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"Lanay." Carter tried to wake me up. I gave myself such a headache last night, I swear I didn't wanna get up.
"Lanay. "
"Hmm?" I started to open my eyes a little and I saw that he had a wife beater on, showing off his muscular arms and back, and he had a pair of black sweatpants on.
"I'm about to go get the kids so we can all go out to breakfast." He said while he put on his socks.
"Okay. Y'all have fun." I said putting my head under the covers and closing my eyes. He sucked his teeth, pulled the covers off of me, and pulled my shirt up, kissing my v-line.
"Stop baaaabe," I whined. "I'm so sore." He still proceeded to mess with me.
"Lemme kiss it all better." he said, more like commanded.
I was still a little skeptical about last night. I wasn't really in the mood for sex. I lowkey wanted to ask more questions, but I decided against it. I was trying my hardest to maintain my trust for him, but I would have to get to the bottom of things first before I let him back in, literally.
"Carter, I said no." I said sternly. He looked at me with a raised eyebrow and he moved away from me, continuing to put his clothes on. He slid his dark blue custom made timberland boots on, he slid a black t-shirt on, and went into his closet to get a hoodie -avoiding eye contact with me on his way back to the bed.
"Babe. " I called out to him. He looked at me for about two seconds, then he continued to put his hoodie on. He pulled his long black dreads out of his hoodie and he grabbed his keys & his wallet off of the dresser.
"You coming or What?" He asked with an obvious attitude.
"What's your problem?"
"You. And you're increasing my problem with you."
"How am I doing that?"
"Like last night. You coming out of nowhere, accusing me of cheating and shit like I haven't shown you, more times than I've told you, that you got me." He started to raise his voice at me, like I was his daughter or something.
"First of all, I didn't come out of nowhere with anything. Janine came out of nowhere at two in the morning-"
"She's all the way across the country!" He yelled. "Cut her some slack."
"Cut her some slack? You're saying that like she's apart of my life or something. You're lucky I'm even cutting you some slack! You're constantly taking up for shawty. And if she actually did her research, she would know that we're all in different time zones. Stop fucking lying." I retorted.
"You're just being insecure." he shook his head.
"When have you ever known me to be insecure, Carter?" I asked. I was never that type of woman.
"I haven't. That's why I'm so mad right now. This isn't my wife. My wife would not be questioning me and would trust me without any doubts. This isn't my wife." he repeated.
"But, the way you're acting about her, Carter. This just doesn't sit right with me. " I sat back down on the bed with my arms crossed. "I just, don't appreciate the fact that you continue to defend her against me like she's really that important." I said in a low tone. I wasn't comfortable at all. Like, I don't know this girl or her intentions. I knew I would always remain Mrs. Carter Jones, of course, but she seemed.. weird. Like something was up with her. And Carter.
" I just don't want you to feel any type of way about this. She's just my event planner. Nothing more than that." he reassured me.
"I believe you." I responded. "But, if she ever decides to get cute, let me know. 'Cause-"
"Go get dressed." Carter started to laugh. I laughed with him, instantly brushing shit off. I wasn't worried.
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As we were on our way to pick up our babies, Carter and I were in the car goofing off. For some reason, everything was just hysterical this morning. I felt like I was getting my best friend back, it was such a great feeling.
"You know what I've been thinking about?"
"What?" I asked him.
"Getting my hair cut. Since we're taking the boys to get hair cuts, I wanted to cut my shit too." he said, running his fingers over his hair. My jaw dropped to the floor.
"Babe, you serious?!" I yelled. "You've had locks-"
"All my life. Exactly." he finished my sentence. "Why you think I haven't been letting you retwist this shit in the last month? I wanted my shit to grow so I could cut my locks off. I'm tired of this shit." he laughed. I pouted and he rolled his eyes a little.
"Stop it. It's not gonna be real low. You'll see." he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek.
"Okay." I obliged. I couldn't blame him. I change my hair style all the time- everybody wants change once in a while.
We finally pulled up to Jazmine and Andre's house were all 4 of our babies were playing around with Janaye in the front yard. Amarie was sitting on the porch watching the kids while she was on her laptop. As soon as she saw us get out the car, she smiled & waved.
