Ashanti 🖤
compton, ca
3:42 pm
6 months later...
"GODDAMNIT RODDY! DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING??"
"nigga i do! i just don't get your point..."
"Jesus Christ..." I said rubbing my temple.
"Roddy... We aint us anymore... All we do is fight and fight and fight, and we just keep having angry sex right after. That's literally all we do now!"
This has been going on for 6 months now.
Ever since the death of the baby, Roddy and I ain't been the same.
The first two months were nothing but us depressed. I didn't leave the house and Roddy didn't either. He even stopped making music in that duration. All we did was cry in each other's arms. But as the months went on, we started arguing with each other.
Now we just fight about literally anything.
Fight and Fight. Everyday.
And then we would end up having sex.
I grew to hate our relationship.
"so what are you sayin ashanti?!?"
"I'm not saying anything! I'm just saying maybe we could go to one of them couples therapy things!"
"oh lord." he chuckled, but it wasn't a good chuckle.
"ashanti not everything you see in those stupid magazines work!"
"Well Roddy those stupid magazines helped me when I was depressed! So Im just thinking maybe..."
"maybe what?"
"That maybe if we tried out the couples therapy thing the magazine suggests, then maybe we could save our relationship..."
He rolled his eyes, putting his head on his palms.
"Roddy what's wrong with you? Im trying to save our relationship!"
"nothings wrong with me! it's just funny how you believe that a therapist is gonna fix our relationship."
I laughed in disbelief.
"I'm breaking up with you then."
He looked up at me.
"what?"
I looked at him dead in the eye.
"I'm breaking up with you."
He stood up and towered over me.
"no you ain't."
"Yeah I am Roddy."
"stop fuckin playin with me."
he said grabbing my wrists.
"Let go of me."
"why? you wanna leave me?"
"Just let go of me!"
"you prolly gon go suck another nigga dick huh?"
I looked at him in anger.
"Bitch maybe I will. Maybe that nigga would actually care about m-"
His palms harshly collided with my cheeks, causing me to fall back and hit my head on the wall behind me.
I felt my eyes water as I felt the pain.
"oh shit-"
he came over trying to hug me.
"No get away from me!" I yelled punching his chest and tears streaming down my face.
"im sorry baby please i didn't mean to do it.i was just mad that's all."
"No Roddy!"
"please baby i'm sorry."
He pulled me in for a hug, as I tried to push him away.
"Fuck you Roddy! I fucking hate you!"
"don't say that baby please i'm sorry"
I cried, burying my face into his chest.
"I-I just don't understand why you don't love me anymore..."
He looked at me.
"what? ashanti of course i still love you."
"No you don't!"
"yes i do."
He looked at me before pressing his lips onto mine.
His hands made its way down my body and inside my pants.
"Roddy..."
"sshh baby... let me show you how much i love you."
And there it is again . Arguing and then sex. Our second of the day.
-the next day-
"I don't know Hennessy. I just let him do it to me. I just let him hurt me and then fuck me."
Hennessy stood staring at me before going back to packing her luggage.
"Baby just leave him. If he's gonna be nothing but be toxic, break up with him. That's what I did with Crippy."
"Yeah and look at Crippy now. Depressed and back to hustling. Ion want Roddy to do that." I said.
"Well Crippy went back to hustling cause that nigga broke. And it was his fault he cheated on me so I don't know why he depressed."
I rolled my eyes sighing.
"I don't know anymore."
"Well you could come with me to New York." Hennessy suggested.
Hennessy decided that she was finally gonna chase her dream and open her own restaurant place so she's moving to New York.
I asked her why she couldn't just open her own restaurant here in California but apparently to her New York got snow and hotter thugs. Im gonna miss her.
I looked at her.
"I don't got money to buy a ticket and afford an apartment there sweets. Their like $5,000 a month for just a 1 bedroom apartment."
"Well actually you don't need to afford it. I bought the plane tickets before me and Crippy broke up so I have an extra one that was suppose to be for him.
Then with the apartment, we could live with my cousin Aliyah. She got a 3 bedroom crib down there."
"3 bedroom? Bitch is she rich?"
Hennessy laughed.
"No! She used to be a stripper though so she got a good amount of money through that and got herself her own apartment."
I nodded.
Should I leave Roddy?
"Yea I don't think so Hennessy. I don't know if I can leave Roddy."
"Mhm. Well if you change your mind just tell me. My flight leaves tonight. You gonna drop me off at the airport right?"
"Okay and yeah."
-
I left Hennessy's house and drove while thinking about me and Roddy's relationship.
This shit is so fucking toxic and Hennessy's offer is so tempting. I wanna leave Compton too. Everyone here is so fucking annoying, except for Donbo, Bird, Bree, and Wint (who I grew really close to).
I parked my car at the mall parking lot cause I decided maybe going to the mall would help ease my mind. Im trying to think if Im gonna come home and argue with Roddy again, or am I gonna come home to say goodbye.
I walked around for an hour before I went into this one store.
the big apple
It was this store that I guess was supposed to be New York themed and sells New York souvenirs and fashion.
I looked around, when I saw this sign advertisement for one of the coats they were selling.
"tired of California? move to New York!
Leave this tiresome city and start all over in the busiest city on Earth!
But, don't leave without this coat!"
I laughed at how ass the advertisement was, but I realized.
I wanna start all over.
I looked at the coat.
damn thats a nice ass coat.
I took it, and headed over to the cashier.
"Hey how you doin today?" the cashier lady asked.
"Im doin great thanks!"
I lied.
"Your total is $65.99"
I gave her my card.
