Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
~Philippians 4:6
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Ika-Tatlumpu't Tatlong Kabanata
WE only live once. If you are given a second chance to live, you shouldn't waste it. But when you gave three chances to live, you must be thankful to God. Like me.
When I wake up, I suddenly found myself in a pure white empty room. I roam around and suddenly a there's something flashed over the room. I just closed my eyes and in an instant, a nostalgic feeling comes all over me.
When I open my eyes, I just found myself in West Wood Academy. I walk around and I stopped when I saw in the hallway a big body-built guy talking to a girl. W-wait, that girl was familiar.
I just watch them and all of a sudden, the man becomes a pervert and he is luring that girl. I can feel nervous about her and in a snap, a guy with a blue hoodie jacket came out of nowhere. He grabbed the arm of the girl away from the pervert guy.
"Mister Cinco, according to the school handbook, Student Code and Conduct section, there's no one can scurrility and blasphemy women. Those who will be caught in the act doing this will be punished. Understand?! Now leave!" the hoodie guy shouted. The pervert guy looks afraid and abruptly he runs away.
"Salamat Mister."
"Tss. Next time wag ka basta bastang makikipagusap sa hindi mo kakilala. Not everytime there's a person that's willing to help you."
My head crumples after seeing that scene and I don't know what happened next, because lights are flashed again. And I just figure out I'm not in West Wood now.
"Mango Graham Shake! Este Nash." She shouted. It was the girl earlier!
She comes nearer to the two guys seating on the side. I cannot hear their conversation from afar. But based on their actions, I can see the two guys teasing each other in front of the girl.
I was about to go nearer to them, but the flash comes out once again. I cover my eyes with my bare hands and I hear voices all of a sudden.
"Be careful, Mango Graham Shake."
"Welcome to the Azure Tribe, Mango Graham Shake..."
"For the nth time, be careful Mango Graham Shake..."
I scream when the voices keep echoing in my mind. I put my hands on my ears, but the voices didn't stop!
"Bio means life, right?" He asked and I hear someone agree. The guy continued what he's saying, "And logos means study, right? That's where Biology comes from."
"You are my bio Xeidrine and let's study love together."
"Although I am not Ptolemy, who says the earth is centered of the universe. Much less I am not Copernicus, who says that it is sun-centered. But Xeidrine, I am Nash, who says you are the center of my universe."
"...Let just don't mind the past. Let's talk about our future."
"What about our future?" A voice of the girl asked.
"I can be your future."
After a few minutes, voices stop. I blink many times and I'm here again in the white room! But abruptly, lights come out and started blinking on the wall and it shows many scenes.
"Alam mo bang napakahirap kapag kinikimkim mo lamang ang iyong problema? Para lang 'yang utot na mas nakakabuti kung ilalabas mo."
There are two people sitting under the three of a park. The girl looks problematic and the guy keeps comforting her.
"Ask God to guide you every day. Ipagkatiwala mo lamang ang lahat ng bagay, problema at mga pinagdaraanan sa Kaniya at tingnan mo, everything will be alright. Just trust him Xeidrine."
The scene changes, but the venue were also in the park. There are many people watching them. I feel like I'm watching a movie right now.
"Nang nagpaturo ka sa akin ng Pre-Calculus dati, I know you're the one."
"In front of God, our friends, relatives and your twin... Xeidrine, can I court you?"
My headaches when the scenes stop playing. What's happening here?! My mind is a mess right now! Earlier, voices make me confused and terrible. Now, the scenes on the wall keep playing!
"Just remember Xeidrine that this bracelet symbolizes my endless love for you. And I'll wait for God's perfect time to come for us to be together."
"Mango Graham Shake, palangga ta ka, ta amo yo contingo, kaluguran da ka, hinigugma ko ikaw, aku kaimu... Tandaan mo, ikaw lang ang minamahal ko..."
The butterflies in my stomach get wild. I think after a few minutes, my heart will explode.
"Thank you Mango Graham Shake for making my woeful stare into a wonderful one, but..." he paused and sighed, "Xeidrine, don't trust this stare too much."
