Nang maka-balik ako sa unit, nag-pahinga lang ako ng kaunti. At mga bandang 6:30, nagsimula na akong mag-ready. I took a 30-minute shower, and blow dried my hair and put it in curls. I wore a white tank tube top, a black sparkly skirt, and a black jacket. I also wear beige heels so I would look taller. I wore some hoop earrings, a silver necklace, and I put some makeup on.
At exactly 8pm, I went down the lobby, para maabangan ko si Kaitlyn. And there she is, I hopped in her car, and smiled.
"Hey sishy!" Sabi niya at bumeso sa pisngi ko.
"Hey!" I said.
"Ba't naman, napa-aya ka babaita ha?"
"Wala si Sev sa unit eh, inuwi ko kayla mother dear. Eh ang lonely kaya-" hindi ko na natuloy ang sasabihin ko nang sumabat siya.
"Kaya iinom ka?" Paghula ni Kait.
"Oo." I laughed.
"'Yan tayo eh." Sabi niya at tumawa.
Bakit ba? Masama bang uminom?
Nakarating na kami sa bar, at umupo ulit kami sa isang table for two. Nag-order kaagad si Kaitlyn ng isang vodka at isang margarita. Itong si Kaitlyn, kung mag-order ang dami, akala mo naman iinumin niya lahat.Napa-tingin ako sa entrance ng bar kung saan nakita ko si Sean, at ang dalawa pa niyang kaibigan, mga engineer din siguro. 'Di ko kilala eh.
Nakita ako ni Sean sa kinauupuan ko, pero wala akong pake. Ano naman kung nandito ako ta's umiinom?
Naka-sampung shot palang ako naramdaman ko na agad ang hilo, habang si Kaitlyn na madaya lima palang, strong pa din. Hays, ang hina ko talaga sa mga ganito.
"So girl, balita sa inyo ni Sean, kayo na ba?" Tanong niya.
Nag-shot muna ako bago sinagot ang tanong niya.
"Gago! Hindi, pero sana. Ano nalang sasabihin ko sa anak ko? Nangako ako sakan'ya na papa-kilala ko sakan'ya tatay niya. Pero 'di ko alam kung kailan, kung saan." Nawala ang ngiti sa mukha ko.
"Tanga! Try mo sa birthday niya, malapit naman na mag-birthday si Sev, 'diba? Doon mo nalang i-try. Tanungin mo si Sev kung ano gusto niyang regalo, pag sinabi niyang tatay 'yun! May plano ka na!" Sabi ni Kait.
Actually kahit, mukhang walang kwentang idea 'yun. Mukhang gagana, 'yun nalang gift ko sa kanya. Pero pa'no ko sasabihin kay Sean 'yun?
"Eh, pa'no ko sasabihin kay Sean na... May anak siya?" Tanong ko at tinignan sa kabilang table si Sean.
Napa-kunot ang noo ko, nang makitang may babaeng lumapit sa table nila at niyakap ang braso ni Sean.
"Tangina, may girlfriend ata." Sabi ko at tumawa.
Lumingon naman si Kait sa tinitignan ko, at nakita rin niya 'yung babaeng nasa tabi na ni Sean.
"'Oy puta, seryoso?" Sabi niya at kumunot rin ang noo.
"Gago, 'di naman maganda." Sabi niya at inikot ang mata niya.
I've already gotten 20 shots, and there I was drunk already. I went to the bathroom to vomit, nung paglabas ko, I lousily sat down the chair, mag-sasalin palang ako sa shot glass nang may pumigil sa akin.
"That's enough." A man in said in a deep voice.
I looked up, and saw Sean in a mad face. What the fuck? Anong ginagawa niya dito?
"Shut up, I'm fine! Get back to your girlfriend!" I pushed him away, but he didn't budge.
"Girlfriend?" He sighed. "Let's go, you're drunk." He said and pulled me up.
Hinayaan ko ang sarili ko na magpa-hatak sa kan'ya, dahil gusto ko na rin mag-pahinga.
"I'll just drive you to my condo."
"Mmm..." I nodded while my eyes were closed.
"I'll take that, as a yes then." He said and continued driving.
My eyes opened, when I felt my phone vibrating. I think it was Kaitlyn, calling me.
"Yes?" I answered.
"Oh my gosh, Gwyneth! Where are you for fuck's sake?!" Kait said, panicking.
"Chill, woman. I'm with my ex husband, I'll stay in his condo for a few days." I said and Sean turned to me shocked.
"Hay nako, Gwyneth. Pa'no si Sev, ha?"
