Atmosphere is so pleasant because of heavy rain at night. Sky is slight light whitish blue which is hiding a mixture of orange and yellow color Sun. Seeing the beauty of nature bird are singing in their own way where leaves are dancing with wind to the tune of birds.
The cool air touches the skin of sid which makes him groan in pleasure but his head is brusting like a volcano with heavy thoughts of siya. He can't see her tears it make him feel like he failed as a person but he don't know anything about her. He want to be a healer. He want to hide from eyes which hurt her. He want to see her smile always and he want to be the reason for her smile..
Little did he don't know that one day he will be reason for her tears.
He woke up sitting on bed putting his hands on either side of head not knowing what to do. He feels like someone is beating on head with rod now siya became a mystery to him he feels like he is finding a stone in sea.
Hearing some murmuring which is irking him more and looked towards the direction of it.
Seeing his sister he release his breath to calm his nerves and called her
Ha bhai good morning. You wake up so early.
Anu asked
"I didn't idiot it's you why you are murmuring like that", sid asked with irritation
"Sorry bhai I cursing one stupid mad pumpkin bhai", anu said still placing books in bag with sullen face
Sid see her like she groan two heads
"Why are you disturbing everyone's sleep early in the morning", aahil asked with smirk.. sid groaned as he press his head slightly with his fingers
All the family members of sid know that he will get up too early and goes to workout and pratice but aahil knows he sleep for long time when he drunk at night.
"What happen bhai. Why you are so grumpy", anu came near sid and asked
"Nothing just headache aahil bhai will drop you at the college", sid said typing in the phone
Aahil looking at him suspicious
"Bhai I'm going to flat today may be I won't come tonight", sid said without looking at him making aahil thoughts strong
"Sid bhai apply some oil you will feel good and do head bath",anu said while walking to take oil.
Sid without saying anything he left to washroom.. seeing him anu frowned..and dwell with tears. Anu felt she is the reason for sid mood. Aahil consoled anu and said go and get ready will go to college with that anu left and aahil is waiting for sid in his room.
Aahil understood that he didn't drunk but something happened that he is not in good mood. Aahil can tolerate anything but not sid or anu grumpy sullen mood. He is waiting in his room eagerly to know what happen to him.
Sid is standing under the hot shower making his nerves calm. He is remembering every word of her.
People think I'm stubborn but I'm not because if you say me in proper way i might have listen to you but you people never tried and simple say I'm angry bird. Do I really like that. Can't I understand anything..
From born I'm too possessive about my things or people.. Simple about what is mine but people around me think I'm stubborn that is the reason they say people cry who stay with me..is that true ..is I'm really like that..
I always crave for love there attention because I think they are mine..but they didn't may be they did but I didn't recognise it .I'm a girl who is a kid. I'm not matured enough to think what is right and wrong and now even I can but I can't because my mind is filled without love..
When my brother born I didn't give him a chance because I feel its my place but I accepted him when I understand but why can't they get that..
He born too weak that he need a incubator to live so mom attention was alot towards him where as dad he never paid any attention to anyone..then can't I seek some attention from my mom who gives full attention towards me until my brother born..
Can't I get angry on them..later I thought all well then mom was with dad as he is not well and busy in treating him..so can't I deserve some love and attention from my parents..
why people say me stubborn.. ??
Why they said who stays with me will cry..??
Why people say I'm unlucky..??
Do I really unlucky girl..??
Don't I have any right to gain their attention..??
Don't I have any right to feel like all people who are enjoying with their family..??
Do I'm an orphan..??
Do I really deserve this life..??
I won't say she is bad mother..I won't accept that.. because she is not..
To be frank she to don't know anything to say or to care because she lost her parents at her childhood to guide her or someone to say something to her..
She don't know how her mother look likes..
When she starts her bonding with dad.. she lost her dad too..
She has her siblings so they married her at very young age to be open after two years of first menstruation.. may be around 13 or 14 age..
She don't know anything to handle me at the same age because I was so eager to come so I born after one year of their marriage..
May be she tried but I failed to understand her words or feelings..
When I was small only I started moving away from them through heart..
May be I didn't like the way they treat my brother or the way they choose him over me..
It's all happen when I'm small at that time I don't know anything but it had effect on my heart or on my mind don't know..
When I came to know or understand also..I'm not ready to accept it..may be I'm really a stubborn girl..
May be my heart feels pain or broken at some point seeing others of my friends who loves them alot and care them alot..
She did everything but I don't remember anything other than pain which my heart felts..
I don't know who are at fault may be I or my...........
May be am I UNLUCKY GIRL..??
Who brought up with alone but have everyone in life..
I don't remember when mom braid my hair while going school infact I have baby cutting still 7th class..
I won't say she didn't braid my hair.. because she did infact all various styles she knows.. even she braid my hair with bangles..it was one of my best moment with my mom..but it all happen when she is free when she think she can spare some time with me..
Am I unlucky girl to find difficulty to have some spare of time with their daughter..
Outside aahil called vivek to know about sid what happen suddenly that he looked to disturbed..
"I too don't know bhai..I'm also coming to your home only.. he is not lifting my call bhai I came to know that he said to one of our classmate to submit the assignment and I came to know about it when he called about my assignment bhai", vivek said
"Ohh..okay", aahil with sullen face as he is not understanding for his sudden change in behaviour and waiting for sid..
It's been half an hour he didn't came out and vivek also came and they waited for another ten minutes.
"Sid" aahil called but sid didn't reply and where tap is continuously flowing.
Both got worried and knock the washroom door but still there is no reply from him. They decided to break the door as they were so tensed..
Suddenly sid heard some banging door sound breaking his thoughts..
He quickly opened by wrapping a towel around his waist and asked what happen why you banging the door he shouted at them.
They both look stunned by his voice and eyes..it was all red as if he cried or holding tears for long time..
Aahil went near him and hugged him and said "you were inside since 45min and we called you and knock the door but you didn't reply so we try break the door as you didn't gave any reply" saying he didn't break his hug
But sid hugged back tightly after sometime as if he scared to loose someone in his life..
He don't know what happening to him. He want some pleasant time to calm his nerves and racing heart.
Aahil didn't said anything as he knows sid won't open up anything now and he disturbed alot with something or with someone and he don't want to leave him alone at any cost as he scared. So he gesture to vivek don't leave him not even for second.. vivek understood what aahil is saying and nodded and hugged sid..
Sid is getting ready where Anu entered his room but scared to talk with sid it was the first time that he neglected her and went and now he look likes a dangerous.
Can we go to college I'm getting late she said to no one in particular as she understand some tension in air.
They had their breakfast and three went to drop anu at college but no one said anything.
Sid is seeing outside where Siya is coming with smile but her face is swollen and her eyes has some pain but smile is playing on her lips. Sid observed siya closely as if he is reading her mind..
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