My lips were so swollen and I was running out of breathe but I simply didn't care, I was wishing for this for too long. I was wishing to see his true self, to see that boy, the real one. No that jerk he afirmed to be. I was wishing for to long to feel those thin lips that melted me at the touch.
Ross kept me on his tight grip, while I tugged my hands on his hair. His shirtless six pack, that I couldn't help but think of felt intoxicating in contact with my bare skin. I wanted this to last. When I brought myself to pulled away from the kiss I just wanted to go back. Soon I opened my eyes slowly then stared at those eyes.
He pulled the hair out of my face so carefully that it was almost as he was afraid. Afraid to hurt me with his touch. "I-I well uh....Laur--" Ross says but gets cut off.
"Pizza is here" we here the voice of Ellington from far away and we quickly pull apart. Soon everyone is running inside. Ross then takes that opportunity and makes a run to the stairs and then upstairs while I'm left is shock of what just happen.
"Laura come on......" Raini says smiling.
"C-coming," I stutter looking still at the stairs that Ross climbed through.
When I come back to my senses I walk back to the group.
~End of the Flashback~
I can't believe I kissed him. He begged for it, but he didn't really need to. I would've done it anyways. He was just so hungrily vulnerable. His voice sounded so vulnerable. I've never thought he would show that side of him to me. I didn't really understood why. He asked me if I liked Rocky. Was he jealous?
I just don't understand him, one moment he is teasing me and messing around, other he is being this vulnerable sad person who just needs to feel me. And the other he is ignoring me.
Yep... Since that kiss Ross disappeared to upstairs and next day in set ignored me. Completely. I try and speak to him, but he won't. And when I'm distracted rehearsing or something I catch him staring at me. And it's been two weeks since that. I mean I haven't even told anyone about it.
"OKAY! Guys let's just shoot this last scene Laura and Ross to your positions is just that last part about the song, c'mon!" Heath took me out of my thoughts. I went back To the seat in the piano and Ross joined me. I smiled up to him and he just stared at the keyboards. Now, he is annoying me.... "And in 3, 2, 1 and action..."
"So do you like the song?" 'Ally' asked.
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"And cut. Well done you guys! Ross, try and be more energetic ok?"
"Gonna try." he said out loud.
"I think you did well." I reassure him but he doesn't even look. "So you gonna talk to me?"
And that is when he walks down to the halls. I follow him trying to keep up his pace.
"So you just gonna do this forever c'mon Ross, why won't you talk to me?" he keeps walking down the hall. "So you don't have any remark to do about how that bikini suited me? You haven't done a remark about that..." and I swear almost saw him crept in a smile.
We turn down the hall and he still haven't spoke up. "You're not even going to whisper something teasing in my hear? Seriously, c'mon..... No I would love to see you in that little dress over there. aren't you gonna say thanks? Yeah, yeah you find me very attractive...." I said mimicking him and his voice.
"Just damn it, talk to me just say something..." I look up to him. When I notice we are right in front of his dressing room. He looks at me like he is saying something and enters in the room closing the door in his front.
Without a idea what to do, I open the door and get in to find Ross sit in the couch with his palms in his face supporting his elbows on his knees.
"C'mon, just tell me, why are you ignoring me and I'll leave. Ok?" I ask once again walking to the couch to sit next to him.
"Laura, just get out........" he said with a rather pleading voice not taking his face of his hands.
"And he spoke......" I smiled. "Just please tell me."
"Damn, you're just pretending IT didn't happend." he said frustrated and got up.
"What? You mean, you mean the kiss?" I say innocently. He laughs emotionlessly and stands still. "I'm sorry. I just I though we should talk about it I just didn't know when to."
"Yeah, right..."
"Ross, it was just a kiss, tha....."
"You're right. It was just a meaningless kiss."
"No, that was not what I was saying, I..."
"It was a meaningless kiss though." he blurt out carelessly.
"Do you really think that way?"
"I mean, don't you?" he was still without a care but this answer almost seemed like it contained hope. "I just thought it would be fun to make out with you, but it was clearly a bad idea. That was just entertaining. Laura let me say, you are hot, and in that bikini? Oh you were testing me, so yeah, I kissed you I embraced you're bare skin. But it was meaningless. As I said it was just utter and pure fun, nothing more."
"You don't mean that." I said
"Oh, princess, innocent little stupid princess........ You really thought that it meant something else...... You really did, didn't you? I'm sorry." he said in amusement.
"You know, I always knew you were like this. I always knew you were just a damn jerk who wanted to play with me, mess with my head. But I just looked at you in that moment and I heard your voice and I didn't saw that, and I just........ I saw a vulnerable boy who just needed to know he could feel me even for just one moment. I just I thought you were that person for a brief seconds. I guess I thought wrong." he didn't even care to answer me he just smirk ever so effortlessly and sit again while I backed away from him to the door. "I mean what is the fun in this Ross? Do you enjoy the pain of others? You're just a darn maniac." I yelled, sobs coming out, tears streaming down.
He didn't even care to answer. He just stayed that looking at me with his perfect face but as soon as I turned to get out he spoke again.
"It was awfully paining to see you in such a state. You think what? You think I'm vulnerable and I needed to feel you, oh that is priceless." and he got up and scooting closer and closer to me while I leaned back in the door. I just can't believe this. Even closer to me he got a strand of my hair and start to play with it. I didn't even flinch to the movement. "I mean, I'm not gonna say I didn't like it." he started and and I pulled his hand away which only led him to hold mine instead. "I mean you're just with that tight bikini, you're skin was a little humid and so soft. You're hair wasn't dry yet. You're mouth........ You are a good kisser......." for moments what he said had kind of a passion in it. I just don't...
"Just, why do you want to hurt me?" I looked down.
"Oh, I don't intent to make you feel anything really." he smirked. "Well, I do wanna make you feel pleasure. Did you like to have your lips all swollen by me?" and with that his fingertips touched my lips. I gasped at his sudden touch.
"I-ah-I ...and- uh... It.... It was.... Good I guess." I stutter my words inevitably.
"Oh, Princess, now you're testing me again....." he whispered.
He looked in my eyes with that beyond compare look of his. His eyes were just sparkling to mine. At this point, he made what he wanted with me. He could kiss me, he could....... Well, let's not think of what he could else do.
He simply just hypnotized me. He intoxicated me into what he wanted me to do. I was his at that point. I could not help it.
He brought his face closer to mine. Inches away barely. I just followed him at this point. I tried, I swear, I tried to keep my ground. I couldn't.
"I hate you." and that's all I could pronounce before he place his lips in mine. I closed my eyes to the contact and brought my hands to his muscular chest.
Laura, just wake up.....don't let him do this to you...... I haven't even kissed back yet. So with all the strength I had left I pushed him away. He was way stronger than me and wasn't giving up. He kept me tight, until I finally gave him movement to connect with.
I liked him, but I knew I could keep my ground and not fall harder. This jerk wasn't getting exactly what he wanted. He says it's not fun to tease the teaser. What would he say about play the player?
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Question: What's up with Ross?
Hey, guys. I know it's short but I think I'm going to start doing short chapters but update ore often. So how are you liking the story?
Players and vulnerability(bye)