"W-why?"
"Because..." his voice cracked, "I can be your nightmare through my stare."
"I can be your nightmare through my stare."
"I can be your nightmare through my stare."
"I can be your nightmare through my stare."
All of a sudden, my body turns into jelly and I found myself lying on the floor. My sight spinning like a wheel and everything went black.
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I CAREFULLY open my eyes. Everything is all white again. Patay na ba ako? Iginala ko ang aking mga mata at nakita ko ang aking mga kaibigan sa isang sulok.
Napagtanto ko rin na nasa ospital ako at ang daming mga nakakabit sa akin. Wires, oxygen mask, dextrose and such.
So, what happened earlier was just a dream? Totoo pala ang sinasabi nila na biglang magpa-flashback lahat ng mga mahahalagang alaala mo kapag nasabingit ka nang kamatayan...
Tiningnan ko isa-isa ang aking mga kaibigan. Si Bal, nasa aking tabi at nakadukdok ang kaniyang ulo. Si Coast na nakasuot ng bonnet at kasama niya si Aera na nakahiga sa couch. At si Keist naman ay kumakain sa isang sulok. Inilibot ko pa ang aking paningin ngunit hindi ko nakita si Axti.
Napapikit ako nang maramdam ko ang pagkirot ng aking ulo. Napaitlag ako nang marinig ko ang sigaw ni Coast.
"OH MY GEEZ! THANKS GOD YOU'RE AWAKE XEIDRINE!"
Napaangat ng ulo si Bal nang marinig din niya ito. Bakas sa kaniya ang pagkagulat at saya nang makita ako. Dali-dali namang tumakbo ang mga kaibigan ko palapit sa akin.
"Bal! Salamat naman at nagkamalay ka na! May masakit ba sa iyo? Anong nararamdaman mo? Teka, Keist tawagin mo nga ang Doctor!" Sunod sunod niyang wika. Nataranta naman si Keist at lumabas upang tawagin siguro ang doctor.
"Naaalala mo pa ba kami? Ako 'to 'yung kambal mo na mahal na mahal ka," dugtong pa niya.
Napailing at napatawa na lang ako sa tanong niya. Hindi ko maiwasan ang matawa. He's really worried about me. I'm so touch.
"What?! Nagka-amnesia ka?! I'm Coast, your sexy friend! Alalahanin mo!" sigaw niya na para bang nakalunok ng mic.
Niyugyog naman ako ng mahina ni Aera. "Xeidrine ako 'to si Aera ang pinakamaganda mong pinsan!"
"Mga sira!" Gilalas ko at akmang tatayo sa aking pagkakahiga.
"Huwag ka munang tumayo! Baka mabinat ka. Tatlong araw kang nawalan ng malay," sabi pa ng aking pinsan.
Hindi ako nakinig sa kaniya. Pilit akong bumangon. Itutukod ko sana ang aking mga kamay upang ako'y makabangon ngunit muntik na aoing matumba. At hindi ko maramdaman ang aking kaliwang kamay.
"A-anong nangyari sa k-kamay ko?" I stuttered.
Nagtinginan silang tatlo at parang nagtuturuan kung sino ang sasagot sa aking tanong. Lumapit sa akin si Bal at hinawakan ang aking kanang kamay.
Nanggilid bigla ang aking mga luha. Pinagmasdan ko ang kaliwang bahagi ng aking katawan. Tanging maliit na piraso na lamang ng aking braso ang natira. Ni hindi ko nga ito maramdaman.
"Y-you've lost it because of the accident," Stair said.
Halos mawalan ako ng malay sa aking narinig. Pinagmasdan ko ang kaliwang bahagi ng aking braso, halos wala nang natira.
Napahiga na lamang ulit ako at unting unting bumuhos ang aking mga luha. Para along pinagbagsakan ng langit at lupa. Halu-halo ang aking nararamdaman. Paano na ako ngayon?
