Lately, I've been getting a lot more aggravated at people lately. People who just complain, and do nothing, like what do you expect when you are just sitting around letting yourself rot away, and not trying to better your life, the first step of trying is easy, the second step of going through with it is hard. Only the people who are willing to try their hardest to get better ever become happy again.
I also lately have been wanting the attention of the OG wattpad/Discord squad a lot more, and It kinda sucks because I don't get their attention, especially Yujin noona, but its whatever, I usually don't care about people attention, and shit so i'm very confused and surprised that I really want there attention. They live so far from me, are closer to each other than I am to them. I honestly feel like an outcast out of there circle, that I'm not allowed to join in anymore because I've been kicked or something. And it makes me feel like shit, I feel unwanted in that group, but I shouldn't feel this feeling of not being wanted because, usually I could give a shit, and its really pissing me off that I do give a shit right now. I have this bad problem with being the "favorite", with my friends, but I don't think these guys consider me their friend, or at least a few of them maybe I don't know, and I shouldn't care. Imma just spend my time fixing my attitude going back to my. "If it doesn't bother me its not my problem", type of mindset.
Lately I don't know what to write about because I'm happy and fine, I just get tilted a bit easier than usual, and the feeling of not being wanted is back, but it will probably go away sooner or later so it's whatever.