"Hey lil' sis," Carter and I greeted her. She greeted us back and she handed us a random envelope.
"What's this?" Carter asked her, taking it out of her hand.
"Something from Jazmine and Dre. Oh, and Kyree's tooth." She said with ease. Our eyes widened as she continued to talk.
"Caden and Kyree got into a little fight this morning." she said.
"Over what? " we asked.
"Kyree tripped over his shoelace, after me telling him over and over again to tie it, and Caden laughed at him so they started fighting and Kyree's tooth came out. But, he told me that his tooth was already lose so there wasn't too much damage. I helped him gargle salt water. " she answered. I was so glad that Amarie worked at a daycare already. She knew how to take care of kids just like me or Carter would.
"Thank you so much Ame." I said, followed after Carter. She nodded and smiled in response, revealing her purple braces. For her to be 22, she was more mature than a couple grown folks that I knew.
Carter pulled out his wallet and handed her $200 while walking over to the kids. I looked in the envelope and came across Kyree's tooth and an invitation to Chuck E. Cheeses for the kids today at 3.
"Daddy! " all of the boys yelled. Camille on the other hand rolled her eyes, took Janaye's hand and walked over to me. Janaye ran over to me and wrapped her little arms around my legs.
"Hi auntie Lala!" she said. I picked her up and hugged her gently, I missed my niece.
"Hi baby," I said excitedly while I put her down. Before I hugged Camille, I could sense that something was wrong with her. I excused my daughter and I from Amarie and Janaye and I pulled her to the side of the car.
"What's wrong baby?" I asked her.
"My head hurts from the boys yelling and screaming this morning." She said sadly.
"Why didn't you tell them to calm down Cammy?"
"Because mommy, this is an everyday thing. I always feel like the only girl in the house, no matter what. I feel left out of everything.." she trailed off. That made me just as sad as she was. I didn't want my baby girl feeling left out of anything. And for her to feel like the only girl in the house while we were living together really bothered me.
"How about this- tomorrow, you, me, and your aunts can have a little girls day out? Spa, shopping, we can go to the hair salon, all that." She squealed and clapped her hands as her big hair flowed from side to side. It reminded me about how much fun I had growing her hair out along with mine.
"Really mommy?"
"Yes, I've never done this with you. There's a first for everything." I smiled at her, she smiled back even harder. I swear I was tripping, she looked like Her dad of course, but I could always see me in her. Her attitude, her character, and all the way down to her aura - reminded me of me.
"Now come on, Daddy wants to take us to IHOP." I informed her.
"Ooo, can Ame and Naye Naye come?" She asked as she got in the car.
"Yeah, but we gotta go get y'all dressed. I'm not liking you in sweats while we're out." I told her before walking over to Amarie and Janaye who were sitting on the porch. I couldn't stand my child looking like a bum unless we're around the house.
"Ame, would you two like to go to IHOP?"
"Ooo, Yes we would love to." She replied. "We're already dressed I just need to get our purses." I overlooked their outfits and I was impressed. They both had on yellow and royal blue floral shirts, royal blue maxi skirts, and yellow sandals with their hair pulled back in sleek ponytails. I always tried to find Camille and I matching outfits but they never matched to the T like theirs did. They even had the same hairstyle. They looked beautiful.
"Okay no problem, I'll go gather up the boys. " I started to walk towards the boys and I could see them all laughing and dabbing each other.
"Is everything good over here?" I asked. The twins ignored me and so did Carter. Caden was the only one who seemed excited to see me.
"Mommy! When did you get here?" He wrapped himself around my leg.
"The same time Daddy did," Kyree answered. "Stupid. "
"Ree-" I started but Carter stopped me.
"I got it." He said. I crossed my arms and waited for him to 'get it', but instead he just told them to get in the car. Cameron ran over and hugged my other leg before getting in the car behind Kyree. I stood there with furrowed eyebrows as I took Caden's hand and walked over to the car.
"Put your seat belts on guys. " I told them. Amarie and Janaye walked out of the house and to the side of the door, knocking on my passenger window.