Lord, bakit ba nangyayari ito sa akin? Bakit kailangan kong pagdaanan ang lahat ng ito? Paano na ang pangarap kong maging arkitekto ngayong iisa na lang ang aking kamay?
Ang dami kong tanong, mayroong namumuong pagdadalmahati sa aking dibdib ngunit hindi ko magawang magalit sa Diyos.
Bakit?
Dahil sa kabila ng aksidenteng nangyari sa akin, nandito pa rin ako sa mundo. Hindi niya binawi ang buhay ko. Sa pangatlong pagkakataon ay hinayaan niya akong mabuhay muli...
"Don't cry Bal. Alam kong kakayanin mo rin ito. It is just a challenge. Lord will help you to get rid of this." Stair hugged me and my tears keeps falling.
"Oo nga Xeidrine! Tsaka nandito naman kami para sa iyo. Hindi ka namin iiwan!"
Nakiyakap sa amin sina Aera at Coast. I am so lucky to have Sixth of Ace. They are my treasures. I closed my eyes and feel the warm of their hug.
Lord, thank you for giving me a twin and friends like them. I am claiming what's Stair said. I will get rid of this challenge with your help. I know you are with me throughout this battle. I'm sorry to question yoh earlier.
Kakayanin ko ito. Hindi ako susuko. Hindi ako pinalaki ng aking mga magulang na madaling panghinaan ng loob. They raised Stair and I God-fearing, positive thinker, and brave. I know God was just testing my faith in him. I will conquer this battle. I'm a conqueror.
"Sali naman ako!" Sambit ni Keist pagkapasok niya ng kuwarto.
Lumapit siya sa amin at niyakap ulit nila ako. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na nandito sila sa aking tabi. Hindi ko alam ang aking gagawin kung wala sila. Pinapalakas ako ng aking mga kaibigan. They are my strength...
Nang kumalas sila sa pagkakayakap sa akin, tsaka ko lang napansin na nandito na pala ang Doctor na titingin sa akin. Kasama niya ang isang nurse. They smiled at me.
"Here's the doctor Xeidrine, iwan muna namin kayo."
They bid a good bye and leave the room. The doctor comes nearer to me and asked, "How are you Ms. Monteasul?"
Tiningnan ng doctor kung ano ang kalagayan ko. They do some test and ask me some questions. Pagkaraan ay umalis na rin sila at sinabihan ako ng doctor na magpahinga.
Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala sa mga kaganapan. Hindi ko alam kung paano na ako magsisimula ngayong iisa na lang ang aking kamay.
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NAGISING ako sa nang maramdaman kong mayroong humahaplos sa aking pisngi. Minulat ko ang aking mga mata at nakita ko si Bal. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog pala ako.
"Sorry I woke you up," Bal said and I just gave him a stare saying 'No, It's okay.'
Stair stood up and peel me some apple. Simula raw kasi noong nagising ako kanina ay wala pa akong kinakain.
"Where are the others?" I asked when I didn't see any shadows of my friends. Sinubuan muna ako niya ng mansanas bago sagutin.
"Umuwi na. Babalik na lang daw sila bukas."
Nagpatuloy ako sa pagkain at pinagmasdan lang ako ni Bal. Tiningnan ko siya at nababakas ang puyat sa kaniyang mukha. Marahil ay hindi siya nakatulog ng ayos noong mga nakaraang araw.
"Ang panget mo na," tukso ko sa kaniya.
"Ikaw din. It's a tie. Kambal tayo, kung panget ako, panget ka rin," bwelta niya.
Nag-asaran pa kaming dalawa. Kung kanina ay nagdadalamhati ako sa pagkawala ng aking kamay, nawala ito bigla dahil kay Bal. He really knows how to make me smile and make my problems lighter.
"You are really strong my twin. The doctor said that you are recovering. Vlog na kaagad tayo kapag gumaling na kayo ni Axti," Stair seriously said and smiled.
"N-nasaan nga pala si Axti?" I asked. Anong ibig need niyang sabihin na kapag gumaling na kaming dalawa?
"He's in the next room besides you." I was shocked on what he said.
