I pressed my lips firmly against Austin's. As if I were somehow trying to kiss away the sadness from slithering it's way between us.
Of course it killed me that he couldn't kiss me whenever he wanted. Or touch me. Or wrap his arms around me.
But I couldn't bring the words to my lips and tell him.
My heart ached as my fingers glided through his curls, while his were dug into the bare skin of my hips under my sweatshirt.
I desperately swallowed my feelings for him as I continued to tenderly kiss his lips. Being in his embrace always seemed to make me lose track of time and completely forget where I was.
Suddenly, it dawned on me that we weren't in the empty Air B and B all alone, and we were in Austin's house while the entire team was home.
I pulled away, leaning my forehead against his, our noses barely brushing together.
"I should go. We can't keep disappearing together." I said quietly as he nodded hesitantly towards me.
I climbed off of his lap and pecked his lips once more.
"Lena wait." His hands went to my hips stopping me in my tracks.
His deep blue eyes poured into mine as he longingly stared at me.
"I didn't get a chance to tell you but I had a really good time last night."
My lips parted to speak as I saw the sincerity on his face.
"I had a good time too Austin." I said as he tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear.
"I'll see you later beautiful."
I made my way through the studio, his eyes following me as my footsteps trailed throughout the room. I glanced up at him before I closed the door. His lips pressed to his fingers, blowing me a kiss goodbye.
I gave him a small smile before I shut there door behind me.
I made my way through the maze of a hallway and found myself in his enormous kitchen.
Vanessa was propped onto the kitchen counter, scrolling on her phone and sipping on a chilled glass of Rosè.
"Hey lady I was just ordering dinner. Everyone actually agreed on chinese take out for once. What do you want?" She said as I entered into her view.
"Oh. Uh chicken and broccoli is fine. Thanks V."
"I'm just going to order Austin his usual teriyaki chicken. Creature of habit." She rolled her eyes.
"I saw you got him into sushi though. That's a first for him. He's like a picky five year old when it comes to trying new foods." She chuckled.
"I've noticed." I smiled and shook my head. "He's something else."
"So where did you and Romeo sneak off to?" Her eyebrow raised as she referred to Austin.
"He's in the studio. We were um- talking." I shook my head, thinking back to our moment that got way too emotional for my own good.
"Just talking?" She furrowed her brows as if she didn't believe a word I was saying.
"Fine. Talking and a little kissing." I blushed as I shrugged my shoulder.
"So what happened last night? You guys had the whole freaking place to yourselves! How many times did you fuck? Did you do it in every room of the house? How was he?" She asked with widened eyes.
"We didn't." I said earning a look of confusion from her.
"We fooled around a little but mostly we just talked and joked around."
"Wait a minute what?" She questioned. "Lena, that sounds like a freaking date."
"It wasn't a date Vanessa, don't be ridiculous." I rolled my eyes at her, still in very much denial of what was going on between us.
I was only falling for him, no big deal.
She pulled a wine glass out of the cabinet to pour me some.
"Careful Lena. Next thing you know, you'll be in love."
I let out a long sigh as I took the wine from her hand. I brought the glass to my lips, nearly emptying it in one single sip.
It was too late to be careful about that.
*****
Fuck fuck fuck this was not suppose to happen. This is exactly what you were trying to avoid.
My mind began to race once again as I dwelled helplessly in my pool of emotions.
I lied awake for hours as Austin invaded my thoughts and embedded himself into my mind. I felt my body begin to crave him, yearning for his touch, his taste.
And now that my heart was involved, I knew my addiction to him was getting dangerous.
My body felt drained yet restless and I knew I would not get even a second of sleep.
I frustratingly pushed the heap of covers off of my legs and swung them over the edge of the bed. I raked my fingers through my wavy hair as I sat by myself in silence, my thoughts running nonstop in my head.
Before I even realized what I was doing, I was quietly leaving my bedroom and walking down the long hallway. I carefully tiptoed up the staircase until I reached the door I was looking for.
I stood anxiously outside of Austin's bedroom, my palms clammy and my heart hammering against my ribcage.
It was two in the morning and the house was still and quiet.
My shaking hand reached for the doorknob, slowly turning it and pushing the door open.
The room was dark, the dim moonlight shining it's way through the open window as I made out Austin's silhouette laying peacefully on the bed.
As the door clicked shut, I watched him stir on the mattress and turn to face where I was standing.
"Lena?" He hoarsely called out as I slowly made my way towards the bed.
"Hey." I answered quietly, suddenly feeling guilty and wondering if I had woken him up. "I'm sorry, did I wake you?"
He shook his head and reached out his arm, gesturing for me to join him.
"You okay?" He whispered curiously as he squinted his tired eyes in my direction.
I stood still at the side of the bed, biting down on my bottom lip, wearing a loose Nirvana tee shirt that ended just along my upper thigh. My long brunette hair was tousled and wavy falling down my back and my dark brown eyes filled with amourosity.