"So are you moving to the big apple?" she asked.
"Excuse me?"
She pointed at the advertisement.
"Oh!" I thought for a second.
"Yes I am."
She smiled, handing me my bag.
"Well goodluck sweetie!"
"Thank You!" I said back.
-
I opened up my phone to call Hennessy while driving back to Roddy's house.
"Wassup." she answered.
"Hey... Your offer still valid?"
She chuckled.
"Yes best friend."
"Good. Cause Im comin with you."
"Yay! I can't believe it! Hennessy and Ashanti take over New York!"
I laughed.
"Yep!"
"So best friend... did you tell Roddy?"
I sighed.
"Im about to..."
"Well goodluck babes. Your gonna need it."
"Well gee Hennessy thanks." I said sarcastically.
"Mhm. Well call me when you ready to leave. Flight is at 11:00."
"Okay, bye."
I hanged up.
I got back to the house, and Roddy wasn't there so I went to my room and started packing.
I packed most of my clothes when I stumbled upon a little shoe box.
I opened it and smiled when I realized it was ultrasound pictures of the baby. I looked through it and found a picture of me and Roddy that Bird had snapped of us the first time we ever met at that party almost two years ago.
Damn.
That feels so long ago.
I felt a tear come out of my eye.
"what are you doing?"
I turned around to see Roddy at the doorway.
He looked around at the luggages.
"oh..."
"Roddy... Im sorry I j-"
"so you're really done huh?..."
I sighed.
"Yeah... I just cant take it anymo-"
Before I could finish he pulled me into a hug.
"you don't have to explain baby. i know i been treating you like shit."
I cried, hugging him back tightly.
"I-Im so sorry Roddy. I tried. I really did."
"its okay. we both did..."
He sat me down on the bed.
"so where you goin?..." he asked.
"New York..."
"new york? so you gonna be that far away from me huh? when you leavin?"
"Tonight at 11:00."
He chuckled.
"so you really wasn't gonna tell me till the day you was leavin?"
"Well it was kinda last minute... I only decided today when I went over Hennessy's house."
I felt tears stream down my face again.
He sighed, pulling my chin up.
"im gonna miss you cuzz..."
"Im going to miss you too Roddy..."
"i love you. dont forget that okay?"
"I love you too. And I won't. I won't ever."
-
*at the airport*
"Ashanti Im gonna miss you, you fat bitch" Wint said sobbing.
"Aww Wint! Im gonna miss your dyke ass too!"
I hugged her, as her tears left tear stains on my shirt.
I hugged Bree, Bird, and Donbo too.
I looked at Roddy, who's eyes were filled with tears.
"Bird, Bree, and Donbo. Help me with me and Ashanti's luggage? lets let these two say their goodbyes." Hennessy said and they followed.
"so this is goodbye huh?" Roddy said crying.
I wiped his tears.
"This is goodbye..." I said.
He pulled me in for a hug kissing my forehead.
"i really don't want you to leave cuzz." he said and I started to cry too.
"I know... but you know I have to."
"yea i guess I do." he said.
"and i wanna give you something."
He pulled this small box out of his pocket and opened it, revealing a beautiful ring.
"Oh Roddy..."
"this was suppose to be your engagement ring but i kinda put it away after the whole thing with the baby... i want you to have it... just to make sure you really don't forget about me."
At this point I was balling my eyes out.
"i will forever love you ashanti." he said slipping the ring onto my finger and kissing me.
"I will forever love you too Mr. Roddy Ricch."
He chuckled then sighed.
"you really sure about leaving?"
I nodded.
"Yea... I am."
He took my hand.
"well cmon. we don't want you to miss your flight."
We went to where Hennessy and the rest of them was at.
"WAIT! HENNESSY!"
We all turned around.
"Is that Crippy?"
He ran to us panting and out of breath.
"Crippy what are you doing here?" Hennessy asked.
He caught his breath for a couple of seconds before answering.
"I just wanted to say goodbye princess."
Hennessy smiled as a few tears fell from her face and she hugged Crippy.
"Goodbye to you too king." She said.
Crippy started crying.
"Im sorry for cheating! I really am. Im gonna miss you baby, you my forever!"
Hennessy took Crippy's hand.
"I forgive you..."
They kissed and said goodbye before I went to Roddy for one final hug.
"stay in contact with me ight cuzz?"
I nodded.
"I will."
He kissed me one last time.
"i love you."
"i love you too."
Hennessy and I took our luggages and headed towards the entrance of the plane, waving at all of them.
I looked at Roddy's face one last time.
I'm gonna miss him.
-
We sat down in our seats.
"I can't believe we moving to New York!!" Hennessy said excitedly.
"I know!!!" I said back.
I think us moving there is gonna be a great thing.
"We are now taking off to New York. Please put on your seat belts."
I looked down at my hand and at the ring Roddy gave me. It's beautiful.
The plane took off, as I looked out the window and saw California's bright lights at night. I saw Compton.
"Its crazy." I thought to myself.
It's crazy how last year I went to a simple party that Hennessy forced me to go to, and met a man by the name of Roddy that would forever change me.
I felt a tap on my shoulder.
"Yeah?"
"You ready?" Hennessy asked.
I smiled.
"I'm Ready."
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damn. 2200 words. I felt that this was a good spot to end this book.
i had to end it cause I was running out of ideas and my writing was getting worse because of that lmfao.
but I do have a great idea for a sequel though with her and roddy getting back together, but idk if yall want it. 🤷🏾♀️
if i did make the sequel i wont make it into a whole nother book, ill just use this book and continue on as Heartless 2.
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