and Wonwoo called the cops. Sonwoo, who saw us suddenly changed.
He must have thought to attack Y/N before everyone gets here. He aims the knife towards us. But after seeing Y/N telling him to stop with her full might, the look in his eyes changed.
「You can't disobey me」
「Did you forget?」
Only, 2 lines. That's it but Y/N stopped her move, and we were all confused.
Y/N bit her lip. Tightly, with power.
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Biting her lip, just that, that action,
「, WHAT THE F*CK ARE YOU DOING!!!! STOP!! DON'T HURT YOURSELF!!!!!」
Makes Sonwoo, once again, go crazy.
「What are you going to do if blood comes out? It's your face! If you're hurt I won't forgive you even if it's yourself, okay? Understand? I'm, the only person, who's allowed to hurt Noona, 」
In fear Y/N cried, and again, she bit her lip. I bet it's to earn us some time or, for us to run away or, something that doesn't make any sense. But as long as he has that knife, we're afraid that Y/N will get hurt, and we can't get any closer.
「I'm telling you to stop...... What are you trying to do?? You can't listen to what I'm saying? Ahh...............」
「 That's not pretty. I hate that look in your eyes. Stop biting, smile. You laugh and cry just for me. Hey, I know what Noona, what you don't want more than your own death, it's the danger that can be brought to your members, isn't it? Physically and mentally, right? ......... Fine, I don't hate that look in your eyes. Keep relying on me like that, and then, I'll let you feel better.」
...Even still Y/N keeps biting her lip. And Sonwoo who reached his maximum capacity, aims the knife he was aiming towards us, towards Y/N. He was distracted by us as we dashed towards him in a hurry, and he slightly lessened his tension. Y/N took distance from him during the time but what you call blindness is scary. Towards Sonwoo trying to attack Y/N again,
「..., NOONA!!!」
Chanie, blocked his way.
Change fell to the floor. At the time, Manager who was called by Jeonghanie-Hyung and Rona's mother who was here for some reason, walked into the room.
All we could do was to watch Sonwoo, who stopped doing anything more and Rona's mother being taken away by the cops.
🐯「...Let's head back, 」
Lately I haven't been able to write any songs.
SEVENTEEN doesn't even have all the members prepared.
「*Sigh, 」
But as soon as I get home, I'm going to pat Y/N on the head. She must have gone through the most fear. I can't forgive her for getting hurt after protecting us but, I can't thank her enough about this. The fact that she chose to handle it all alone is also our responsibility so, that's why, ...
「......I don't want to see her crying anymore」
Hopefully, everyone will be smiling again soon.
🐭's thoughts end____
It was afternoon of the next day, when Chanie woke up. We were supposed to have practice all day but of course we stayed in the hospital room, and as soon as he woke up I hugged him. And after all the crying comes the scolding time.
🦊「It was the right thing to protect Y/N but, that doesn't give a reason to as why you could get yourself hurt.」
Wonwoo-oppa usually never gets mad so it's even scarier when he calmly lectures.
🦊「... Did you forget that before the fact that we are men and women, we are idols?」
Chanie flinched his eyebrow after hearing his words. And after looking up to me apologetically,
🦖「... I'm sorry」
He willingly apologized.
🦍「... Guys, take better care of yourselves」
We look over to Seungcheol-oppa, and everyone becomes more relaxed.
And then,
🦍「Well, we still have a long way to go as idols but, Maknae line should get some time to talk alone」
🦖「...Is that okay?」
🦍「... You want to, don't you? 'Cause it sure seems like it」
🦖「Th, Thank you, 」
After hearing Chanie's words the Oppas and Unnie starts leaving the room. Even Jihoon-oppa who scolded me yesterday, gently patted my head and walked out.
『......, Chan-ah』
「......Noona, ......Noona, yesterday, ... Did you cry lots?」
『Wha, 』
「... You've got dark circles under your eyes and, ... Your eyes, they're red..., 」
『..., It's fine』
「......, I heard about everything, ... Noona, you were enduring it the entire time, ......... I, told you that, I'll protect you and yet, ...」
『...Well that's, 』
「It's not enough... I, ...don't want you to cry anymore, ..., or go through fear, or make you worried, ...I can't let you go through all of that...! Sorry, ...I, really, 」
🍼「Maknae~..., Chan-ah if you cry like that, what are we supposed to do?」
🐷「...Thank to your move, Y/N isn't hurt... Amd we, ...couldn't even make an action」
『...No, you guys...』
🦖「But, ..., I...,! Didn't notice..., Even though, Noona was crying everyday, ...I'm sorry...!」
『D, ...Don't cry......!!』
If the three of them cry like that, I'll also,
『Im sorry for not speaking to you guys, ...,! I was so scared...!』
🦖「I'm also sorry for not being able to protect you, ...!」
🍼「Y/N, ...I'm sorry I couldn't notice, ...」
🦖「, Noona, ...」
......All of us, were crying like crazy. Chanie hugged me, and as the other two saw they jumped on as well.