"It doesn't look like we can fit in the car. I think we'll just stay home " She said, she actually looked sad.
"No Ame, " Camille and I said.
"It's okay y'all, I'll see y'all later right?" She asked, I snapped my fingers and instantly remembered that we were all supposed to have dinner tonight after the kids went to Chuck E. Cheeses.
"Okay then sis, I'll see you later." I kissed her on the cheek. "Bye Naye Naye, auntie loves you okay? I'll see you later baby." I kissed her on the cheek as well. She just nodded in response. I heard the car door slam and Camille ran over to the other side.
"See you guys later," she hugged them both and ran back in the car. As soon as she shut the door Carter sped off. I looked at him with confusion, but I just decided to drop it. I looked back at the kids and I could see that Kyree didn't have his seat belt on.
"Ree, put your seat belt on." I told him.
"Daddy doesn't have his on." He said, sucking his teeth. Strike two.
"Did I ask you about what your dad was doing? Put your seat belt on." I warned him. He didn't move a muscle. I looked at Carter and he acted as if he didn't hear me talking to Kyree, but I know he did. The weird shit.
I turned my attention back at Kyree and he rolled his eyes at me. I immediately smacked him right in his arm as hard as I could. He started crying instantly.
"Put your damn seat belt on Kyree, I'm tired of talking to you!" He rushed to put his seat belt on and he sat back in between his siblings with tears running down his face.
"Clean your face." he started cleaning his face with his hands as I could see in the rearview mirror as I turned my attention to Carter.
"We're going home. Turn around." He looked at me like I was crazy but he quickly started to make a 'U' turn. I sat back in my seat and watched the road, but I could see Carter with a mean mug on his face. He really was acting weird.
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"Carter, can I talk to you?" He was in his man cave all the way at the end of the hallway, sitting in his big black chair. After he dropped me and Camille off at home, he and the boys went to the barbershop to get haircuts. I didn't even get a chance to see Carter's new hair cut, he just went straight in the man cave like he was mad at me.
"About?" He asked as I continued to stand at the back of the chair.
"Your attitude today. And why you didn't back me up while your son decided that it was okay to talk back. Just you overall!" I started to get mad while I was talking about it, and I guessed he noticed - he was mute.
"We were cool up until we went to get the kids, then you started acting weird. Like, what's your problem? I need you to act like a co-parent and a husband, not just Carter."
"You're getting on my nerves." He finally decided to get up and look at me. I was baffled.
"You can not be fucking serious! " I yelled. "I'm getting on your nerves?" I asked. I started to get even more upset than I was before.
"That's what I said right? You constantly nag at me like I'm a child or something. You really startin' to annoy me." He concluded while he walked over to his game console and I followed behind him.
"You don't understand how aggravating and bipolar you are. First, we're good, then we're not. Because of how you're acting towards me and how you're acting towards this marriage." I stood in front of him, trying to be as calm as possible.
"Move yo." He told me as his game started. It was obvious that he wasn't trying to hear anything that I was saying.
"Fuck it." I stormed out of his man cave and ran down into the basement, his 'second man cave' which had all his tools and home projects that he'd work on when he was home alone. I went to his tool wall and looked for the biggest hammer I could find. As soon as I grabbed it, I ran back up the two flights of stairs I came down and I damn near sprinted down the hall to where Carter was. I was glad Jasmine and Andre invited the kids to Chuck E. Cheeses for today, I would've startled them with all the noise I was making.
I stopped right in front of his man cave door and walked in as quietly and as calmly as I could. I walked into his private gaming section to see him playing Assassin's Creed II on the XBox.
"Carter." I called him with the hammer behind my back. He ignored me of course.
"Carter!" I called him again, he looked me dead in my face and ignored me again. I stood right in front of the tv and started to speak again before he interrupted me.
"I'm not trynna hear anything you have to say. If it isn't important enough, and nine times out of ten it's not, I'm not trynna engage in it. I don't give a fuck about anything you have to say right now. Get the fuck out of my face, Lanay. " he yelled in my face.
That was it. I walked over to his gaming area, raised the hammer above my head, and I smashed his XBox with the weight of the hammer, and the weight of myself.
