"After all the shit you put me through, all the nights I cried. Why do I still love you? Even now you're gone and we're not together. I still love you" I told to myself as I tried to stop my tears from falling,
bakit napaka unfair niya? why do I need to feel this kind of pain? Every night before I go to my bed, I badly think about him , it's been a month since nakita ko lahat ng panloloko nya sa akin, of how everything happened without me noticing it, Kung mahal niya ko, bakit ganito? bakit wala siyang effort na ginagawa? Bakit lagi nalang niya akong sinasaktan?
I hugged my pillow fight as my tears start streaming, wondering what will happened for the next twenty four hours I can't even sleep kasi kahit naman ipikit ‘ko ang mata ‘ko si jace pa rin ang nakikita ‘ko.
"you mother fu*ker who are you para pumunta dito!!
"You jerk!"
"Get out!!"
"Ang kapal ng muka mo! LABAS!"
Napasinghap ako ng marinig ko ang galit na boses ni Nina , I don't know kung ano ang dapat kong gawin, Nagsimula nanaman magunahan ang mga luha ko, Dinig na dinig ko ang pagsinghal ni Nina and I know to my self , right at this moment, kuya kurt is on his way here, Palala ng palala ang sitwasyon, I want to end this shit, I'm tired of all of this., I open the door of my room only to see Jace na nakaluhod sa harap ni Nina , I gasped, I looked at him in disbelief as my tears started to escape from my eyes, What have I done? I said at the back of my mind
"Jace........" I whimpered
He stood up , And walked towards me, Napaatras ako, Patuloy sa pagiyak, Our eyes met, his hazel brown eyes became lifeless, and sore , Naiyak ako lalo ng makita ko ang pagbabago sa katawan niya, Pumayat siya., His hair naawa ako at naiinis, What happened to him?
"Shan I'm sorry...." he cried, part of me want to accept his apology but the other side want to slap him hard after all the shit he put me through? ito lang ang kaya niyang gawin?
"Why are you here?" I sobbed
"Shan please, please let me explain pakinggan mo naman ako, ipapaliwanag ‘ko lahat sayo, don't make it hard for me to make you understand everything" I want to listen but I don't want to feel the hurt
"Listen what? Your love story with sienna? Stop feeding me lies jace maglolokohan pa ba tayo?" I yelled at him
"Bago mo man lang ba gawin yun, inisip mo man lang ba ako? kami ng anak mo?! Jace pagod na pagod na ako! Ilang beses ko bang sinabi sayo na ayoko nang mawalan ulit?! Ilang beses ko bang pinaalala sayo na wag mong gagawin lahat ng ayaw ko! You know my story! Alam mo kung anong pinagdaanan ko! Pero anong ginawa mo?! Ginago mo rin ako Jace! Niloko mo ko!" Dagdag ko.
"Shan p-pl-please pakinggan mo naman ako" I saw him crying too, what a good actor.
"Ano pa bang dapat kong marinig? hindi pa ba sapat na makita ko na nagsesex kayo sa office mo? Baka pati yun gusto mo rin ikwento sakin?"
"Is not what you think"
"Oh? So ano pala yun? Nakapatong lang siya sayo? half naked? hindi ako tanga jace, hindi ako tanga!"
"Ano ba pang gusto mong gawin ko? lahat na ginawa ko para sayo! I even follow you wherever you go! Just to make sure that you we're safe! I almost sacrificed everything I have, I risked my life! Isang beses when you go to some mall may mga nakasunod sayo, I was there to save you! I was there ready to be killed just for you! and now! argh! Shan bakit ganyan ka! What do you want me to do?"
"So utang na loob ko pa sayo 'yun Jace? Sinabi ko ba sayo na bantayan mo 'ko sa lahat ng alis ko? sa bawat araw na wala ako?!"
"Shan please lets settle this I love you ....,"
"Jace tama na! wala kang ibang ginawa kundi ng saktan ako! This is too much!"
"Shan mahal kita , mahal na mahal wag mo namang gawin sakin 'to"
"How about sienna?" nakita ko ang pagbabago sa mga mata nya, Unreadable, I don't know pero nasasaktan ako , naramdaman ko ang pananahimik nya
"Now answer me do you love her?" I'm hoping for his no but he remained silent, I wait for his answer
"See? You can't answer my question , Then sasab---"
"Yes I do love her bu------" I don't want to hear his explanation, sa di ko malamang dahilan ay para bang may sariling buhay ang mga palad 'ko at nasampal ko sya marahil ay sa sakit na nararamdaman ko kaya ko 'iyon nagawa,.
I suddenly felt the cramp in my lower abdomen dahilan upang mapikit ako ng mariin at batid kong any moment ay babagsak ako sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon.
"Get out" Yan na lamang ang mga salitang naitulos ko
"Shan ugh shit! shan are you ok?" I faint my God, my babies argh! it hurts
"Argh! Nina!" I screamed in pain while holding my stomach
"ugh shit shan, Jesus, Blood" I heard him say as I slid my hands down in my legs, My babies
"Shan! Oh shit! Damn!" I saw Nina running upstairs While talking to someone
"Holy crap! Where are you kurt? You need to go here! now!" and she ended the call
"Let's bring her to the hospital , hold on shan, hold on" Jace carry me downstairs , I feel his body shaken, I'm crying I can't take this pain and I passed out
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Annyeong ~
Super late UD :3 sarreh na, I make it short, At dhil Final this week at masyadong marming ginagawa kaya hindi ako makapag update :( , After this week promise mag uupdate ako <3 Kamsa~
~blackrosiren
BINABASA MO ANG
The Mafia Boss Baby
Romance"I'd always been a man who followed his head and not his fucking heart.The heart was just a fucking bloody motor.The head was meant to drive" -miracles