After that, until a nurse came into the room worried, the four of us kept crying.
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『To this point, I am very sorry for causing all the CARATs to worry, ...Of course, I am doing fine and Chanie has no after effects..., As we were told he only has to go through a little bit of rehab..., Please don't worry! We have a performance at the end of the month, .. Although Chanie won't be able to perform yet, all of us will be back together soon. We will promise you guys!』
On a VLIVE, with the members except Chanie, we tell the fans what's going on and what will happen afterwards. The staffs told us that it's not normal for the members to do this but, we really wanted to tell the fans ourselves so we begged them to let us.
🐶「As of this incident, for events now and on will include personal identification and baggage inspection.., I believe there will be more times everyone will have to help us out」
🐹「Our safety as well but, really...... For the safety of our CARATs and for you guys to enjoy our concerts safely, this was the best option we have.」
🦍「There will be more staffs during concerts and..., For physical interaction events things will be more strict. Since this incident I myself... am kind of in fear. I really hope nothing like this will happen again in the future」
👠「I'm sorry for causing so much trouble... I won't let everyone go through this hardship again!」
👼🏻「Yeah... SEVENTEEN is fine. CARATs, thank you for worrying」
When I look at the live on my phone, I can see the overflowing comments.
『......I'm so happy』
Of course there are hate comments. But, even more.
Even more.......See.
"I'm so glad you guys are safe!"
"I'll be waiting for your next performance"
"You guys don't have to apologize."
There are this many people cheering for us. It's warm and kind and I feel so safe. We have the fans now, not just our members. On the other side of the screen, there is many.
『...CARATs, you guys, thank you』
I'm sorry for not being able to rely on anyone back then.
I'm sorry for causing so much trouble to everyone.
But instead of saying sorry,
『......Thank you, so much, 』
I think saying thank you, will send my true feelings to everyone, so many times more than sorry.
Because that's what, I learned.
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Recording, dance practice, lyric writing, and talking about the composition of our next performance. There are many things to do. Each and everyday, we don't know about tomorrow, we just busy with working throughout the day. We can't see the goal and if we rest we'll be left behind. Even these busy days are precious and, I am only thankful to the fact that this is my "normal life".
🐷「Why do you look so sad? It soooo funny」
Seungkwanie faces his phone towards me and takes a bunch of pictures.
『I was at a good part just now...!』
🐷「But it's you're so cute, look this face. It's cute」
『Are you making fun of me?!』
🐷「I said you look cute, stop glaring at me so muchㅋㅋ」
🍼「...Seungkwanie, you're bulking Y/N too much. Come over here Y/N」
『Hansol-ah~... Seungkwanie, I can't believe you're still upset that I ate you pudding yesterday~...』
🍼「How childish. Seungkwanie be a man. I forgave her right away」
『Hansol-ah is so cool~!』
🐷「Wha...?! He's cool just because he forgave you?! You're so annoying!!」
🍼「...He just isn't chill」
🐷「HUHH?! WHAT'S WITH THAT FACE!! SERIOUSLY! NO HUGGING! NO HUGGING WHEN THAT GUY HAS A CRUSH ON YOU!」
『Seungkwanie's so loud』
🐷「...I don't care anymore. If Hansol-ah is back, I'm hugging the front」
🍼「No hugging when you have a crush on her」
🐷「Hansol-ah what's with you lately? Something going on?!」
🍼「...Is it called a feeling of crisis?」
As I was being sandwiched in between Hansol and Seungkwanie. A sound comes from the living room and when I look over,
🦖「..................Are you guys trying to get a head start while I'm not here? I'm going to accept that as a yes」
🐷🍼「「A feeling of crisis」」
...Stuck in between the two, I look down at the bag Chanie is holding.
『.........OOH!! There's pudding!』
🦖「Yea, it's pudding. Noona, you're into pudding these days aren't you? I bought lots so let's eat together」
『Of course!』
......However, there people sandwiching me inside wouldn't let me go.
『Let go, my pudding!』
🐷「Using food is unfair Maknae」
🍼「That's why I have a feeling of crisis」
🦖「......, *sigh, Do you guys want to have some too?」
「「Yes please」」
『You guys are so easy to win over』
Well the most calm one here is the Maknae after all. I always end up following these guys.
