DALAWANG buwan na ang lumipas simula nang malaman 'ko ang pag bubuntis 'ko, dalawang buwan na hindi 'ko maintindihan ang nangyayari sa sarili 'ko, may mga araw na sobrang pagod ako kahit wala akong ginagawa at mga araw na gusto 'kong mag isa at umiyak lang ng umiyak kasi ano? Trip 'ko lang., May mga araw din na nais 'ko lang kumain at minsan nama'y gusto ko kumain pero inilalabas lang 'iyon ulit ng aking katawan ang sabi ng iba morning sickness daw 'iyon.
Sinubukan 'ko ding tingnan ang sarili 'ko sa salamin at gayon na lamang ang pagkamangha 'ko dahil bahagyang lumaki ang dibdib 'ko, mas kuminis ang balat 'ko ngunit ang pinagtataka 'ko lamang ay tila yata ang bilis lumaki ng tyan 'ko.
Nagsimula na akong mag ayos at mag asikaso nang biglang nag vibrate 'iyong phone 'ko.
Si nina..
"Hello? Napatawag ka?"
"I have a good news for you" kaswal niyang sabi.
"Ano nanaman 'iyon?" Giit 'ko nang may halong pag kairita sa boses ko.
"Matutuwa ka promise, wait me, I'll be there in fifteen minutes " and she ended the call
Parang kinakabahan ako na naeexcite sa sasabihin niyang good news daw , parang ayokong marinig yun, baka siguro gutom lang ata 'to ,
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Abala ako sa pagtimpla ng gatas at sa pag lagay ng palaman sa tinapay 'ko nang biglang may narinig akong malakas na pagsigaw mula sa bukana ng pinto.
"Shantelle!"
"Ay ang sarap mo!" Nagulat ako sa bunganga nitong si nina.
Pisting bunganga nitong Nina na 'to daig pa nakalunok ng mega phone sa lakas ng boses! Muntik ko pa tuloy mabitawan ung kinakain ko tsk tsk!
"Wait, let me rephrase Ang sarap mo? Sino? Ako? Huy kung kailan ka nagbuntis tska tumaas yang level of libido mo, iniisip mo nanaman ba yang abs slash betlog slash fafaballs ng inaanak 'ko?" Mahaba at nakakalokong pang aasar ni nina
"What's with the word? na masherep? ano nanamang iniisip mo Shan? ikaw ah? naputukan ka lang---- " hindi na tuloy ni Nina ung sinsabi niya nung ibato ko sa kanya iyong tinapay na hawak ko
"What the! " Inis na sabi nya
"Nakakainis ka kasi eh paulit ulit ka tsk! Ano ba kasing sasabihin mo?" Taas na kilay kong sabi
"Tss ok here" She handed me a calling card and smile
"What is this?" nakakunot noo tanong 'ko
"Ay te! Pambili mo ng dildo yan tanga mo minsan! Basa basa din kasi" sarkastika na sagot niya
Name: Jace Lee
contact no: 0928143****
blah blah blah
"Oh ano 'to?" I asked with curiosity
"He is your Baby's daddy" She smile and winked at me
"Are you sure? I mean paano mo 'to nakuha?" tanong ko ulit
"Basta sasabihin ko din sayo pero not now and nga pala hindi ka papasok ngayon excuse ka na" she said and a curve line form on her lips
"What are you waiting for Shan? Call him" Seryoso at iritable niyang sabi
"No, For what? Magsasayang lang tayo ng pagod " pasigaw na sabi ko
"Please, Don't be selfish it's for your baby's sake, ikaw na din nagsabi na you can't raise the baby all by your self " she said as she handed me my phone
I smile at her yeah she's right this is for my baby's sake,
"Thank you" and with that I started to hit the dial pad and wait for a minute kung may sasagot ba ng tawag na 'iyon but by hearing those rings ay nadissapoint lamang ako sapagkat wala man lang sumagot Nag riring lang yung phone , I tried so many times pero wala talagang sumasagot, hopeless
So decided to just text his number
"hi! once you received and read this message please call me"
Message sent
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The next morning
I Open my phone to check but ni isang text wala akong nareceived
ang boring ng bahay hay kasi naman wala pa si Nina! asan na kaya yun bigla nalang akong nilayasan kahapon without saying tss
Nakaupo lang ako sa sala when my phone rang
*Sorry sorry sorry sorry nega nega nega----" Phone call Ringtone (Sorry Sorry by super junior)
"Hello?" my eyes widened as I heard his voice , Biglang nagflashback lahat from the night na nasa bar ako hanggang gumising ako sa hindi ko naman bahay ng nakanude nanigas ako sa kinauupan ko at hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko
"Hello? Are you there? " His voice brought butterfly in my stomach hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko
"H-He-llo? " I stuttered ah sh*t what happened to me?