"What happened to him?" Nag-aalalang tanong ko.
"May sakit pala ang loko hindi sinabi sa atin. Tatlong araw pagkaraan mong isugod sa ospital, sumunod na siya."
"I want to see him."
"Don't worry about him. He's fine right now. Bukas na lang natin siya bisitahin, gabi na. Magpahinga ka na."
Nawala rin ang pag-aalala ko sa aking kaibigan nanag malaman ko iyon. Si Axti talaga, laging sinasarili ang mga problema niya. He didn't tell us that he's sick! Para siyang si Nash, napakamasikreto kaya nawawala lagi ang tiwala ko sa kaniya.
Speaking of him. Wala akong naging balita sa kaniya simula nang magkamalay ako. Do my friends avoiding the topic about him? Pero anong nangyari sa kaniya simula noong muntik na siyang mabangga? I want to see him also!
"O-one more thing Bal, where's Nash? Is he okay?" I asked.
Napatingin naman si Stair sa ibaba at mukhang nabigla sa aking tanong.
"He left..." tipid niyang sagot.
"W-why?"
"When you pushed him towards the street, his head hit by a rock. You are both unconscious when we brought you both here."
I gulp many times. Kahit nailigtas ko pala siya sa pagkakasagasa ay naaksindente pa rin siya dahil sa akin...
"Tito Nike arrived with Ate Natrix here and says that they will bring Nash to Manila." He paused for a while and hold my one and only hands.
I can sense the unconsciousness on him. I saw his adam apple moves upside down and he's hesitating to say something.
"W-why they need to b-bring him to Manila?" I stuttered
"Doon na raw nila papagamot si Nash, iyon lang ang sinabi nilang dahilan..." he gets something on his bag and I saw a white envelope.
"But before leaving, Ate Natrix gave me this. Nakuha raw nila 'yan sa bulsa ni Nash. She said that I should gave you this when you woke up," he added.
I immediately get the envelope. 'MGS' is the acronym engraved on it. When I open and read the letter, my heart wants to go out on the ribcage.
I started reading it and my tears fell down one-by-one.
Mango Graham Shake,
I don't know where to start, but I just want to apologize for all damages that I've done to you.
Xeidrine, noong una kitang nakita ay puno ng kapighatian ang aking mga mata. Akala ko ay kamumuhian kita sapagkat ikaw ang dahilan kung bakit namatay ang aking matalik na kaibigan. Ngunit mali ako. Totoo ang mga sinabi ko sa iyo noon.
You've turned my woeful stare into a wonderful one. That was true. I'm just stupid that I used you to get revenge on what happened to Lace. But believe me, nagsisisi akong ginawa ko iyon.
Lahat ng pinaramdam, pinakita at pinaranas ko sa iyo ay totoo. Nawala na sa isip ko ang paghihiganti. Bawat araw na nagdaan ay wala na akong inisip kung hindi ikaw. Bawat araw ay unti-unti akong nahuhulog sa iyo.
I want to fix myself first before I faced you again. I don't know when I will be back or will I ever come back.
Remember what I've said last time? If we're truly destined for each other, God will make a way. But if someone came into your life, don't hesitate to entertain them.
Don't lose hope when you are encountering circumstances. I know you're a brave woman. You can overcome all of your problems. God is always there for you.
For the last time, Mango Graham Shake, palangga ta ka, ta amo yo contingo, kaluguran da ka, hinigugma ko ikaw, aku kaimu. Tandaan mo, ikaw lang ang minamahal ko.
Paalam...
Sincerely loving,
Nash
My tears fall down. Hindi man lamang ako nakapagpaalam sa kaniya at nasabing nagaptawad ko na siya sa kaniyang mga nagawa. After our graduation day, I lost my arm and the one that I love.
Nash, where ever you are, I just want to say that I love you and I'm sorry that I let you wait for me for more than a year. I know God will make a way for us to be together again.
This time, I'll be the one who will wait for you. Even you are my greatest nightmare...
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Somehow edited. There are still errors and incorrect words. Please bear with me.
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