🦖「Noona you can choose first」
『Chan-ah you're the best~I love you』
🐷「......Aren't you two going too easy on Y/N just because you want her to like you? The value of your affection is going down. Anyways what about me Y/N?」
『Seungkwanie is nice to me after all so I love you too』
🐷「Hehe♡」
🦖「Hyung, you're no different from us」
『.........Oh, ...If you include the pudding in the fridge there's 15.』
🦖「Yeah. That's why...」
As Chanie was about to say something.
🦊「Maknae line together ey?」
🐯「We're here to eat pudding~」
🐭「Why do we all gather up for pudding」
The Oppas walk in one by one.
👠「My sugar restriction diet...」
Of course Unnie does too.
🦖「And so I also bought sugar free pudding」
👠「What's this child...!! Y/N choose this guy...! I'm sure of him!」
🐴「I didn't know there were this many kinds of pudding...... Did the girls choose already?」
『Yup!』
👼🏻「Well then we'll go by age order」
🦖「haha, well then Seungcheolie-hyung go ahead」
「「「『?!』」」」
Lately, Maknae has became obedient for some reason. Even Seungcheol-oppa has his eyes wide open and freezes. Up until a while ago Chanie would have been like "Do you not have the thought of letting the younger ones go first as a Hyung?"
🐸「......Chan-ah, you've changed」
......But like seriously, what Minghao-oppa just said is so true. Chanie slightly laughs.
🦖「I'm going to become a man who is "chill"」
『......』
🦊「.........」
🐶「...」
🐰「......, haha..., 」
👼🏻「...ha, ......Don't laugh Shua, it's our cute maknae's cute declaration, all right?」
🦖「Hey, don't make fun of me!」
👼🏻「Well you're so cute......Right~?」
🦖「, ......I don't care anymore! I'm going to eat this one!!」
Chanie grabbed the pudding in front of him. Wonwoo-oppa looked a little upset so I bet he wanted to eat that one. Poor guy.
🐹「Better now, Maknae should be about that selfish」
🦍「Minghao, you're not good with sweet ones, are you? Take this one」
🐸「Thank you」
🐷「I want a sweet one!」
👼🏻「I feel like having a sweet one too」
The puddings disappear from the table one by one. Seungcheol-oppa takes the last one, hands out the spoons, and we all sit in our seats as we eat. ......People would wonder why full grown adults are doing such thing but, laughing together like this, eating, talking, and making fun of each other, I feel like this is what my small happiness is. And as I was able to realize that, I think I'm really blessed.
🐭「..., The comeback we're having next month, I heard promotion's going to be short」
🐰「Yeah, it's over lapping with our concert」
🍼「Hmm...... I feel a little sad」
🐶「But but! We have a concert!!」
👠「Concert........., I have to loose weight.........」
🐸「Don't loose too much」
👠「Ugh!!! You shouldn't have the right to say that!!!」
『...Haha, let work hard』
🐷「Yeah! We have practice starting tomorrow too!」
🐴「......I better work hard......」
『We're going to move lots tomorrow so I'm going to eat today』
🐶「You're gonna gain weight」
『I said I'm going to move lots tomorrow!!』
🐶「You really eat a lot these days... I feel happy too」
『............Well, ...The food you make tastes good so, ...』
🐶「Okay, thank you」
...After being able to eat the food Oppa makes, I've gained weight. But it tastes good so it's okay.
🦍「..., let's do our best」
👼🏻「...Yea」
Seuncheol-oppa's one word is heavy, and a little dark, hope and worries and anticipation. But we still have to do our best. Until the day we can end with a smile, for an ending where everyone will applaud for us.
I am going to run, with my full might, towards the goal that can't be seen. With the members I love, and our precious CARATs, and with all the staffs that are necessary in our trip, I'm going to get to the goal.
『..., 』
🍼「...Y/N, 」
『...Hm?』
🍼「......We're all here for you, we're together, so you can lean on us, ...We're a group after all」
『..., Hansol-ah, 』
...Yeah, that's right.
It would be fun if the road we take is a flower road. ...But even if it's not a flower road, even if it's filled with thorns or it's muddy. ...No matter how the road is, with everyone, I feel like we'd be smiling. We went through so much, and even from now and on we would probably cry lots and be hurt. But still,
🦖「...Noona, why are you smiling?」
『Well~, you know?』
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We'll look forward and smile. If someone looks down, we can help each other out. That how, we grow up.
『I feel, ...so lucky,
......to have become a member of SEVENTEEN』
Believing that flowers are going to bloom on the road we walked through.
...I'm going to bloom, a smile flower.
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The end...
I'm sorry for not uploading for soooo long, I hope everyone enjoyed the story!🥰
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