"Hello? who is this? " tanong niya
"I-im Shantelle, remember the night two months ago?" Umpisa ko
"Yeah? What about that?" I can feel his angst as he talked over phone
"I have some important things na sasabihin sana sayo" sabi ko but my voice is trembling
"I see what do you want? " Ang sweet ng boses niya at napaka kalmado at sa wari ko'y naging interesado siya bigla
"Are you free today? " I asked
"Yeah" tipid na sagot niya
"Meet me at the cafe down town bakery shop near ***** four onward, if that is ok with you " I said and tried to be nice and calm
"Ok see you then? " and we ended the call
I sighed , I took a deep breath hoping na maging maayos lahat, napatingin ako sa wrist watch ko saying na it's already three thirty in the afternoon so I still have thirty minutes to prepare
I'm good to go I just wore this cute pink dress that covers my tummy perfectly, flat shoes that compliment the dress I'm wearing, light make up and yeah ready na 'ko
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*Cafe down town*
I arrived early, thinking of what should I say or yung mga "what ifs" ganito or ganyan, nagiisip ako kung paano ko sisimulan iyong sasabihin ko, what if hindi siya maniwala? paano kung ireject niya yung baby inside me? To think na ganun nga yung mangyari nasasaktan na ako para sa baby hay I sighed
"What's your order ma'am?" Waiter asked
"Ahm just hot chocolate please" then I smile
"Here ma'am "
"Thanks" then she leave
I sipped at my hot chocolate mmmmm sweet it makes me feel relaxed a little, but my heart start beating so fast when I see the familiar face and with that ay bigla 'ko na lamang naalala nag gabing iyon na nag pabago sa takbo ng buhay 'ko.
"Hi" he said
"H-hi" I stuttered
"kanina ka pa? sorry if i'm late" he said smiling
"Nah you're not late"
"So may sasabihin ka right? " he's now serious
Iniangat ko ang muka ko then stared at him
I took a sipped on my hot chocolate before ako magsalita
"Remember the night? the bar and what happened to us in your pad? " I said while twirling the end of my hair
"Yeah ofcourse I remember" did he smirk or I'm just paranoid? baka isipin niya na gusto ko ulit yun gawin kaya ko sya pinapunta dito
"Ahm," I sighed hindi ko kasi alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya or sisimulan man lang
"mmm what? Spill it out what about that night we had shared together? he said
"Kasi i-im " Hindi ko matuloy tuloy yung sasabihin ko kasi parang alam ko na magiging reaction niya ang hirap naman nito.
" You are? " He said in a calmed voice
"B-buntis ako" sabi ko na halos daigin ko pa aso ng kapit bahay namin sa pag hahabol ng hininga
"WHAT?!! are you sure? that's mine? Prove it to me!" I see the fire in his eyes and the doubt na hindi kanya 'tong nasa loob ko, nainis ako bigla sa sinabi niya! ano bang tingin niya sakin? haliparot? malandi? B*tch, pok pok? para makipag sex sa iba't ibang lalaki. ? tss nakakainis sa pagkakataong ito gusto ko siyang sapakin!
"Here" Walang gana kong inabot sa kanya 'yung picture ng baby (ultrasound picture)
I waited on his reaction, his eyes widened and looked at me in gaze he looked at my belly na medyo halata na, At parang di siya makapaniwala sa nakikita niya!
Napatayo ako at sinabi sakanya
"I say this to you hindi dahil sa pera or financial blah blah, I say this to you so that you are well informed na magkakaanak ka na alam mo wala naman akong pakielam 'kung itatanggi mong sayo 'tong dinadala 'ko for all you know kaya 'kong buhayin 'to mag isa! My point of telling you this? Para lang alam mo and di 'ko naman sinabi na panagutan mo 'ko ano, choice mo yan so bye" anas 'ko
"And you know what? May itlog ka pero wala kang bayag! Duwag!"
And with that, nagmamadaling kinuha ang gamit 'ko and leave him ni hindi ko sya nilingon, May kung anong kirot akong naramdaman sa kaibuturan ng puso 'ko umiiyak lang ako habang minamaneho ang kotse 'ko nakakainis lang na parang iba yung tingin niya sa akin as if I did something wrong and that is bullshit! How can he be so cool acting up na siya ang nahihirapan.
Nakarating ako ng bahay exactly six in the evening at naabutan 'ko pa si nina slouching sa sofa
"Hey! so kamusta? gwapo ba siya? or what tell me about him" she said while giggling.
"He don't have balls nina nag aaksaya lang tayo ng oras and nina not now I'm tired, I just want to be alone" walang gana kong sabi
Hindi na niya ko kinulit, Thanks naman at ganun
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*In my room*
Iniisip ko pa rin yung nangyari kanina, ano kayang tumatakbo sa utak nung Jace Lee na yun
I look down at my belly and rubbed it
"Baby did you see him? Yung lalaking kausap ni mommy a while ago? He is your daddy, hope na hindi ka niya nireject hay baby love ka ni mommy kaya behave lang ok? Goodnyt my love , i love you"
I'm about to sleep when my phone vibrate, and the unregistered number pop up on its screen I open the message and I read
From 0928143****
Im sorry for what I've done and what I said a while ago, I'm sorry I will wait for your reply Goodnyt shantelle
When I read the message from him napasmile ako, I don't know why maybe dahil for me baka narealize nya lahat
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hello! so ano? kamusta naman? hay kahit na hindi kagandhan ung update thanks sa mga nagbabasa kahit silent lang :) oh sya?
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