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Spencer's POV
* At a small restaurant *
I have just finished my last class of the day and decided to get some food for me and Toby. It'll save us having to get some afterwards and we do have a microwave in our dorm so we can just heat it up whenever.
That's one of the things I love about Upenn. There are so many shops, restaurants and cafes around the area so there is never really nothing to do. It makes it so much easier for students to get meals and not have to travel far. Especially those who stay on campus like me.
Whilst waiting for my food, I decide to call Adam since I haven't spoken to him all day. He has messaged me a couple of times but I was in class so I couldn't reply. To be completely honest I don't want to tell him about the party but I feel obligated to.
"Hey how was your day?" Adam asks after answering the call.
"Yeah good thank you" I say smiling into the phone.
I know this is so cliche but I literally can never stop smiling whenever I hear his voice. He brings out the best of me. My life wouldn't be the same without him in it. And I shouldn't have to imagine myself without him being at my side.
I have suffered with depression and anxiety almost all my life. Being put under the pressure of having to be perfect for my parents was putting insane pressure on my shoulders. But with Adam I feel like a whole different person.
Not to mention I feel like the world stops whenever I'm around him. It's like no one else matters but me and him. He's the first guy I have dated that I can actually imagine a future with.
Just then I stop for a moment. There's no way. It's too soon. It can't be. I'm falling in love with the boy.
His voice brings me back into reality.
"That's good. I miss you" he says into the phone.
"I miss you too" I reply. "Adam I was wondering, how do you feel about going to a pool party this Saturday?".
"Sure. I wouldn't miss a chance to see you in a bikini" he states and I feel my cheeks heating up.
At first Adam seems like a shy and enclosed boy but he's not like that with me. We both are the best versions of ourselves around each other. I can speak to him about anything and he's comfortable doing the same.
A thought strikes me at that moment. I completely forgot I'd have to wear a bikini in front of a bunch of strangers. The fact that freaks me out is that most of them are just horny college students. This is going to go great I think to myself sarcastically.
I have never once in my life been confident about my body. As a youngster I was called anorexic and skinny and since then those are the only words that come to mind when I look into the mirror. Those words have been pierced into my skin and I can't remove them no matter how hard I try.
I don't have perfect curves like every other girl. I don't have an hourglass body or gorgeous tanned skin. No wonder my parents think so little of me. I'm ugly and a disappointment to them and everyone around me.
"Okay I'll message you the details" I say before telling him I have to go now.
By then me and Toby's food is ready and I begin making my way to the dorm.
* At the dorm *
After a long walk I finally make it to the dorm. I assume Toby is already inside so I don't waste my time in getting my keys out. I knock a few times and he opens the door.
"Hey" I say trying to walk inside but Toby stops me.
"I have a surprise for you" he states with his signature smirk plastered across his face.
Surprise? I was not expecting this at all but I am a sucker for surprises. Just the feeling that someone knows a certain item you would like makes you feel a connection to them. And it shows that they actually know you.
He takes the bag of food I am holding and places it on the dresser. Afterwards he steps forward, closes the door behind me and places his hands over my eyes.
I assume he's leading me further into the bedroom and then he instructs me to sit down on the bed. I'm quite shocked I didn't fall to the ground but I do so anyways.
"Okay, now open your eyes" he says enthusiastically whilst removing his hands from my face.
I open my eyes and feel the urge to faint. He didn't.
"YOU GOT US A TV!" I shout running to him and wrapping my arms around his neck.
He returns the hug by wrapping his arms around my waist and smiling into my hair. I don't realise till now how much of a height difference we have. Toby is like a giant compared to me. But nonetheless a sweet one.
"I don't understand. I thought students weren't aloud to put anything up on the walls, let alone a TV" I added.
The university had a strict policy of dorm rooms being kept in a similar layout as to when you first get it. You also are not aloud any posters e.t.c on the walls.
"I was able to pull a few strings" he says shrugging his shoulders. "No need for us to watch on my tiny laptop anymore".
"This is way too much Toby" I confess. "How did you manage to get this?".
The TV isn't even like a regular one. It's a proper good quality flatscreen TV. Like the ones you see on adverts but never think to buy because they are so expensive. On top of that Toby doesn't have a job or anything that I know of so where does he get the money?
"Don't worry about that Spencer. What matters is that you like it" he says sweetly and I smile.
This is really too much though but knowing Toby he's not going to take it back. That's the thing about him. He's just too kind. Even under that layer of stubbornness there is a truly amazing guy.
There is a part of me that's worried though. If he doesn't have a job then there's only really one other place I know if that he's getting the money. From his gang.
I can only hope he's not getting it by selling drugs or anything. I know that sounds really stereotypical but it's the first option that comes to mind.
I am aware that it's his own choice whether or not he wants to be a part of that but that doesn't mean I'm okay with it. It's dangerous and he could get himself in a lot of trouble. I may not know a lot about that type of stuff but I do know that nothing good ever comes from it.
Although knowing Toby I know he's not going to give me answers just yet. He's very closed in that way. Even though I want to just ask I can't. He's just done something extremely nice for me so I don't want to ruin the moment by interrogating him.
"So what are we waiting for? Let's get eating and watch some movies!" I say and he lets out a laugh.
I grab the food and pass him his meal and place mine on my bed. We begin watching a random action movie that Toby pocked because I forced him to watch The Notebook last time.
I look over at him and spot him staring at me and blush. Why the hell am I blushing? He simply smiles and turns back to the TV.
I can't help but wonder if things were different with Toby. If his perspective on relationships was different would I still be with Adam or Toby instead. But I know for a fact I'm never going to know the answer. Because that's just Tobias Cavanaugh.
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Hey guys here's the chapter I know you have been waiting for 🤍
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I had finished writing the chapter but my stupid self didn't save it so I had to rewrite the whole thing again which was frustrating 🤍
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