The Art of Starting Over

By AliasTummas1

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Have you ever sunk so low that you actually felt relieved, knowing that it couldn't possibly get any worse? ... More

Intro Note
Prologue - Special Delivery
Chapter 1 - Coffee, Anisette and Lipstick
Chapter 2 - The All-Seeing Eye
Chapter 3 - Flats It Is
Chapter 4 - Exes and Oh's
Chapter 5 - The Boss
Chapter 6 - Call Me Jeremy
Chapter 7 - The Wineless Lunch
Chapter 8 - A Different Life
Chapter 9 - The Deal
Chapter 10 - The Date
Chapter 11 - The Morning After
Chapter 12 - What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?
Chapter 13 - The Ultimatum
Chapter 14 - An Unexpected Visit
Chapter 16 - Netflix and Chill
Chapter 17 - U-Turn
Chapter 18 - U-Turn Part 2
Chapter 19 - Stupor
Chapter 20 - Like a Prayer
Chapter 21 - White and Black
Chapter 22 - Restored... Or Almost
Chapter 23 - Waiting
Chapter 24 - Fact Finding
Chapter 25 - A Grand Entrance
Chapter 26 - Don't Lose Sleep
Chapter 27 - The Party
Chapter 28 - The Party Part 2
Chapter 29 - Joy Ride
Chapter 30 - The Dance
Chapter 31 - The Waiting Room
Chapter 32 - Inception
Chapter 33 - Happy Birthday
Chapter 34 - Screwdriver
Chapter 35 - Phone Calls
Chapter 36 - Snakes and Butterflies
Chapter 37 - Refusing Coffee is a Sin
Chapter 38 - The Calm Before the Storm
Chapter 39 - Thunder
Chapter 40 - Reunions and Feuds
Chapter 41 - Sosa's Secret
Chapter 42 - Jingles
Chapter 43 - Dyschronometria
Chapter 44 - Laundry
Chapter 45 - The Other Side
Chapter 46 - The Blow
Chapter 47 - New Leaf
Chapter 48 - Lost
Chapter 49 - Found
Chapter 50 - Kiss of Death
Chapter 51 - Moving On 101
Chapter 52 - Team Ally... Team J.J
Chapter 53 - Women... Not Bottles
Chapter 54 - Collision
Chapter 55 - Crash and Burn
Chapter 56 - Sweet, Sweet Purgatory
Chapter 57 - Sex and Literature
Chapter 58 - The Fall
Chapter 59 - Clean Slates Are Messy
Chapter 60 - Veracity
Chapter 61 - Veracity Part 2
Chapter 62 - Yet Another Aftermath
Chapter 63 - Belle's Library
Chapter 64 - Daddy Issues
Chapter 65 - Chances
Chapter 66 - Revelations
Chapter 67 - London Calling
Chapter 68 - Self-Actualisation
Chapter 69 - Self-Actualisation Part 2
Epilogue - The Art of Finishing
Bonus (CUT) #1 - I'm Pregnant
Bonus (CUT) #2 - The First Days
Bonus (CUT) #3 - The Man at the Party
Bonus (CUT) #4 - The Girl at the Bar
Bonus (CUT) #5 - The Day She Left Me

Chapter 15 - Ipokriti

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By AliasTummas1

Three hours later, I'm back through the front door, shoes in hand, hair disheveled and a poorly disguised walk of shame. The last thing I expect to see is Jeremy and Millie in the living room watching reruns of Ipokriti, yet there they are.

Jeremy drags his attention away from the screen and his blue eyes widen in alarm as he takes me in. I see the struggle inside him as he tries to hide his displeasure. I groan and fall back against the door hanging my head, letting my hair fall in front of my face and hiding behind it.

"Why are you still here?"

When he doesn't answer, I peer at him from behind my veil of hair. Jeremy's expression is taut and I see his hurt as he turns back to the soap opera without a word.

