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then he disappeared..
he wasn't there, my baby boy was gone.
i cried again.
after 5 minutes i started calming down more.
"noen"
i said as i looked at at them all.
"where is noen"
my dad said as i looked at him nearly about to cry again.
"i don't know"
i said as my mum and dad looked at each other.
"is he ok"
they said as i shook my head.
"ava kisses me when noen came back down from the bathroom and ran away. i didn't kiss her back i pushed her away and now i don't know where noen is"
i said my voice breaking.
"omg honey"
my mum said as my dad looked pissed.
"that bitch ava will pay"
my dad said as lily and zoe hugged me.
"did you see if he went home"
my mum said.
"yes and no one answered. he declined my calls and i don't know if he's ok"
i said starting to cry again.
"i can't lose him"
i said as they all hugged me.
i ran. i ran home as fast as i could. i opened the door as my eyes hurt and i ran upstairs trying to be quiet. i got in my room and cried. what did i do was i not good enough. did he push her away after. did he kiss her back. does he not love me. i started getting call after call as i ignored them. i declined one instantly as he stopped. i stood up looking at my wall of photos of us and cried as i heard knocks coming from downstairs. i walked downstairs quietly as i stood at the door looking through the mirrored glass window. i could see him but he couldn't see me. he looked horrible. he looked me straight in the eyes without knowing as tears streamed down my face. he looked down and ran back to his car droving away probably back home. i watched him leave
"noen"
my mum said as she turned the lounge room light on as i turned around.
"oh sweetheart what happened"
she said hugging me as i cried.
"ava kissed chase"
i said as she looked at me.
"omg"
she said hugging me tighter. i would call my mum most days and talk to her seen as i was away for a while so she basically knows about ava.
"does he not love me anymore"
i said as she rubbed my back.
"he does sweetheart but ava was just trying to get you apart"
my mum said.
"did he kiss her back or did he push her away"
she said as i looked at her.
"i don't know i ran away"
i said as she looked at me.
"it's gonna be ok. go shower and go sleep it might make it better"
she said as i nodded and walked up stairs. i showered and got into bed as i felt so lonely and cold. my other half was missing. i got back out of bed turning my lamp on as i walked into my closet grabbing one of chases hoodies putting it on. i walked back into my room as i grabbed the teddy bear he bought me and hugged it getting into be turning the lap off as tears ran down my cheeks.
"i miss you"
i whispered as i shut my eyes falling asleep.
"i can't lose him mum i just can't"
i said as they all hugged me.
"hey it's gonna be ok just give him a day ok"
my dad said as i nodded.
"i'm sorry for breaking everything"
i said looking around as they smiled.
"it's ok but don't do it again"
my mum said as i nodded.
"now it's late so let's get to bed"
my mum said as i got up and they all walked to there rooms. i walked into mine to see noens stuff every where i looked. his bag was on my floor next to mine and his new sketchbook was on my desk, his cheer outfit hanging over my desk chair, his boxers on the ground with mine from last nights shower. his vanilla perfume next to my bed, his fluffy blanket on my bed with his favourite hoodie that was mine, the polaroids all over my wall of us and him, half the closet full of his clothes, the bathroom with his toothbrush and razor, and the bed we shared. everywhere i looked was his things. i took my clothes off leaving my boxers on as i got in bed on noens side he normally slept on. i instantly smelt vanilla as i felt a tear roll down my cheek as i grabbed his fluffy blanket and hugged it.
"i miss you baby"
i whispered to myself.
"please come back"
i said as i cried myself to sleep.
*2 weeks later*
my mum knocked on my door as i groaned.
"chase you gotta get out of your bed you have school"
she said as she tried opening my door. it's been locked for the whole 2 weeks. i haven't left my room unless it was 3 am and i got hungry because i wasn't eating much.
"go away i'm not going"
i said as i hugged noens blanket close to my face smelling it.
"chase i will not tell you again"
she said getting angry.
"uhh fine now leave me alone"
i said as she sighed and walked away. i got up and walked into my bathroom as i got ready i walked into my room grabbing my bag that was next to noens. i held my tears back seen as i looked like a complete wreck. all i've been doing for 2 weeks is cry, cry and more crying in darkness of my room and my heart. i didn't want to see anyone but noen and i didn't know what to even say to him. i looked up at my curtains as i opened them slightly getting blinded. i instantly shut it again and walked over to my door. i unlocked it as i walked downstairs as my mum looked at my thin, pale and weak body.
"oh ho-"
she started as i death glared her as he face dropped seeing my face.
"fuck off"
i said as i continued walking out to my car. it was too bright outside and i honestly just wanted to go back to my room.
i woke up and got ready for school as i looked at myself in the mirror. i looked like i got beat up, my eyes were pink and purple under neath and my eyes pink from crying last night. my eyes were puffy and hurt like hell. my mum walked in as i was looking at myself.
"sweetheart"
she said as i looked at her.
"yes"
i said.
