✲ okay, first thing's first; i don't think sugawara would ever physically hurt the one he loved because he's naturally not a violent person
✲ fanboy really
✲ in fact, suga is really soft about trying to make you his
he does verbally fawn to daichi sometimes how he imagines you two in very cutesy scenarios e.g. baking, watching movies together and cuddling during the winter months
✲ yet that doesn't necessarily mean that he doesn't hold some obsessive value over you. in fact, that's slowly what he becomes: o b s e s s e s e d.
✲ he dreams of so many things between the two of you, and his thoughts go into the far future as well
✲ however, sugawara is not delusional. he knows these fantasies aren't real, he knows that you aren't with him-- truth to be told, suga is actually quite aware of everything. one time while basically fanboying constantly to daichi about you (despite not even having to talk to you yet); he stopped himself midway because he realized that if he kept going on and on about you in this manner, daichi and even asahi was going to catch onto his obsession.
✲ so, he watches how he speaks about you to other people. he doesn't want to be suspected..
and most importantly, he doesn't want his obsession to be torn away from him
✲ suga has been seen to study.. quite a lot, actually. so, i believe his knowledge and intelligence is very underestimated and rather, he wants to be underestimated.
✲ the more people underestimate him, the easier it'll be to outsmart people (including you). only daichi and asahi know how smart suga can be when he really wants to be; which is exactly why suga watches himself around those two.. he can't expose himself to them
✲ suga actually spends his time getting closer to you by teaching you things (whether if it be how to bake, draw, whatever..)
✲ he loves watching your eyes sparkle as you get the hang of something, gOD does it make him so soft; he just wants to hug you and kiss you and never let you go-- EVER.
✲ he'll slowly manipulate situations and scenarios to progress you into falling in love with him
✲ he's quite the charmer <33
✲ yOU'RE SPOILED! NOT EVEN BY YOUR MOM, BY HIM-!!
✲ he probably does take pictures of you and keep them, but it's nothing perverted. he saves all of that in his mind.
✲sugawara is incredibly patient.. he waits for opportunities, chances to get you alone. and if it's taking too long, hell-- he'd just have to fucking make one.
✲ i believe suga also has this weird, 'puppetmaster' side to him. he sees you as a light at the end of the tunnel, his golden ticket, his prize -- and to obtain such a valuable prize, he will occassionally use his friends at his disposal. he treats them like stepping stones at times (though, he doesn't want to), using them to bring you to him
✲ he does feel guilty for it afterwards, but he tells himself in the back of his head: ʻ it's okay.. i'm one step closer. ʼ over and over
✲ you're asking for a violent sugawara koushi?
✲ well, the only time he gets that way is if you're about to walk out on his life. because.. there's just no way he can let that happen, he just can't. you're everything he dreamed about, everything he stayed up thinking about-- and then, you have the audacity to just, leave?
✲ he's going to find some way to knock you unconscious, but you're so damn pretty and he doesn't want hurt something so beautiful
✲ so, he tries to use alternative methods: cyclopropane, ketamine, etc..
he would use chloroform, but it's so hard to obtain :((
✲ although, if he has to, he will knock you upside the head and hope for the best!
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