"What happened, honey?" Millie asks concerned.

"I broke up with Shaun," I announce, dropping my shoes and clutch and staggering towards them.

They scoot over to make room for me and I squeeze myself between them, resting my head on Nanna's ever-hospitable shoulder.

"You did?" she says ruefully, reaching up to stroke my hair. "Why?"

I contemplate the TV and realise that I remember this episode. Nancy, the evil maid who works for Xander and his rich family, is contemplating the crippled uncle from her hiding place. She's concocting a plan to get rid of him once and for all.

"He said... He thinks... ugh!" I groan. "Shaun said he loves me."

I feel like I'm in a soap opera myself. No matter what I do to avoid drama, I always seem to end up right in the middle of it. I'm just like Norma, young, naïve and always in the crux of some tragic relationship. But that's the thing. I don't want to be in the crux of anything anymore. It was a bet! How the hell did he end up catching feelings?

"Oh, sweetheart," Millie says as she continues to stroke my hair.

I turn to Jeremy wondering if he's still upset at my remark, but to my surprise, there is a definite grin plastered on his face.

"What are you smiling about?" I ask warily.

"Nothing," he replies, his smirk growing unbelievably bigger.

My temper stirs. "I may not understand Maltese very well, but I know this is not a funny episode. Nancy is about to push Rafel into the pool. So, while I'm honoured to be the source of your amusement, I would be very much obliged if you could fill me in on why you have that stupid grin on your face."

Millie's hand freezes in place.

"I am not laughing at you," he states defensively, struggling to keep a straight face.

I sit up and look at him threateningly. He holds my gaze for half a second before he caves.

"Okay, I am," he admits and I roll my eyes. "I told you from the start he's an amateur. Why would he say something like that after three weeks? And to you, of all people!"

I feel the muscles around my jaw tighten. "What is that supposed to mean?"

"I'm just saying that if he thinks you're the kind of person who falls in love with some guy after just three weeks, he can't be very bright."

"Oh, because the girls you date are sharp as a tack!" I snap back even though I'm not sure why I'm contradicting him.

"Of course, they're not. I choose my women very carefully. I have a formula. Two-thirds looks, one-third brains and an unfortunate need to prove themselves. Throw in some daddy issues and you've got yourself the perfect combo."

My stomach churns. "That's disgusting!" I tell him.

"No. You leading on that jughead is disgusting."

"He's not a jughead! And I wasn't leading him on," I protest.

"And yet you let him fall madly in love with you knowing you didn't even like him. And don't blame it on the bet. Your three weeks were technically over. Going out with him tonight was just cruel. To be frank, agreeing to that deal was wrong from the start, Sparky," he fires returning his eyes to the screen. His face contorts as Nancy pushes Rafel's wheelchair into the pool.

I feel the guilt weigh heavily in my gut and I don't like it one bit.

"First of all, Mr Cordina," I start, realising my voice is a notch higher than it should be. "What I do and why is none of your business. And secondly, what do you mean I don't even like him?" I demand, adjusting my body to face him. "I never said anything about not liking him."

"But you don't like him. You can't like him, Ally, you have nothing in common with him," he shrugs.

"How would you know?" I ask, finding it harder and harder to keep my anger under control. "You met him for two seconds."

"I can tell a lot about a man in two seconds," he answers curtly. "And I looked him up on Facebook."

Nanna Millie goes very still beside me. She's been so quiet I had forgotten she was here.

"You did what?" My voice is dangerously low.

"And LinkedIn," he adds unashamedly.

I glare at him. My brain is paralysed with rage. "Why?"

"Because you wouldn't tell me anything about him," he says simply as though this explains everything.

"That's because it's none of your business," I reply through gritted teeth.

"I thought that might be it. Then I looked him up and I realised it's because there was nothing to tell," he challenges with a hint of ridicule.

I gape at him open-mouthed. "And what's that supposed to mean?" 