"you ready to go"
she said with a saddened look on her face.
"yea"
i said grabbing my other bag because i left my other one at chases with a lot of other things. my mum drove me to school as i saw chases car. my mum said goodbye as i got out and i walked into school with my head down. everyone was talking about me so i just went into the toilets, just like i used to. i locked the stall as i tried holding back the tears. the bell rang as i unlocked the stall and went to my locker. i put my bag away as i grabbed my books and headed to class avoiding everyone.
"noe-"
jaden said softly cutting himself off as i walked past him in the hallway. i walked into class as i sat in the back in the opposite corner to what me and chase used to sit in.
i grabbed my books from my locker as jaden walked up to me.
"chase"
he said softly. i didn't answer him and i shut my locker putting my head down so he didn't see my face.
"chase"
he said a little more strongly as he pushed my face up.
"what"
i said bluntly as his face dropped seeing my face.
"i was gonna ask how you are"
he said as i put my head back down.
"great but i gotta get to class"
i said sarcastically pushing past him. i walked into class as i saw noen with his head down. i looked at him as i breathed. i started walking over to him as i got a meter away i turned away and sat 4 seats away in the middle row.
chase walked in class as i looked up at him slighty. he started walking my way as he turned and say away from me. there was hope he was gonna come talk to me but he didn't.
"alright class eyes on the board and let's start working"
the teacher said as i looked up slightly.
"chase, noen eyes up"
he said as i lifted my head a little more.
"eyes up"
he said again as we both lifted our heads as everyone looked at us with wide eyes.
"uhh you boys stay back at the end please"
he said as i nearly started crying. i don't know why tho. he started talking as i felt tears fall down my cheeks. the bell rang and class was over. everyone got up as i did slowly and walked up to the front of the class with my hood still up and chases was too. the teacher waited for everyone to leave as he looked at us.
"are you too ok"
he said as i nodded.
"fine"
chase said.
"you both don't look good what's happened"
he said as i looked at him.
"that's private"
chase said as i looked at the teacher.
"ok well do you need to talk to someone"
the teacher said
"no"
i said quietly.
"can we leave"
chase said as i felt tears running down my cheeks. i sniffled slightly as i could feel chase looking at me.
"yes but don't go hurting yourselves"
he said as i ran out the class room past jaden as he looked at me.
"noen are you ok"
he said as i ran into the bathrooms locking a stall.
"no i'm not jaden i'm really not"
i whispered to myself. i sat it there for the whole time til the bell rang for the next 2 periods.
i walked out the classroom as jaden turned back around to me. he didn't say anything but his face said everything. i wiped the tears away from my face as jaden looked at me.
"chase please open up to me"
jaden said as i started crying again. i instantly hugged him as i cried.
"it's gonna be ok everything will be fine"
jaden said as i nodded.
"i can't lose him jaden"
i said through sniffles.
"i know you can't and you won't"
jaden said as i pulled away from the hug and wiped my tears away.
"hi boys"
ava said happily as she walked over to us.
"FUCK OFF AVA YOUVE DONE ENOUGH. YOU RUINED ONE OF THE ONLY GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE AND TOOK THE PERSON I LOVE AWAY FROM ME. SO FUCK OFF BACK TO THE WHORE HOLE YOU DESERVE TO BE IN. YOU DONT ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU WANT AVA AND IM ONE OF THOSE. I LOVE NOEN AND YOU FUCKED THAT UP TOO. THE PAST 2 WEEKS I WANTED TO KILL MYSELF ALL BECAUSE YOU TOOK THE ONE THING AWAY FROM ME THAT ACTUALLY MATTERS. GROW UP AND GET A LIFE."
i yelled at her.
"IM GAY AVA"
i yelled in her face.
"GET IT IN YOUR THICK SKULL THAT IM GAY"
i yelled.
"I LOVE HIM GET THAT IN YOUR FUCK HEAD OF A BRAIN"
chase yelled as i stood there down the hall watching it happen. ava turned as she faced me. she saw me and instantly she looked like she was gonna kill me. i ran into the toilets again as she walked down the hall away from chase and jaden. i got in the and locked the stall again as i smiled to myself slightly. at least she got what she deserved.
"where are you slut"
she said as she walked into the boys bathrooms. my face instantly dropped. i stayed silent as she tired to unlock the door.
"i just want to talk why won't you talk to me"
she said as she got the lock unlocked. i instantly put my back against the door as she tried to push it open.
"open the fucking door you ugly whore"
she yelled as tears fell down my cheeks hearing those words.
"you don't deserve chase and he doesn't deserve the price of shit you are. stop being a little attention seeking slut"
she said as she pushed the door open and looked at me.
"yea i don't think so"
i heard someone as they pushed her against the wall choking her.
"i told you what i would do to you and your family"
he said.
"never call him that again you two face lying bitch"
chase said putting her down as she looked terrified. she ran out as chase stood there back faced to me with his head down.
then the bell went...