"m̸y̸ m̸o̸t̸h̸e̸r̸ n̸a̸m̸e̸d̸ m̸e̸ a̸f̸t̸e̸r̸ a̸ g̸o̸d̸d̸e̸s̸s̸ o̸f̸ d̸e̸a̸t̸h̸... k̸n̸o̸w̸i̸n̸g̸ h̸e̸r̸, i̸'m̸ n̸o̸t̸ s̸u̸r̸e̸ i̸f̸ i̸t̸'s̸ a̸ c̸o̸m̸p̸l̸i̸m̸e̸n̸t̸, o̸r̸ a̸ w̸i̸s̸h̸."
Name: Aminon Adams
Nickname(s): Ami
Age: 18-27
Gender: Female
Sexuality: Bisexual
Pro Nouns: She/Her
Birthday: March 4
Zodiac: Pieces
"i̸ k̸n̸o̸w̸ i̸'m̸ n̸o̸t̸ p̸r̸e̸t̸t̸y̸. i̸ d̸o̸n̸'t̸ n̸e̸e̸d̸ t̸o̸ b̸e̸. i̸ d̸o̸n̸'t̸ c̸a̸r̸e̸ w̸h̸a̸t̸ p̸e̸o̸p̸l̸e̸ t̸h̸i̸n̸k̸. e̸v̸e̸r̸y̸o̸n̸e̸ i̸s̸ a̸ c̸r̸i̸t̸i̸c̸. e̸v̸e̸n̸ m̸y̸s̸e̸l̸f̸."
Appearance: Aminon is a tHiCc girl with a lighter skin tone. She's got some fluff on her. She's not obese. But she's got curves and fluff. She's pretty short. Standing at about 5'4. She has piercing, bright blue eyes. Said eyes always look harsh. Aminon's face is round, with chubby cheeks. Her eyes and mouth are framed to where she always either looks upset, or nervous. Her jawline is surprisingly defined considering everything else. Her nose is pointed, but not monsterously big. Her hair is a dark brown color. Looking black in some lighting. It's thick, and a bit wild. It goes to about her shoulders, but she usually has it on top of her head as a bun. Aminon always smells like chamomile and a bit of sweet lemon. She likes to smell like how you would imagine sleep smells. Calm. Quite.
Clothing: Aminon likes to wear quiet, and concealing clothing. Something with dark sad colors. Like dark greys and blacked. But sometimes she'll wear something with a pop of color. For example, she'd wear some tight black pants, beat up converse, a baby blue t-shirt and a dark grey cardigan to cover up. Or a plain black t-shirt with leggings and a ling, patterned over jacket.
Accessories: this is where she really expresses herself. Feather ear rings. Necklaces with astrological pendants. Rings. Bracelets. Pins. You name it. She also has to wear glasses or contacts. Her glasses are big, round lenses with a black rim.
Scars/Tattoos/Birthmarks: Aminon has a large, deep scar from the back of her neck down to her tailbone.
"i̸'m̸ d̸i̸f̸f̸e̸r̸e̸n̸t̸ t̸h̸a̸n̸ m̸o̸s̸t̸ p̸e̸o̸p̸l̸e̸... b̸u̸t̸ i̸ t̸h̸i̸n̸k̸ t̸h̸a̸t̸ m̸a̸k̸e̸s̸ m̸e̸ s̸p̸e̸c̸i̸a̸l̸. i̸t̸ m̸a̸k̸e̸s̸ m̸e̸ w̸h̸o̸ i̸ a̸m̸."
Personality: Aminon is self aware, sensitive and reserved. Emotionally honest, creative and personal. But she is also moody and self conscious. Withholding herself from others due to feelings of vulnerability and defectiveness. Making herself very independent. She has that "nobody understands me" emo teen mind set. In some ways, Aminon can be a pick me. Desperate to be different, and have a strong sense of individuality. She has problems with melancholy, indulgence and self pity. Her head is often in the clouds. She's a dreamer. She also is pretty emotionally manipulative. She is always longing for something that she doesn't have. No matter how happy she is. That dream job. A savior of a partner. An escape from her current situation. This can cause her to fantasize about the future and the past. Dissociating from the present. She's very reflective and honest with her emotions. Being deeply connected to herself. This makes her antisocial. But it also helps her relate with others on a deep level. At her best, creative and able to renew herself and her experiences. At her worst, needy, selfish and self destructive.