"Nasa bahay naman ni mommy, si baby Sev eh. I'll just visit him, mas maganda munang doon muna siya, habang pinag-iisipan pa kung pa'no niya makikilala 'yung-" napatigil ako para tignan si Sean. Nakakunot ang noo niya nang tignan ako.
"Oo na, sige na! Dami mo pang talk! Bye, ingat! Baka mamaya nag-sesex na kayo ah!" Biro ni Kaitlyn.
"Happy ka?" Umirap ako at pinatay ang tawag.
"Who's that?" Tanong ni Sean.
"Si Kaitlyn." Irita kong sagot.
"Sino si Sev? Boyfriend mo?" Tanong niya at tumawa lang ako wala nang balak pang sagutin tanong niya.
"At saka, anong sinabi mo na sa condo ko muna ikaw? Anong pag-iisipan mo?" He asked again, but I didn't bother to answer, I'm tired.
We arrived at his condo, and he carried me bridal style, habang papunta sa unit niya. He laid me down the bed.
"Ugh, Sean! I miss you." i whispered.
"You're just drunk, let's get you cleaned up." Seryosong sabi niya.
He pulled me up to stand, he tied my hair in a ponytail, and started wiping my face with cotton, removing my makeup.
So he was the one, who took my makeup off last time!
He put down the cotton pad, and he started washing my face with facial wash. After doing that, he brushed my teeth.
"Smile." He said in a serious voice.
"Ugh, can I just sleep?" I said.
"After you get cleaned up." He said and sighed.
He got finished cleaning me up, he laid me down and took off my shirt. I opened my eyes and covered my chest.
"Hoy, bastos ka ah!" I shouted.
Tumawa lang siya, napaka-walang hiya talaga neto.
"Nakita ko na rin naman 'yan, tapos mahihiya ka pa." He chuckled.
"Fuck you!" I said and raised my middle finger.
Sinuotan niya ako ng t-shirt niya, at amoy na amoy ko d'on 'yung scent niya. Ugh, I miss him so much, really!
"Shower lang ako." Paalam niya.
I just nodded, and I forced myself not to sleep, so I could talk to Sean more.
#Maparaan
I forced myself to stand up and I got myself some water, from his kitchen. When I got back, I drank the water, and he got out of the shower.
"Oh, I can see you can stand now." He laughed.
"Malamang, may paa ako." I rolled my eyes.
Tinanggal niya ang towel sa bewang niya, at nakasuot siya ng boxers, revealing his bulge. He looked at me and laughed when caught me staring at it.
"You wanna touch it?" He smirked.
"Bitch." I said and rolled my eyes again.
He just laughed and put on a pair of sweatpants and a black shirt. I laid down the bed while he sat down on the ledge.
Nang matahimik kami, napansin kong may iniisip siya.
"Gwyneth.." He called.
"What?" I answered.
"I'm... I-I'm sorry..." He said and sounded like he was almost going to cry.
Lumaki ang mata ko, at parang nawala ang kalasingan ko.
"F-For.. What?" I stuttered.
"About years.. Ago..." He said and titled his head against me.
Napa-upo ako sa kama, at nangilid 'yung mga luha ko, nang maalala lahat ng nangyari noon sa aming dalawa.
"I didn't really cheat on you, Gwyneth." He said.
"Pero humalik sa ibang babae." Pataray kong sagot.
"I didn't you see, she kissed me. She was drunk, nung hiwalayan daw siya ni Jarred, 'yung ex ni Kaitlyn, she developed feelings for me..." Sabi niya at tinignan ako, his eyes glinted with tears.
"Hindi ko siya ginustong halikan, pero Gwyneth siya 'yung nauna. Gustong gusto kong patayin sarili ko noon, dahil sa ginawa ko sa'yo... Gwyn.. I tried.." He cried.
Tumulo na rin mga luha ko, noong marinig siyang umiiyak at inaalala ang nakaraan. Putangina, hanggang ngayon masakit pa rin talaga.
"I tried to get you back... But when you were completely gone, I-I took the board for engineering, and luckily I passed.... Tinigil ko 'yung pagiging engineer ko para sa'yo... D-dahil aasawahin kita, and I'm scared na... Na..." His voice broke. "Na mawalan ako ng time sa'yo." Mas lalo siyang umiyak.
"I tried to explain... B-But... You pushed me away, and you wouldn't listen to me..."
I cried harder, fuck. I blame myself for everything I've done to him.
"Sean...." I cried.
"I'm sorry... Really really sorry..." He cried and went to me. He hugged me really really tight.
"Please.... I want you back again..."