I blinked as I nervously nodded at him. My legs were trembling beneath me as I held myself up.
I reached for the bottom hem of my tee shirt, slowly lifting it along my torso as Austin watched me carefully, fascination gleaming from his expression. I raised the fabric further and further, pulling it off of my body and tossing it carelessly onto the floor.
Austin instinctively jolted up, his eyes widely dilated as he despairingly drank up the view.
I stood before him wearing a white lingerie set, a strappy bra and a matching lace thong.
I watched him swallow hard as his breathing suddenly became heavy and labored all at once.
"You look like a fucking angel." His voice low and gruff, sending sweet shivers down my spine. "Come here."
I shyly smiled at his comment before I crawled onto the bed, slightly pulling the covers off of him and instantaneously straddling his lap as he sat up on the mattress.
His big hands slid down the small of my back, roughly squeezing the curves of my ass.
Our eyes were fixed on each other as I circled my arms around his neck. I teased my lips against his, ever so slightly brushing them together but refraining from attaching them completely.
I felt his nails scrape against the soft skin of my ass in anticipation, our heavy breaths the only sounds echoing in the silent atmosphere.
I rolled my hips slowly, feeling his growing erection press emphatically against the thin fabric of my panties.
I watched him grit his teeth, trying his hardest to suppress his moan. This only encouraged me to endlessly repeat the sinful motion, except with consistant force and friction.
I felt a delicious pressure building up in my aching heat as our foreheads pressed firmly against one another.
After minutes of our mouths tiptoeing against each other, he finally melted his warm lips against mine, satisfying my deep starvation.
I deepened the kiss, exploring his mouth with a pained desperation as our hot skin pressed smoothly against each other.
Our tongues swirled lusciously in unison as I felt him sweetly moan into my mouth.
His tattooed hands looked rough and intimidating but they were always beautiful against my delicate skin. I closed my eyes in bliss as they ran sensually along the sensitive sides of my torso.
"Did you wear this for me?" He attentively kissed down the front of my throat. I slightly tilted my head back, relishing in the unimaginable sensation.
"Y-yes." I stuttered, always at a loss of words whenever his lips were molded onto my body.
His kisses traveled along my collar bone as I felt his hand glide upwards along my back. His fingertips effortlessly unclasped the hook of my bra, releasing my full breasts into his possession.
He fervently ran his tongue against my plump nipples, which were instantly hardened from the cool breeze of the darkened room.
He sucked impatiently at my breasts as if he had seemingly been deprived in some way.
"Austin." His name felt like honey leaving my lips as I felt his hardened bulge prodding through his boxers and strenuously rubbing against my warm heat.
He rolled my nipple between his teeth, biting down ever so slightly, earning a sudden gasp from me.
Within an instant, he swiftly flipped us over, my back colliding against the sheets.
He towered over my small frame, leaning down to faintly peck my lips. His mouth traveled down my neck, trailing kisses down my chest, between the curves of my breasts, and finally down my stomach, just below my belly button.
His fingers hooked ambitiously on the lacy strings of my panties, slowly sliding them down my thighs. He pulled them carefully to my ankles and tossing them thoughtlessly across the room, leaving me fully vulnerable and exposed.
His eyes were dark and overflowing with marvel as if he were seeing me for the very first time.
I felt like the single most beautiful thing in the entire world with the consuming way he was gazing down at me.
"You have no idea how fucking precious you are Lena." He rasped, his hands spreading my legs, bringing my knees near either side of my head.
He delved his head between my thighs, submerging himself into the wetness between my folds.
He erratically sucked on my throbbing clit, cause each and every nerve ending in my body to combust all at once.
My fingers tangled in his soft curls as I pulled wildly out of pure satisfaction.
His big fingers pushed into my soaking wet hole, causing me to nearly scream with pleasure.
"Fuck, oh my god." I writhed helplessly as he continued his delicious assault between my legs.
His tongue rippled furiously along my sensitive nub of nerves and I felt myself floating towards my high. My back instinctively arched as his fingers curled inside of me, massaging my sweet g spot.
"Austin I'm- fuck!" A heart stopping orgasm shattered it's way throughout my body as he relentlessly kept sucking on my core.
My hands loosed their tight grip on his curly hair as my body became weak beneath him.
He placed airy kisses along my thighs as I fought to regain my breath.
Once my strength was somewhat replenished, I sat up, pushing Austin off of me and onto his back.
His eyes ached with hunger as he watched me tug anxiously on the waistband of his boxers. I carefully dragged them down, allowing his hard length to readily spring free.
His hand raveled into my dark locks as I ran my tongue eagerly along his shaft. He hissed under his breath as his eyes locked onto mine while I seductively swirled my wet tongue around his tip. I opened widely, effortlessly taking all of him into my mouth, letting him dominate my throat.
"Shit Lena.." He thrived above me. His grip in my hair tightened as his eyes were now slammed shut and his lips parted.