Possible Best Future Self: Aminon has the opportunity to become much healthier. Retaining her creativity, emotional connection and unique view of the world. But she is able to accept herself and others love. Becoming less selfish, and much more empathetic. Her desperation dissipating. Becoming a creative genius. And a great person to know. She will always have problems with insecurity and antisocial fits, but she becomes more mature about it all.
Possible Worst Future Self: Aminon has the ability to become completely closed off from the world. Losing herself to her insecurities and self hatred. Feeling stranded in a sea of people who will never understand her. Feeling useless and like there is nothing she could add to this world. Lashing out at everyone. Extremely selfish and self serving. Becoming increasingly depressed until there is only one thing left for her to do. Die.
Strengths/Best Qualities: Creative. Kind. Reflective. Emotionally intact and honest. Empathic. Insightful. Independent.
Weaknesses/Worst Qualities: overly emotional. Depressed. Feeling different and rejected. Moody. Selfish. Too in the clouds. Needy. Unsatisfiable.
Likes: late nights. Stars. The moon. Poetry. Drawing. Guitar. Sad, dark aesthetic music. Paintings. Dark, dramatic colors. Expressing herself. Being understood. Quiet, alone time. Oceans and rivers.
Dislikes: bright, attention Whore colors. Overly hot days. Large crowds. Being yelled at or talked to harshly. Being social for too long. Self inflated people. Being shamed.
Hobbies/Skills: Aminon is a skilled artist. Great at painting, and drawing. She also enjoys writing poetry here and there. She can also play guitar. She likes to watch indie films. Read horror books.
Habits: Aminon cracks her knuckles when nervous.
Fears: fear of having no personal identity.
"m̸o̸t̸h̸e̸r̸ i̸g̸n̸o̸r̸e̸d̸ m̸e̸. p̸e̸r̸h̸a̸p̸s̸ t̸h̸a̸t̸'s̸ a̸ g̸o̸o̸d̸ t̸h̸i̸n̸g̸. p̸e̸r̸h̸a̸p̸s̸ i̸ s̸h̸o̸u̸l̸d̸ b̸e̸ t̸h̸a̸n̸k̸f̸u̸l̸. b̸u̸t̸ i̸ h̸a̸t̸e̸ h̸e̸r̸. s̸o̸ m̸u̸c̸h̸."
Usual Backstory: Aminon looked like her father. That was why her mother hated her. She thought. One night, when she was around five, she wasn't sure why, her father just left. Abandoning her. Mother was never kind again after that. Growing up, Aminon was ignored by her mother. Barely spoken too unless she was in trouble. Never gotten anything. Never taken care of. She was alone. All while her sister got all the attention. Her sister might have had a hard relationship with mom, but at least it was a relationship. When she was old enough, she left her family in a heartbeat. Mother didn't care one bit. Epione did. Aminon hated to be this way, but she didn't have it in her heart to care. She immediately started chasing her dreams of being an artist. Working hard on her creations. Taking them to art shows. Writing and hoping something will be good enough. So far, she's just barely making it by. Living alone in a small apartment. Dreaming of when someone's going to see her talent. And things will finally change.
"i̸'m̸ b̸i̸t̸t̸e̸r̸. i̸ w̸i̸s̸h̸ i̸ w̸a̸s̸n̸'t̸. b̸u̸t̸ i̸ a̸m̸. i̸'m̸ n̸o̸t̸ i̸n̸ a̸ p̸l̸a̸c̸e̸ w̸h̸e̸r̸e̸ i̸ c̸a̸n̸ c̸h̸a̸n̸g̸e̸. i̸ j̸u̸s̸t̸ n̸e̸e̸d̸ t̸o̸ k̸e̸e̸p̸ l̸i̸v̸i̸n̸g̸ m̸y̸ l̸i̸f̸e̸. i̸ j̸u̸s̸t̸ h̸o̸p̸e̸ i̸ g̸e̸t̸ o̸u̸t̸ s̸o̸o̸n̸."
Faceclaim: Ann Kuleshova
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