He turns to face me once again, the irritation at my raised voice evident in the line between his brows. "It means," he grinds impatiently as though I'm the one being unreasonable, "that he bores the hell out of you, Ally."

I open my mouth to fire back but for some reason, I hesitate for one millisecond. He takes advantage of this and ruthlessly goes on, his piercing eyes so completely focused on me I find myself wishing he would go back to watching the soap. "Just admit it. He's boring and you hate spending time with him. Tell me, hand on heart, you didn't put on that dress just to prove a point tonight." His eyes travel down my body like seeking hands as he says this and I see his Adam's apple bopping up and down as they settle on my leg that's completely exposed through the slit. The muscles around his jaw clench slightly as he tears his eyes away and turns his focus back to my face.

I sit up a little taller and try to adjust my dress without being too obvious. "Yes, I did," I counter. "The point being that he's worth the effort."

"And who exactly were you trying to convince? Him or yourself?"

His quiet voice and seemingly calm exterior infuriate me even more than his words. My breathing is heavy. Red spots flash before my eyes. The room starts to spin and before I have time to stop myself, I grab the glass sitting on the coffee table and throw its contents in his face.

I sit there motionless, the glass glued to my hand, eyes wide open in shock as he stares back at me trying to figure out what just happened. From the pungent smell filling my nostrils, I realise the glass was full of beer. The sticky liquid drips from his eyebrows, nose and stubble onto his crisp, white shirt. Time stops as we stare at each other, neither of us able to move.

Then the sound of Millie's loud cackle breaks through the tension like a whip. She stands up and totters to the kitchen clutching her side. Jeremy and I look incredulously at her as she returns with tears in her eyes and a dishcloth in her hand gives it to Jeremy.

"You two are hilarious. Try not to kill each other and figure this out, alright? Good night, sweetheart. Good night, Mr Cordina." And with that, she heads upstairs still gasping for air.

Alone in the living room, we turn back to each other. Jeremy shakes his head and wipes his face with the cloth Nanna Millie gave him but he only makes it worse. Bits of cloth stick to his stubble and eyelashes and I can't help but laugh at him. He looks absolutely furious and equally ridiculous. I remove the white fluff from his face as best I can until his features soften, then point him over to the bathroom. He disappears through the door and I go up to my room to see if I find something he can change into. I dig out a purple hoodie that's three sizes too big for me. My father had sent it over from the U.K. 

Just as I'm coming back down the stairs, Jeremy comes out of the bathroom with a small towel draped over his shoulders. His whole head is wet. He must have tried to clean up in the sink. "Here," I say handing him the hoodie. "Try this."

"Thanks," he replies with his refreshing half-smile, his eyes crinkling at the corners like they always do when he lets his guard down a little.

He swiftly lifts his stained shirt over his head and goes back to the bathroom to rinse it under the tap. The muscles on his back flex firmly as he wrings the shirt thoroughly before hanging it on the door to dry. He splashes water onto his chest and over his shoulders and then pat dries his torso with the hand towel that was just around his neck. He's surprisingly burly in an effortless sort of way. Not as toned as Shaun, but he looks stronger. More... solid?

He raises his head and catches me admiring him through the mirror. I try to look away but it's too late. Our eyes lock. He holds my gaze through the glass as he slides my hoodie over his back.

"What do you think, Sparky?" he growls using his low voice, turning around and walking up slowly towards me, his blue eyes so melded with mine I can't figure out how he turned around without breaking eye contact.

I lean against the bannister and rip my eyes away from his, letting them wander down his chest. My hoodie barely reaches his waistline. The sleeves stop a few good inches above his wrist and the zipper doesn't go up all the way because it's too tight for him. I put a hand over my mouth and purse my lips tightly to stop myself from snickering. When I look back up into his face, his own lips stretch into a broad smile.

"I'm going to pretend I'm not offended by that," he says flicking off the bathroom light and leading me back to the sofa. 

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