"Aye yo'!" He stood in the same spot I left him in, shocked. I continued to smash the XBox in front of him like it was nothing.
"You not trynna hear me, huh?" I asked as I walked up to him with my fist balled up.
"Lanay, imma tell you this one time, and one time only, chill the fuck out." He warned. I immediately punched him right in his face.
"Nope. And it's ashame that you care about this fuckin' man cave more than you care about your wife's feelings." I said calmly as I socked him in his jaw one more time.
"Stop! " he warned again, gripping my arms up.
"Get the fuck off of me and tell me the truth Carter!" I shouted as tears ran down my face. He looked me in my eyes and he softened his grip up on my arms, letting me out of his hold.
"You can't, can you?" I asked in disgust. All his contemplation was plastered on his face along with the blood from his mouth and his nose. "What have I ever done to you for you to not be completely honest with me?"
"I don't wanna upset you.." he trailed off. He instantly dropped down on the couch with his hands in his face as I stood in front of him without saying a word.
"I'm so sorry baby." He started to cry as he wiped his face. I didn't say a word, I waited for him to talk. He took multiple deep breaths and he finally said it.
"I cheated on you, Lanay.. with Janine." he said as clear as day. I said absolutely nothing as my chest caved in and I grasped it.
"You okay?" He got up, trying to touch my chest. I balled my fist up and attempted to punch him in his chest, but my arm locked up and a pain went through my stomach. I grasped my stomach and left the room to go to the bathroom to throw up, and Carter was right behind me.
"Baby are you okay?" He asked me again.
"Leave me alone, Carter. I mean it." I said as I leaned over the toilet. I literally felt sick to my stomach.
"Can I explain myself at least?"
"Save it, all I needed to hear were those five words. That explains why you've been distant from us, and that's ashame. Your kids aren't as happy as they used to be with you around, Carter. But you didn't care."
"I'm sorry." He said as another tear slid down his cheek.
I stood up slowly, and walked passed him. I didn't throw up, but now my stomach felt like someone was throwing knives at it. The fact that Carter cheated on me did fuck me up, alot, but the fact that he had been lying to me made it even worse. But I scratched that scene out of my head as soon as my stomach started turning again and I felt a liquid come out of me. I dug in my drawer for a panty liner, since my period wasn't supposed to be here until next month, but then more liquid came out of me and started to run down my leg.
I ran to the master bathroom and I had to take a quick shower. I slid my clothes of rapidly and turned the shower on as I hopped in at the sane time. More blood started to come out of me as it became darker. My eyes started to get heavy as I fainted over the tub and on the bathroom floor.
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"Mrs. Jones.." I heard a voice call me as my eyes slowly opened. Bright ass lights, I thought. I instantly knew where I was. In a hospital bed.
"Mrs.Jones, are you okay? Can you hear me?" the person who was talking asked.
"Yeah. What happened?" I asked with an attitude. I didn't even know who was talking, all I knew was that I had a headache on one side of my head and these lights were bothering me.
"Mrs.Jones, I'm sorry, but you had a miscarriage." My eyes widened as I looked at the person who was talking to me. She was a mocha colored woman with a long ponytail and she looked at me with sympathy.
"A miscarriage? How?" I breathed.
"You were carrying twins, Mrs. Carter. And as I heard from your husband, you've been under alot of stress lately and you finally went into shock. That caused you to lose one of your babies." she answered me.
"Wait, how is that possible?" Carter asked. "How could she have lost only one of them if they were in the same placenta?"
"The surviving baby was the stronger one." she answered him.
"I didn't even know that that was possible." I heard Lamar say. Despite my headache and the bright lights, my eyes searched the room for my big brother. I saw Renee and Lamar sitting on the opposite side of the room of where Carter and the doctor were. I reached my hand out to Renee and Lamar and they both placed their hands on mine.
"So, is my other baby okay?" I asked the doctor as my eyes started to get teary.
"Yes Mrs. Jones. You have a perfectly healthy baby. And you'll be at three months tomorrow. Congratulations." she said as she almost handed Carter a paper.
"Thank you. And I'll take that paper." I said as she shifted towards me and handed me the paper. Carter lowered his hand back on his lap as he looked at me with sympathy, almost looking like he wanted to cry- poor fuckin' baby.
