Painful Poem depression

An Escape

I know this isn't what you wanted.
Not what you intended.
You just wanted an escape
got tired of the weight.
You carry a heavy burden
it haunts you day by day.
And the day it came upon you
was the day you forever changed.
You tried giving hints.
But nothing seemed to work.
The only thing that happened
was you kept getting hurt.
People laugh and people joke
but none of them really know.
They don't know the nightmare
that you call life.
Don't know how hard it is
to avoid that pocket knife.
You hear a joke, another laugh.
And you cut deep, another gash.
And I pray to God that you see the light
before you accidently risk your own life.