I lapped my tongue skillfully over each and every inch of his member before I slowly released him from my mouth.
His eyes gaped open at the loss of contact and his chest retracted up and down as he watched my every move.
I leisurely climb onto his lap, straddling him once again as his eyebrows furrowed and his rate of breathing increasing by the second.
I watched his mouth dropped open as I slowly glided my dripping folds along his bare shaft, the slippery wetness fueling our gratification.
"Holy fucking hell." Austin whispered at the intense unfamiliar sensation as I grinded down on him, increasing the pleasurable friction while shockwaves surrounded my already quivering clit.
I leaned my forehead against his, grazing our lips devilishly as we mumbled profanities against each other mouths.
I reached down between his legs, gripping his length firmly in my small hand.
I lined him up with my aching entrance, his eyes widened in astonishment.
"Lena.." He whispered as if he was if pure and utter disbelief of what was happening. "There's no going back."
I swallowed hard, biting down on my lip as I focused on those mesmerizing blue eyes I hopelessly swam in day after day.
I softly melted my lips into his, briefly kissing him before I leaned our foreheads against each other.
"I know." I mumbled quietly against his lips.
I sank down onto his thick cock, letting every inch of his length fill my tight wet hole as we both gasped at the foreign sensation.
"Austin." I whined as I tried my best to adjust to his size.
"God damn Lena." Austin threw his head back as I slid down his entire shaft and slowly began to move up and down, grinding my hips as I delectably rode him.
I whimpered helplessly at this newfound euphoria relentlessly coursing it's way through my body.
"Austin!"
I quickened my steady rhythm as my breasts bounced up and down, his lips grazing them slightly as I moved.
"Fuck oh my god." I breathed, struggling to keep my moans at bay.
Austin carefully flipped us over, ensuring he remained inside of me the entire time, before he hovered over me.
He placed his pink lips against mine as he indulged himself further into my center.
His hands slithered up my arms, pinning my wrists on each side of my head as he thrusted feverishly in and out of me.
He pulled away from the kiss to gaze intently into my deep brown eyes but the second his lustful blue irises met mine, they almost instantly softened.
His hands released my wrists and traveled upwards to meet my own, his fingers intertwining with mine as his pace slowed, becoming almost gentle.
I arched my back, allowing him to push himself deeper and deeper as I felt us becoming one.
That feeling that I had desperately been running from had finally captured me and I soon felt as if Austin and I were no longer having sex.
It felt like he was making sweet fucking love to me and I was savoring every single second of it.
"You are so beautiful Lee." He whispered, just before his strokes increased. "So fucking beautiful."
"Austin I'm close." I cried as he continued to reach for my soul.
"Wrap your legs around me." He mumbled against my pouted lips before softly kissing me. I quickly obliged as his thrusts became hard and focused, while I thrived underneath his body.
I knew he was almost there and though I never wanted this to end, I was craving for us to reach our mouthwatering climaxes.
"Cum in me." I moaned as I felt the sensational uproar building between my legs.
"Lena, fuck- I'm gonna-" His words were cut off as he let out a deep groan.
"Austin.."
The beautiful mixture of our pleasurable sounds bounced off of the walls as we blissfully came together.
His body instantly collapsed next to mine as we both fought to catch our breaths.
His arm lazily wrapped around my waist, pulling me close.
He buried his face into my breasts and I felt him relax into my body. Our breathing harmonized in sync as his eyelashes were wisping against my skin each time he slowly blinked.
"That was.. everything." I mumbled, my voice breathless and weak.
I ran my fingers through his curls as he placed soft kisses along the curves of my breasts.
Without a single word from either of us, we laid in silence for the next few minutes, enjoying the closeness of our bodies pressed together.
"I should go back to my room." I whispered as I felt the exhaustion suddenly taking over me.
Austin's head instantly raised from my chest, causing his pretty baby blues to lock with my brown orbs.
"What?" He whispered, his voice hoarse and almost pleading.
"Someone will see me sneaking out of here in the morning." I reminded him, my thumb caressing his cheek.
"Lena I don't care." He said exhaustedly, his grip around my waist tightening by the second. "You're staying."
"Austin." I tried to reason with him as I ran my fingers delicately through his messy hair.
"Shh, do you hear that?" He asked, his fingertips grazing the small of my back.
The room was quiet and calm, the soft pattering of the raindrops hitting against the window being the only sound cutting through the stillness.
"It's a rainy day groupie, and I believe you owe me one." A small boyish smirk creeping onto his face.
I couldn't help but smile at how adorable he was. That damn grin always seemed to get me every single time.
I stared at him in disbelief that this man could have literally any one in the entire universe, yet here he was, fighting for my affection.
I leaned down, attaching our lips and kissing him softly.
I knew I couldn't fight the feeling in my chest that was screaming that I was right where I belonged.
In the arms of the man I was in love with.
I spoke in a low whisper as I broke the kiss, pulling the covers over our naked bodies.
"I'll stay."