"We'll release you in few, Mrs. Jones. On that paper is your prescription for your prenatal vitamins. Oh, and you're healthy too. Just relax and stop stressing, okay?"
"Yes ma'am, thank you so much Doctor." I smiled at her as she smiled back before walking out of the room.
"Thank y'all for being here." I looked over at Lamar and Renee.
"We always gon' be here for you Nay." Renee said as Lamar agreed.
"Can y'all take me home when I'm released? I need to clean my bathroom." I shivered at the thought of all the blood on my bathroom.
"Carter already did. You need to go home and rest anyways. Oh, and Renee brought you clothes and ya' soap and loofa with a towel." Lamar said as I thanked both of them.
"Can I go to a hotel until my babies come back?"
'What? Why?" they asked simultaneously.
"I don't wanna be around a cheater." I said without looking at him.
"Excuse me?" Lamar developed more base in his voice than usual. I didn't say anything else. Lamar stood up slowly and came close to my face. "Did he cheat on you Lanay? Is that why you went into shock?" he asked in a low voice. I nodded. He immediately went over to the other side of the room and punched Carter clean across his face. I couldn't get up, but Renee did and she broke it up as soon as she saw them both throwing punches at each other.
"I told you not to hurt my little sister pussy!" Lamar shouted as Renee managed to push him out of the room.
''Nay, we're gonna be in the waiting room." Renee informed me as I nodded.
Carter sat back down on the couch and touched his lip, which was busted on one side. He looked up at me as I looked up at him and he busted out in tears.
"You don't deserve to be in this bed and in all this pain. I'm sorry for everything that I've been putting you through lately. I had no idea that you were pregnant, Lanay."
"So, if I wasn't pregnant, would it make a difference?" I asked, not buying his bullshit. After all, he was the reason as to why one of our babies were gone. I was lucky to still be carrying one.
"No, it wouldn't. But now I realize what's really important. You and my kids are important to me, Lanay. I swear, I wouldn't have did what I did if I knew how much y'all really meant to me. I was being selfish and inconsiderate. I'm sorry. I wanna work on us. And I wanna be a better father to my children"
"So now you wanna play husband and daddy? You know what Carter, I need you to stay away from me. I'm not keeping you from any of your kids, including the one I'm carrying, but you need to keep all that bullshit away from me. If you really care about me and your babies, we need to just work as co-parents right now to minimize stress. I can't trust you. And I'm not trying to work on us if there's no trust involved. That's just more stress for me and you. You still have your career and the kids to worry about, and so do I, so let's not. Especially not while I'm pregnant." I retorted. He sat there for a second, but he eventually nodded in agreement.
A nurse walked into the room and informed me that I was released, and when my next appointment would be. I thanked her and asked her to send Renee in so she could give me my clothes and my hygiene products so I could wash up, get dressed, and go.
A couple of minutes later, Renee entered the room with an all-black Nike jogging suit and some black timberland boots. I eyes the outfit with a raised eyebrow and looked at her with the same expression.
"What?" she asked.
"I thought we were going to dinner, child."
"You still wanna go? You feeling alright? Because we cancelled since we thought that you were in critical condition." she said.
"I'm fine. My head stopped hurting and everything." I smiled at her as she smiled back. I saw Carter smile too, but it didn't effect me, honestly.
"Okay mamas. Just put this on and I'll take you shopping."
"Awe, you really wanna take me shopping?"
"Yes girl, you know you bae." she laughed as I laughed with her.
"Okay zaddy, I'll be right out." we laughed again and I went into the bathroom to go take a quick shower.
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I'm back. And I'm sorry for the delays. Since I started school again, I've also started working, and etcetera, I've been super duper busy. But I have been writing and editing in my free time. I've also deleted "Grown" and "Not Enough" since I wasn't connected to my characters. They were blocking my creative juices anyway. But, I digress, I'll try to update every 2 weeks for y'all okay? Okay, lol. I love y'all! And thank you so much for the constant support and love.
-Muah, Chrisara ♥ (Lanay & Carter are in the multimedia section)